Jan 1st, 2011

HAPPY NUDE YEAR, OR HAPPY NEW YEAR, OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT. My goals for 2011 1. Finish getting my funds together for my GRS on 8/23/2011 2. Finish the electrolysis on my facial area by May. 3. Continue working out at Curves a few times a week. 4. I would love to be in a bukkake porn movie with guys cumming all over my face 5. I would like to get a job as an exotic dancer 6. Continue doing massage on the weekends 7. I want to do a wedding photo shoot, with me as the bride.

Jan 4th
	I am waiting for my passport to get here, hopefully soon. It looks like we might be getting some snow here in New Hampshire this weekend, YEA ! My contract is ending January 31st, so I need to get my butt in gear in deciding on my next job.

Jan 6th
	In less than 4 weeks, I will be back in Ohio. I guess I better plan on what to do as far as making money. I might see if I can get a job as a stripper, otherwise I might just work strictly by contract for awhile.

Jan 7th

I find it interesting when some man whose testosterone levels are working overtime tries to overtake my camaro. Today, I was minding my own business driving down the road at 35MPH (yes, I was actually doing the speed limit). Meanwhile, some testosterone laden male was right on my back bumper, and when I got almost to where I wanted to turn, he tried to get in the turn lane early (before it officially started) to pass me. WRONG ANSWER MY DEAR, I HAVE A CAMARO Z28, and you DON'T. Needless to say, he ended up behind me after all. LOL. I don't use the power of the car like that very much, but every once in awhile, it provides some amusing moments. Tomorrow, I believe that I will be going to Club 313 in the evening, and possibly to a strip club during the day. I might see if I have what it takes to get a job as a stripper.

Jan 8th
	Painting my nails, getting ready to head to Club 313. I think I will wear my 7 inch heels and my long dark blue evening gown. Bring yourself and 49 of your closest friends to a cum on my face party.

Jan 10th

WELL, GOOD NEWS AND BAD NEWS. The state department finished processing my passport application, and they mailed it to me. However, it looks like they mailed it to the address listed on my license which is not where I am at right now. I put in a change of address, but according to the tracking number supplied by the state department, it looks like it was delivered to the address on my license. So now, I will have to call the post office to see if they can forward it to me here in NH

Jan 11th
	Hmm, supposed to get 10 inches tomorrow. I'm not sure how to handle that. Oh, and in other news, it is supposed to snow tomorrow. I am starting to get my stuff packed for Ohio. now to start serious job hunting as my contract ends January 31st

Jan 12th
	Truly incredible. 18+ inches. Oh, and in other news it snowed some too

Jan 14th

In 2 and 1/2 weeks, I will be off to Ohio. I am not sure what my next job will be. Right now I may be joining the ranks of the unemployed. I've had a good time here at Liberty Mutual in New Hampshire. I've paid off some bills, and I have some money saved for my surgery, etc. I have a majority of the money for my surgery, but still need some more. I'm going to be sending in my second downpayment on my surgery in about 2 weeks. Maybe I will go into escort, or maybe massage therapy, or maybe with a little help from my friends, I might become a stripper. The job market still sucks overall, so I need to find something to finish getting the money for my surgery, just not sure what yet. I wish there was an opening somewhere for bj girl, I'd win that job easily. Bobbie Jo

Jan 15th
	VERY HAPPY GIRL HERE TODAY. My passport arrived today, and it says FEMALE ! YEA! Now to finish getting my money together for August and arrange the travel

Jan 17th
	I guess I will be an unemployed girl in 2 weeks

Jan 18th

So why is it exactly that I can't do the job I am best suited for? That is of course: giving blowjobs for money. Someday I hope to live in an america where we get out of the business of trying to tell women what they can and can't do with their own bodies. I'm tired of the puritan horseshit. August 23rd, 2011 - my gender reassignment surgery date. I have about 2/3 of the money I need for it at this point. Of course, since my contract has ended, now I don't have a job, so I need to figure out something to get the rest of the money. Maybe I will do massage therapy for awhile. Total, it will cost me $20,000 for the surgery, travel, etc. Today, I received my original paperwork back from my passport application, my birth certificate, doctor and therapist letters, legal name change, etc. I applied for a couple of massage jobs in Cleveland. I may also go back into escorting again as well

Jan 19th
	The job I am best suited for of course? Well, without question, that is giving blowjobs. There's a reason my initials are BJ

Jan 20th
	I sent a note off to the bed and breakfast in Montreal to inquire about availability for August 21st though September 2nd. I am also looking at airplane tickets for that timeframe too

Jan 21st
	I went to a strip club last night, The GOLD CLUB. I know it's a long shot, but I am going to call them today and see if they are doing any hiring right now. They also have amateur night on Wednesday night. I think I'll go to that next week and check it out, maybe enter myself in the contest. Getting 8 inches right now, oh, and in other news, it's snowing again too.

Jan 21st - update

ALL SET ! Bobbie Jo will be dancing at the GOLD CLUB in Bedford, NH on Wednesday night. I will be there around 8 pm. I am worried about my audition next wednesday possibly being cancelled because there is a major winter storm possible for this area that day, and I certainly don't want it to fuck up my audition. I would be really sad and heartbroken if that happened. There's a place in Massachusettes that I could go to on Tuesday night, their amateur night is Tuesday night. I may do that one, and then hope that wednesday is still on too. I am beginning to think that I should stay in NH a little longer. I have a solid audition at a strip club here in NH, and I don't have one lined up in Ohio yet.

Jan 22nd
	I am going shopping at Kohl's today and then probably to 313 tonight.

Jan 23rd

I didn't make it to 313 last night. I stayed home and watched a movie (which I promptly fell asleep in the middle of, oh well). Today, I think I will go check out a strip club that has their amateur night on Tuesday nights. If I like the place, I may go there again Tuesday and be in the contest. Oops, well, that answered that question, the club that has amateur night on Tuesday is fully nude. Hmmm, don't quite think I better apply at that one until after August. I don't think all of the guys will like what I have down there right now. I'll just go to the GOLD CLUB on Wednesday night

Jan 24th
	WELL, DUMBFUCK here slipped on the driveway and fell right on my hip (and ass) as I was coming in the house from working out tonight. I hurt my toes, scraped my left elbow, and have what looks to be the start of a bruise on my hip. Oh yea, this will look really good for my stripper audition this week. I can hear the guys clamoring for me now, There she is---> Miss Black and Blue

Jan 25th
	Tomorrow is the debut of Bobbie Jo at Amateur Night at the Gold Club in Bedford, NH In other news, the room has been reserved for me at the Bed and Breakfast in Montreal in August. Dr. Brassard's office called and set things up already. YEA !

Jan 26th
	Well darn it all. They didn't have Amateur Night because not enough girls showed up. Anyway, they came over to my table and told me they weren't going to do amateur night, but they gave me an employment application. They told me to be sure and turn it in to the dayshift manager, because I would have a better chance of being hired. I will fill it out and turn it in tomorrow

Jan 27th
	Okay, it's fairly fucking obvious that there is no way in hell I am going to make it to the GOLD CLUB today to drop off my job application. The car is buried in snow (yet again!!!) and I am exhausted from shoveling and still have only about 1/4 of the car unburied. I will concentrate on digging out the car today, and drop off my application tomorrow at the Gold Club

Jan 28th

I am packing for Ohio and my house in Mentor....not too sure how much longer I will have a house there, but then again, not sure I give a shit either. Have I said FUCK THE THIEVES (oopsie, sorry, I mean banks) today? I went to the Gold club to complete a job application and talk to them about a job as a stripper. I talked to both the day shift manager and the assistant general manager. They told me that with the way business is right now, they didn't have any additional dancer openings, but they would keep my information on file, and I should check back in the spring when business picks back up. At work today, they took me out to lunch. (my manager and the entire team.). That was very nice of them. I've started packing in earnest, the current plans call for me to be back in Ohio either Wednesday or Thursday. My last day at Liberty Mutual is Monday. I'm going to check into a job at Executive Den when I get back, hopefully I can get a job as a stripper

Jan 29th

Okay, so it doesn't like me filing for unemployment until my actual last day of work, so fine, I will do that on the 31st. I've had a couple of people suggest strip clubs to me now, but do remember guys, even though I like that idea a lot, I am not a spring chicken. We're talking strippers that are in their 20s. I am 52, even though I've been told several times that I look to be more in my 30s. I appreciate all the wonderful comments, and yes, I may just apply to go into stripping when I get back in Ohio. I'm not going to do nude until have my surgery, but I can do topless now. My current plans call for me to go into escort and massage unless something else comes along.

Jan 30th

Tomorrow is my last day at Liberty Mutual. I will miss my coworkers who I have worked with for over a year now. Tomorrow night, I will come home, apply for unemployment, and pack some more. I have most of my perfume and paperwork packed already, and have already thrown some clothes in my suitcase. I need to finish packing the rest of my clothes, my computer and my personal items. Tuesday or Wednesday, I will close out my bank acct, and wait for my paycheck to get here. Once the paycheck is here, I will be on my way to Ohio. I also need to transfer my Curves membership to Ohio. In the middle of all of this, I forgot about my nephews birthday, so his card will be a few days late

Jan 31st
	So nice of them, they gave me a huge basket full of goodies today for my last day at LIberty Mutual. They didn't have to do that, and I appreciate it a lot.

Feb 1st
	Supposed to get 3-6 inches today, then 10-14 inches tomorrow. Goodness, I'm not all sure how to handle 10-14 inches. Anyone got any ideas? Oh, and I think it's supposed to snow some over the next couple of days too

Feb 2nd
	I am hoping the groundhog predicts that it's an early spring. We got six inches of snow yesterday, and getting another 12-15" today. It is supposed to stop snowing tomorrow, so maybe we can work on getting the cars dug out so we can head to Ohio on Friday. I received an email that the unemployment office received my paperwork, so that is a good thing

Feb 3rd
	Finally got cars dug out of the snowbanks they were stuck in. I am getting ready to pack up my computer, so I will be offline until Saturday sometime. I will leave for Ohio on Friday morning. Take care, all my Love Bobbie Jo.

Feb 5th
	1am Saturday morning - I am now in Ohio, I am very tired, and going to bed. Bobbie Jo

Feb 5th - #2

Okay, awake, I gave a blowjob, and got a tummy full of cum this morning, so I am ready to take on the world. Now, next step this week is to take a serious look at my finances. I am not sure what I am going to do with the house, a very smart person suggested I should just say fuck it ....it is true I am paying almost $600 a month just in utilities..and I don't really like this house all that much anyway....maybe I'll just rent a room from someone for the rest of my life, or go live with Rob in Columbus. Next, I am going to put up my massage and escort ad probably on Sunday (or Monday...depends when I get unpacked). Then I am going to work on SERIOUSLY losing about 15 pounds so maybe stripping might be in my future as well. The banks, and the irs can all go to hell, my surgery comes FIRST AND FOREMOST. I am seriously considering declaring bankruptcy, I'll look at that option some this week, and probably more next week.

Feb 6th

Neat, I had an arab girl on facebook that is in the very early stages of her transition, and she befriended me, and asked me a few questions about where to start. I provided my website with how I did it, and I answered a few of her other questions too, as well as pointed her to a few support sites, one of them being a support site specifically for transsexuals in the arab world. She told me that her sister and her are very close, and I said, start with her. I will be interested to know how she is doing, and I hope she keeps me updated on her transition. I will keep her in my thoughts.

Feb 6th - #2
	I've been throwing stuff away in case the thieves at Wells Fargo decide to steal my house away from me. Tomorrow, I will take my car in to get the oil changed, then place my ad for escort and massage, and then I am going to start on a serious diet. My goal is to lose 15 pounds by the end of March. I will also do more unpacking tomorrow

Feb 9th

have unpacked most of what I want to unpack. Still a few things left. I went to lunch with a former coworker of mine from Oppressive corporation. We had a nice lunch and chat. It was nice to see him again. Tomorrow I have a dentist appt. Wish I could have something else in my mouth besides dental instruments. I have been seeing a few friends lately, Timm for one. Hi Timm ! Yesterday I had torture treatment (electrolysis). Fortunately I don't have many sessions left. We are now down to 1/2 hour every 2 weeks. YEA, I look forward to this ending in 2011. This afternoon, I received an email and phone call. IBM wants to have a phone interview with me about a systems programmer position in Columbus, Ohio. That would be really nice if that position works out. It pays $55 an hour and would easily allow me to get the money for my surgery

Feb 10th

I had something in my mouth today. (damn it, not really what I wanted since I went to the dentist and it was dental instruments that were in my mouth). The dentist told me I needed two crowns, hmmm, for $2300 ??????. I don't think so right now. I have a higher priority than my teeth, hell I only need gums to give blowjobs anyway. LOL. The teeth will have to wait until I get a job with dental insurance. Anyway, I have a job interview on Friday, that would pay me $55 an hour, and give me more than enough money for my surgery. I hope I get it. I currently have $12,000 of the $18,000 I need for surgery, plus I need about another $1,000 for travel

Feb 11th
	As George Carlin said, "SELLING IS LEGAL, FUCKING IS LEGAL, WHY ISN'T SELLING FUCKING LEGAL?". I made an appointment with my doctor for June 6th as I need to get a few tests done for my surgery. CBC (complete blood count) BUN (blood urea nitrogen) Glucosis (blood sugar) Urine analysis E.C.G. with interpretation H.I.V. test

Feb 12th
	I mailed off another downpayment of $6,000 today to my surgeon in Montreal, that brings my total payments to $8,000 so far. (10,000 to go) I should start seeing unemployment checks show up soon, and my last paycheck from Liberty Mutual should also be here before too long as well. I need money, so I am looking forward to getting the checks.

My life

I grew up a little west of Baltimore, Maryland. I don't remember much of my early childhood. The first real memories I have are when I was about six or 7 years old. My first girlfriend was named Cindy, her and I used to sit in the back of the school bus and kiss. I also had a good friend Ralph, who a few months later, would be the first boy that ever went down on me. In 1968, we moved to Millersville, Md. It was around this time that I gave my first blowjob. My cousin had been after me for awhile to suck his cock. I kept saying, no, I don't do that. Finally one day I agreed to, more to shut him up than anything. We went up to his room, he laid down on the bed, I got down on my knees, and unzipped his pants, pulled them down, and I saw his cock through his underwear. I was fascinated by it. I rubbed his cock through his underwear. I took his underwear down and ran my hand over his cock. I then bent down and kissed it. It was wonderful, I took the head of his cock in my mouth, oh my goodness it was incredible. A cocksucking whore was born that day. I sucked my cousin many more times after that, I started sucking the cocks of all the boys in the neighborhood, anytime I had an opportunity to get a cock in my mouth, I was more than happy to be on my knees. My dad had built a tree fort for us in the backyard, which is where I took most of the boys to suck their cocks. I remember one time I was sucking a boy, and he shouted out, "I'm going to pee in your mouth". Stupid me, I didn't let him do it that day, but if I had known then, what I know now, I would have gladly drunk every drop of his pee. I gave blowjobs every chance I got. For halloween one year, when I was 9, my mom and grandmother dressed me up in a bridal gown. I liked that a lot, but wasn't sure why at that age. In my teens, I dated a few girls, and one girl, Diane, that was my high school sweetheart, who I still think about once in awhile. She was probably the girl that I had the most serious relationship with. I remember in my teens a couple of times sneaking into my mom's room, checking our her panties, bras, and jewelry, but I never took it further than that. Maybe I was more curious than anything then. I remember when I was 14 that I first "attempted suicide", but it was a failed teenage attempt, I tried swallowing a bunch of pills, but instead of dying, I got awfully sick, and was throwing up for most of the day. I received my first golden shower in my teens, and I have loved it ever since. After that first one, I remember peeing on myself in the shower, pretending I was reliving that first time. I first started having suicide feelings in my teens, I didn't want to be "normal", and I didn't understand what was wrong with me, but I wasn't happy trying to live a so-called "normal" life. In my 20s, I got fucked for the first time. That was okay, interesting. I like being fucked a whole lot better now. I got married at 23, and we stayed together for 6 years, even though we were both dating other people for some of that time. I wasn't really ready for marriage back then. I didn't really want to be married, guess I gave in to family pressure to do the things "boys" are supposed to do. There were often times in my late 20s and early 30s that I again considered suicide, the question was how would I do it. Gun, knife, pills, running my car into a tree?, what would it be?. I absolutely hated how I looked, I hated my body, I hated going out in public. I would spend as little time out in public as possible. I also felt very awkward dating girls. I simply wanted to BE HAPPY, and not in the direction I was being pushed by "family, friends and society". Why was what I felt to be so right so wrong in others eyes? One day, I decided today was the day I would die. I got in my sports car (a Toyota Supra), I went looking for a tree, I was going to slam the car into a tree at 135 mph, that would surely kill me and put an end to the pain and suffering I was going through. I got a good start, and soon had the car over 100 mph, As I came within a few hundred feet of the tree I had picked out, I don't know why, but I slowed down. I guess I wasn't quite ready to die yet. I thought of my sister, who I have always been very close to, from day one. I pulled over to the side of the road and cried and cried, and shouted, "I JUST WANT TO DIE, PLEASE KILL ME" at the top of my lungs. Eventually I calmed down some and made my way back home that day, and cried myself to sleep for the rest of the day. That day was probably my darkest day. I had a couple of other suicide attempts in my 30s ands 40s, but more a cry for attention and to end the hurt than anything else I guess. I did disappear for several days a couple of times with no one knowing anything of my whereabouts. I didn't want to be alive in the world. In 2000, my daughter Sasha was born, one of the happier moments of my life. I eventually found out that she wasn't biologically my daughter after I forced a DNA test when her mother was giving me hell. It didn't matter to me that Sasha wasn't really my daughter, I still treated her as my own. We had over 8 happy years together, before she was taken from me by her mother, and simply because I am a transgender female. In 2007, a very wise lady (Mistress Elizabetha) said a simple sentence that would bring me untold happiness and finally start me down the road to fix what was wrong with me all those years. Mistress Elizabetha simply said, "i wonder what you would look like as a girl". You all know the rest of the story which is here on my website. As a girl, I have finally found what was missing in my life all those years. I have found true and unbridled happiness. I no longer have thoughts of suicide. I have something very important now, and that is happiness, a wonderful support system with many wonderful friends and my family, a feeling of self-worth, confidence, courage, a wonderful life, and a determination to always believe in myself. Bobbie Jo

Feb 13th
	Hmmm, yesterday morning I got fucked, and at the end I received a nice load of cum down my throat. This morning I drank another nice load of sperm. YUMMY ! This afternoon, I went to see the chick flick movie: NO STRINGS ATTACHED, I liked it, and I cried at the end of that movie

Feb 14th
	I want to wish all of my friends and supporters A VERY HAPPY VALENTINES DAY. I hope you are able to spend it with someone very special. Bobbie Jo

Feb 15th

I left another forum today, got fed up with a nutcase lunatic psycho christian on there. As of today, I am no longer a member of tgguide.com I was driving to mentor this morning, stopped at a rest area to pee, and had a lot of blood in my urine. So, I turned around, went back to Columbus, called my doctor, and made an appt for 1pm. UPDATE---well, the good news is that I am relatively okay. It scared me more than anything else. Bottom line is that I have a slight bladder infection. My doctor gave me a prescription for some pills, and she told me to come back in 2 weeks. So, I will not be doing any pee play for the next week or two, but otherwise I am okay. I am feeling good.

Feb 16th
	HAPPY GIRL HERE TODAY. I have been offered and accepted a job in Columbus, Ohio. I start on my birthday, March 2nd. This will enable me to get the rest of the money for my surgery. Bobbie Jo

Feb 17th
	I will be heading to Warren this weekend for the Girls Night Out party

Feb 18th
	Hmmm, blog is getting a little long to load each time. I think in a day or two, I will split it into a couple parts, 2009/10, and 2011 to help it load faster.

Feb 21st
	Blog has been split for faster loading, into: Blog - 09 & 10 (for 2009 and 2010) Blog - 2011 (for the year 2011) Bobbie Jo

Feb 22nd

Today is torture treatment day, thankfully I don't have many of those left.  Of course stupid here forgot about it yesterday, and removed some hair from her upper lip area, oh well. I have been doing massages to bring in some money, and while it's not paying all the bills, I am keeping the utilities paid Well, torture treatment was less painful than usual, not many hairs left to take care of, so that is good. I am getting a bit concerned about something, the surgeon's office in Montreal has not yet seen the Cashier's check I mailed on the 12th, so I am a bit bothered by that since it was for $6,000. I don't want a six thousand dollar check getting lost (or stolen). Hopefully they will see it in a couple of days.

Feb 23rd

I find it "interesting" when so many of these so-called transgender "support" groups don't want to tell the real story of what far too many girls go through. They aren't there to REALLY support the girls, they are simply there to put the lucky ones on a pedestal, and to sweep the unlucky ones under the rug. There needs to be far more recognition of the girls that have gone through hell with their transition, and then we need laws in place (or maybe just some good old fashioned BUTT KICKING...my personal choice) to make it easier for people going through transition.

Feb 25th
	The surgeon's office in Montreal sent me an email that they received my second check. YEA! This leaves me with $10,000 to pay.

Feb 26th
	I've repaired the damage that was done to my blog by a sitestudio fuck-up. I leave for Columbus today, to start my new job in Marysville, Ohio on Wednesday.

Feb 27th
	I went to the URNA party last night and had a good time. I met several of my current friends, and made a couple of new ones too.

Lactating?
	I am not sure if this is a sign of things to come or not, but when I use the breast pump this morning, I am getting a milky white substance from my breasts. BREAST MILK ANYONE?

Feb 28th
	I mailed off the paperwork today for my job which is supposed to start on Wednesday.

March 1st

Well, I had my follow up doctor's appt. today to check on the status of my bladder infection, and good news, I am all cured. I have two celebrations in March, the first one is tomorrow, my birthday, I came onto this planet 53 years ago tomorrow. The second celebration will be on March 27th, when I celebrate 3 years living full time as the woman I should have been from day one. Looks like my start date at the job may get moved out a couple of more days, so instead of starting this week, it may be next week instead.

March 2nd

I went to the Transgender support group meeting in Columbus last night. I took one of these "gender identity tests" today. My results are: Your Raw Score is: 760, which indicates that overall you are Feminine Your appearance is Feminine Your brain processes are mostly that of a Androgynous person. You appear to socialize in a very feminine manner. You believe you have serious conflicts about your gender identity. ANALYSIS: Male to Female Transsexual, either post-operative or in transition NOTES: Your answers indicate you have altered your physical appearance to look like the opposite sex. Your Answers indicate your psychological state has likely prevailed since you were quite young.   HEY, SHOCK AND SURPRISE, yes, I am a FEMALE, but I knew that already.

March 2nd - #2
	Well yet, another so-called "support" group to piss me off. As of today, I am no longer a member of pinkessence. This is getting pretty simple, I am now down to one, urnotalone.com I wonder what they will do to annoy me?.

March 3rd

I found someone that I can look up to: This is what I want to do. I want lots of cum on my face, and down my throat. This would have made a wonderful birthday present for me yesterday. I wonder if I can make it come true on March 27th, my three year anniversary of being out full time. So far, the most guys I have taken on at one time is a dozen, that was quite entertaining, a dozen loads of sperm down my throat and on my face. Hmm, yummy ! http://xhamster.com/movies/197495/girl_drinks_sticky-salty_cum_from_more_than_50_guys_pt_1.html http://xhamster.com/movies/197497/girl_drinks_sticky-salty_cum_from_more_than_50_guys_pt_2.html

March 4th
	I am off to Cleveland, Ohio today. I will be at Cocktails this Saturday night for their GNO.

March 5th
	I am in Cleveland for the weekend, I have torture treatment today, then I am going to Cocktails Bar tonight on Detroit Avenue for their Girls Night Out party.

March 6th

I had a nice time at the Mardi Gras party last night at Cocktails. I received my share of beads (*_*). Michelle took some pictures, which I will get posted in a couple of days. There are rumors floating around that there was a topless transsexual at the party last night showing off her titties, but most likely that is just a rumor. Today, I am heading back to Columbus. We will see whether I start work this week or not.

March 7th

I got fucked this morning, I also gave a blowjob and drank a load of sperm.. Still no word from the CDI company about my supposed job. Not sure what is going on, I have sent 2 emails, and left 2 voice messages so far and nothing. I guess I'll become what my best talent features, being a call girl. Certainly a lot less bullshit to deal with. Still unemployed at the moment. I just received an interesting email. I was told that Honda wants to review all offers, (knew that part already) and that there is still no definite start date.I was told by my recruiter that if I receive an offer from another company that I should go ahead and take it, and she will keep an eye out for me in case any other jobs come along. Whoever put this "deal" together between CDI, IBM, and Honda obviously forgot to cross the T's and dot all the I's. So, I will be going back into massage for awhile. Rob took me out shooting tonight. I got to try out the 22 he got me for my birthday.

March 8th
	Here's a picture of one of my birthday presents. I went shooting last night at the pistol range.

March 9th
	I was contacted about a job in Jacksonville, Florida today. The recruiter is going to get some more information about it. I may be heading to Cleveland, Ohio on Thursday for a couple of days.

March 10th

I am in Cleveland until Saturday afternoon. I am doing massages for a couple of days to bring in some money to help me with bills. Well, I was driving up here today and almost got into a major traffic accident that most likely would have easily killed me. The tractor trailer in front of me was going much slower than I anticipated, it wasn't until I got way too close that it finally hit me how slow he was going. With inches (maybe 4) to spare, I was able to slip and slide into the other lane. Funny isn't it?. Before I transitioned I would have welcomed a chance like today, I would have welcomed death. Many times I tried to find it to end my life. Now that I am the woman I should have been all along, I am full of life and don't have those feelings of suicide anymore. Life means something to me and I live each day to the fullest, enjoying myself, meeting new people, spending time with friends, and having a good time.

March 11th

I am keeping the people of japan in my thoughts today. I have a friend that has family in Japan and she is worried about them. If I don't find a job before too long, I am going to end up cancelling my surgery. I won't have the money to get it done. I am going to see a bankruptcy attorney on March 22nd. We got a foot of snow today in Ohio. I am tired of snow. I will be heading back to Columbus Saturday night, maybe I can do a few massages Saturday morning before I leave.

March 12th

I despise game players. I despise people that make a massage appointment and then don't show up. Gentlemen, if you don't have the balls and the courage to get a massage from a transsexual, then please don't waste my time, and don't make the appointment in the first place. I also notice a trend, that the only people who are bothered by the fact that I have a roommate, are those individuals that are intent on doing me harm. If you have something happen that truly prevents you from getting here (car issues, etc), all you have to do is to call (or text) me and let me know, but at least have enough decency and be considerate of the fact that my time is just as valuable as yours. Even a transsexual deserves some basic consideration, agreed?

March 13th

We each have to do what is required in order to survive. Many of us are barely hanging on due to this piss poor economy. Don't judge any decision we may make, whether you agree with it or not. The chances are very good that you don't know everything we are dealing with. Unlike what happened with the thieves (sorry, I mean banks), no one is giving us $700 billion to help us out. I know of a transgender girl that resorted to selling drugs for awhile to eke out a meager existence. I don't approve of selling drugs, but I did not judge or condemn her, after all, she did what she had to do to survive. A woman's gotta do what a woman's gotta do to make ends meet. NOW, For someone who knows who she is, WHEN I SAY TO CHANGE THE SUBJECT AND STOP TALKING ABOUT A TOPIC, THAT MEANS TO CHANGE THE SUBJECT AND STOP TALKING ABOUT THE TOPIC. Now, please obey my wishes on this, and do not bring it up again. I am looking forward to talking with the bankruptcy attorney on the 22nd. I've had enough, the bank can have that 24 year old house. I am tired of paying over $500 a month in utilities. I have better things to do with $500 a month than waste it on that black hole. I will never buy a house again. If I were to decide to leave the United States at some point, I would move to a country where prostitution is legal. I am so very fucking tired of "so-called morality" and religious horseshit and idiotic, dumbshit, jackass laws. I am tired of the GOP's latest attacks on women. I'm tired of a George Orwellian society. Gay marriage, don't like it?...Then don't get one and shut the fuck up.     Abortion, don't like it?....then don't get one and shut the fuck up. I look at america and I don't see the courage that our forefathers had, instead what I see is mostly a bunch of sheep. I ABSOLUTELY DESPISE SHEEP. To "almost" steal a line from Star Trek II, The Wrath of Khan: BEING A COCKSUCKING WHORE IS MY FIRST, BEST DESTINY, ANYTHING ELSE IS A WASTE OF MATERIAL. What a woman does with her own body is HER GODDAMN BUSINESS and no one else's.   So, I am starting to add up my expenses for the meeting with a bankruptcy attorney on the 22nd. I owe: 6,000 to the IRS 112,000 on my house 5,500 on one credit card 21,000 on home equity line of credit 22,000 on two other credit cards So see guys, see what trying to be a good parent got me? I spent lots of money on my daughter, (via putting more on credit cards than I should have) including sending her to Primrose (not one of the cheaper schools) for a few years to give her a head start in life. I loved my daughter, treated my daughter like a queen, I would have done anything for her, and I had her stolen away from me by some lunatic nutcase that "claims" to be christian. Gee, thanks a lot. Anyway, the above doesn't even include normal expenses like car insurance, hormones, food, clothes, etc. (granted I have enough shoes to last me awhile). Plus I need to get two crowns on my teeth which is about $2,200 and I still need to come up with about $10,000 for my surgery in Montreal. I think my surgery in Montreal is going to be postponed until August 2012 unless I magioally come up with some money between now and then. The job at Honda definitely fell through, that one is definitely gone. They ended up cancelling the contract. Some obvious miscommunication on that one, my recruiter told me that today. My recruiter also told me today about a new work from home job which she is going to submit me for, so maybe I will get that one. It's more for print software, which is not quite what I have the most experience with, but this isn't rocket science either. HEY COMPLETELY USELESS IDIOTS IN CONGRESS, WHERE IS MY BAILOUT?

March 13th - #2

I now understand why some post-ops leave the transgender community behind. I am about to that point, and I'm not even post-op yet. Hoping I find something soon in the way of work. I applied for a job in NC today. It's times like this that I wish I was a 21 year old cute GG, then I could at least dance in the nude strip clubs and make some money. I applied for a job as an escort tonight, but they said they aren't looking for transsexuals right now. They said they would keep my information on file if that changes.

March 15th
	Well, let's see if I have any luck with a job today. I am going to call about a dancer job this afternoon. Okay, left a message for the one. I also called Executive Den and they are actually hiring dancers now. I think I will make a trip there next Monday or Tuesday when I am Cleveland.

March 16th

I am looking through the classified ads for jobs. Right now I am looking for administrative assistant or something like that. I am also going to go to Executive Den when I am in Cleveland next week, and apply for a dancer job. I've also started looking at dancer jobs here in Columbus too. My ideal job would be one that says, "Wanted, cocksucking cum slut, must be on her knees most of the time".  I WANT TO BE A BLOWJOB GIRL.I'm still looking for that ad.   I was on webcam this morning, I showed off my titties, I fucked myself with one of my dildos, and then I peed in a glass and drank it. Delicious ! I was contacted today by a company for a six month contract job in Scottsdale,Arizona.   Hmmm, well, that would give me money for my surgery. I guess we will see what happens. This would pay me $40 an hour with an additonal $25 an hour per diem.

March 18th
	Well, hopefully some kind of job will come through soon. I was contacted today about one job in Pittsburgh, PA and one in Boston, MA. Hopefully one of these will come through, I will keep my fingers crossed.

March 19th
	Maybe I'll become a sexetary and take DICK-tation. Hmmm, now there's a nice thought.

March 20th

Here's a good website for guys that may be considering dating a transsexual woman. http://www.tsgirlfriend.com/ Some items from the site. If you are a single man looking to find a new girlfriend of quality, there are some options out there that you may not have previously considered but should. Your first reaction might be to say “that‘s not for me,” but hear me out. If you're looking to get a girlfriend, one type of female you might have not previously considered is the transsexual woman. Your first reaction might be confusion and that‘s normal, but think about it. What makes a woman? Many men have told me they actually prefer to date transsexual females because they are very feminine, sexy, pretty and they seem to relate to them better. Their strength of character for what they have to face makes them incredible women. They aren't some horrific vision of a man in drag. They are women, soft and lovely and worth a second look as you search for a new girlfriend. Read what one man had to say about his transsexual girlfriend: "When I was looking to get a girlfriend, I searched online and met an attractive transsexual woman. My post-op TS girlfriend and I have been together for over four years. We began dating before she has sex reassignment surgery. Among the things that impressed me are her hand gestures and walk. A transsexual isn't a guy in a dress. She isn't acting when she walks like a born female or gestures with her hands. She's not playing female. She was playing male -- acting -- when she lived as a man. With that burden of role-play lifted, her feminine qualities came to the surface. She walks, talks and gestures like any genetic woman you have ever met. And none of it is artificial or forced. It's not an act." For some men, being attracted to a TS female can cause a little anxiety. Don’t let mis-information, ego and fear make you pass up the opportunity to get a great new girlfriend. Check it out. You very possibly could find a hidden treasure who just might be the love of your life. It's pretty simple, really. Show us you respect us and think we're special to you. Show us you think enough of us to have planned a nice evening for us. We're looking forward to spending time with you. We've already put a lot of thought and energy into looking nice for you and wondering what nice things are in store for us. Will it be dinner and a movie? A romantic walk? Dancing and drinks at a nice club? You can discuss it with us first or surprise us, but the guy leads the dance. You shouldn't walk all over us, but please have a plan. Let's summarize what you already know. Women like to be treated in special ways. They want to be loved. They are sentimental. They have a "shopping gene" and every now and then they are going to drag you off to Nordstrom's and expect you to handle the anxiety while they shop. They are warm, loving creatures. Let's summarize some more things we already know. Women are more emotional than you are. T-girls are women, whether they are pre-op or post-op. Let's discuss that. The basics. Your T-girl wants to be treated like a lady (outside the bedroom, anyway). You score points when you show some common courtesies, of the sort your mom told you about when you were a boy. Going out on a date? Don't just hit the button on your key ring to unlock the door. Open it for her, make sure all her clothing is inside, close the door for her. It's a nice consideration and she will appreciate it. Reviewing this article before publication, one of the T-girls in our chatroom observed that opening car doors isn't such a big deal when she's casually dressed, but it's a different story when she's put in a lot of time to look great. "It is partly that we feel so much more elegant and want to be shown how much it is appreciated," she said. Does that mean you're obligated to open every door she encounters, every time, forever? Does that mean when you're leaving Nordstrom's while carrying bags and boxes, and she's only carrying her purse, that you need to also get the door for her? Not at all. It's simply a masculine gesture of consideration for your lady that you can perform to show her that she's special to you. Flowers brighten a woman's life. The colors, the scent, they're great to look at, and very inexpensive. Furthermore, they last for days. Are you headed over to her house? Stop off at a florist's or at a supermarket, pick up something nice, take it to her. It doesn't need to be anything expensive. Flowers tell a woman you want to brighten up her day and that you care about her. That they last for days means they perform that mission for as long as they are there, and even longer as she remembers your gift, but don't get flowers everytime, bring them once in awhile, to show us how special we are to you. Like with any genetic women, T-girls love surprises....things like scented bath soaps, bath sets (moisturizer, body wash, bubble bath in a tote bag), lighted makeup mirror, etc. I read about some study that shows male anxiety levels spike when he goes shopping with his woman. Women (including T-girls) have a shopping gene. Deal with it. She knows you don't want to go shopping with her, but if she wants you to go, she probably has a reason, so put up with it. Maybe your mission will be the heavy lifting. But here's something. You want to shock the daylights out of her? Ask her if she wants to go shopping. There isn't any way she will say no. Back surgery may be scheduled for 1pm, but it will be put on hold, I assure you, if she gets an invitation to go shopping. Have something in mind to buy her. That will really blow her away. All women, including T-girls, love restaurants. Dining out is a great way to spend time together. You get to talk over an enjoyable meal where someone else has to deal with cooking, serving and washing the dishes. The very act of taking her out is an act of consideration and love. You can go to some elegant restaurant all dressed up, or someplace casual. It can be an expensive night out, or not. What's really important isn't where you go or how much you spend. What's important is that you're with the lady you enjoy being with, you pay attention to each other and enjoy a great meal. So, if you look at a TS woman as being a "shemale" (horribly offensive term), or a woman with "something extra," then you have completely missed the fact that a TS woman is NOT male in any way, form, etc. Yes, that is what I said. What? you say. But a woman doesn't have a penis, does she? YES! We sometimes are born that way, but all are still women. Let's examine a few things: What makes you a woman or a man? Is it your genitals? If you are a guy and your penis is cut off tomorrow, would you all of a sudden become a female? NO! Look at what happened to John Bobbitt, who had his penis cut off. Did he become a woman all of a sudden until it was reattached? NO! The fact is, gender identity comes from the brain, not the genitals. We all start off as female in the mother and some will turn into males. But every so often, what happens is that the brain stays female-identified and yet the body turns into male, or even ambiguous, as in the case of the intersexed, those born with both genitals. In some other cases, the body turns female while the brain stays male Obviously, seeing a pre-op TS woman as something attractive physically to a straight guy takes a very open mind and a empathetic heart. We understand that. But, you have to look at a person's mindset: because that is where any real relationship is formed. You don't marry a "body," and if you do, you will soon learn that it is a shallow, meaningless existence bringing no real fulfillment. The emotional/mental connection is what forms a true bond that can weather any storm. Looks fade, people, looks fade. On the upside, you will many times find that a TS woman is a bit more "appreciative" of being able to live their life as they feel it. This oftentimes makes for a woman who really LOVES being a woman, and is many times more feminine than the average woman. (Again, people, there is ALWAYS the exception to the rule!) We are not often burnt out on wearing skirts or heels, and many enjoy doing makeup daily. It is for the reason that many of us were denied the chance to do it when younger, and so now that we can, we go all out and really love being ourselves! As for me, I have the very feminine, soft voice, and a very feminine walk. I do my makeup everyday except Sunday, which is my pampering time for doing my facials and nails, etc. I dress very nice, every day. Everywhere I go with you, people will only see me as the woman I am. So what does a TS girl want? Respect, love, kindness, humor. A "nice" person who sees us as our true selves. Listen, this I can probably guarantee: Our greatest fight, our toughest challenge in life has been: getting others to see us for who we really are, just women.

March 21st
	I am in Cleveland today. I am talking to a bankruptcy attorney tomorrow. At this point, it looks like I will be cancelling my gender reassignment surgery unless things change quickly. If anyone hears of a job in the porn industry for a cumwhore like myself, please let me know at: goldshow@yahoo.com I love bukkake, golden showers, cocksucking, facials, etc.

March 22nd
	I talked to the bankruptcy attorney today and it looks like I qualify for a chapter 7 bankruptcy. If I can do some massages this week in cleveland, I will have enough to start the process. In other news, I have but one thing to say on this link below, and that is that I am jealous. Who wants to cum and pee in my mouth? Drink up

March 23rd

Great, so I wake up this morning, there is no heat in the house, temp is down to 59, BRRRR, the stupid thermostat reads batlo, which I guess means the battery is low. Okay, found two batteries and replaced the batteries, thermostat working again. Thank goodness. Of course, when I first looked at the display, I thought it said 6atlo and I'm like what the hell does that mean. After resetting all the breakers in the circuit box (and getting nowhere), it finally dawned on me, that it was probably a b instead of a 6, therefore meaning the battery was low. (okay, yes, the secret is out, I am actually a blonde, lol) Hey, I'm a girl, electronics are not my best talent, on my knees and sucking cock is my best talent.

March 26th
	Well, still no job yet. I've got about three weeks before I will cancel my surgery, no money, no surgery. I've had a lot of nibbles, but nothing concrete.

March 27th

Three years full time today. It's an anniversary, but not a huge deal, (but a happy day for me nonetheless). It's not like GG's go around shouting, "I've been a woman for 25 years today". However, with that said, being transsexual is something very special. In many cases, we take better care of ourselves than the GGs do. I live each and every day happy and content to be a woman. I think dinner and a movie, and maybe a little shopping are in order today. I might get a new pair of shoes, or maybe a new dress to celebrate today. I received a very nasty comment from someone that I thought was close to me. I was obviously wrong. I hope you don't treat all the women you meet the way you just treated me. Well, you want it this way, fine. I would say that you owe me an apology, but after your comment, I don't think I want to hear from you ever again. You hurt me deeply tonight, but obviously you don't care about me like you claimed. Goodbye. The really sad part of all of this is that: A)People for some reason feel a need to be ugly to other people and that B)I obviously need to be a lot less trusting of people from now on.

March 28th

After crying myself to sleep last night, I am a little better today. I am tired, didn't sleep very well. I am going to lay back down and take a nap. I can not believe I let myself be suckered into believeing that he was close to me. You don't say things like that to people you are close to. Meanwhile, I find it "interesting" how some men talk to me on yahoo, and the second their wife walks in the room, they're like, "got to go, later", etc., but then these same men will get upset with me if I say I have to go, and need to end the current conversation. Please give me the same respect you want me to give you, thank you.

March 28th - #2

I am feeling a little better after my nap. I woke up and was promptly fucked, ending in me having a wet, gooey tushy full of cum, hmmm, yummy. I am still looking for work, either consultant work as a computer programmer, or work as a hooker, stripper, or sexetary. (not necessarily in that order).. I also think I'd be good working with children, preferably in the 4 to 10 year old range, I would love to be a teacher or teacher's aide. Rob took me shooting this afternoon. I got to shoot a Sig P226, a 556, a 9MM and my 22.

March 30th

Still no job yet, I guess I can always become a housewife. I am looking into selling my one car, and later I might sell the other one. No sense having cars with no place to go. If you know anyone that wants a 1966 caprice, let me know, thank you. Nothing major going on transition-wise, other than I have a couple of weeks before I have to cancel my surgery. My girls continue to grow, so that is good. I may head to the Cleveland area tomorrow.

March 31st

I am in Cleveland for several days. I'm doing a few massages, trying to get some money, etc. I need to get my taxes done over the next several days. I may go to Cocktails or Bottoms Up sometime this weekend. I am leaning towards Bottoms Up since I haven't played on the stripper pole lately. I am also planning on checking out a few strip clubs around town to see if they are hiring dancers. Rant mode on: I received a comical letter from the bank today, telling me my home equity loan payment is over 30 days late. I think I will send them a letter back, and say, "Well, don't worry, you'll get paid, AS SOON AS SOMEONE GIVES ME $25 BILLION DOLLARS like they gave you goddamn motherfucking scumbag low-life thieves." Okay, I feel better now, rant mode off.

April 1st

Today was email day. I received an unexpected email and phone call today. That was nice to hear from you. I also received another email from someone I haven't seen in awhile. Meanwhile, there is nothing quite as nice as being on my knees, with a cock aimed at my face, peeing all over my face. Then having it cum on my face. The only thing better would be if I were on my knees with a group of guys around me peeing all over me and cumming all over my face.

April 2nd
	Torture treatment day today. Thankfully we're only doing half hour sessions now. Here's a good quote --> when the many fail to look out for the needs of the few, above their own needs, freedom deteriorates and government becomes nothing more than 3 wolves and a sheep choosing what to have for dinner.

April 4th
	I was at the grocery store today, and I noticed something. I appeared to be the only girl there that was wearing 5 inch heels. What's up with the woman on this planet, heels girls, put on some heels ! Even if you're in jeans, sex it up a little with some heels.

April 6th
	Bought a new puppy yesterday, we got her from the pound. She is a cute miniature daschund, female, 7 pounds, 2 years old. She is a real sweetheart. She just got spade, so she is sleeping a lot. Now to get her and the cat to like each other. I am in Cleveland for a few days, we will see if I get any massages or not. Massages have been slow lately.

April 7th
	I had someone contact me through my website, and he lives in Cumberland, Maryland, but when I tried to reply to his email address, it said account discontinued, so if you see this, send me your new email address dear. In other news, I had someone contact me today that I hadn't heard from in awhile. It was so nice to hear from him. We chatted for awhile. I liked that.

April 8th
	Okay, I am officially fed up with rain and cold. Enough already, I want sunshine and warm temperatures.

April 10th Hmmm, yes, nothing like starting the morning with a nice hard cock down my throat, followed by a creamy ending and my face being covered in cum. YUMMY ! I received a nice facial this morning. I think I am going to have to post some facial pics, and maybe a video of me getting my face peed on. Yesterday, I went with Rob to a friend of his. The guy had a wonderful house, and huge yard. He had a firing range on his property. I got to shoot a 12 gauge yesterday, the first time I ever did that. I also drove a 4 wheel atv yesterday (another first), and then one of the guys there took me in his jeep, and we went "off road mudding" through the corn field. Another first. That was pretty entertaining. I was the only girl there yesterday, hmmm, just me and 4 horny guys!. That's a start towards the 50 guys needed for the bukkake party.

April 11th
	Hmmm, I got fucked this morning, a nice hard cock in my tushy, and finished off by shooting a nice load of cum down my throat. Yummy !

April 13th

While I certainly have my share of stripper outfits, daisy duke short shorts, 4,5,6 and 7 inch heels that I like wearing, and I also love short skirts, dresses, evening gowns, etc. none of those are what makes me a woman. The difference between a CD and a TS? - CDs like to play dress up, a TS just wants to be herself. There's an old joke that the difference between a CD and a TS is about 2 years. For me, it was less than a year, actually it was about six months from when I seriously started cross-dressing to when I decided I was going to go full time. Some people tell me that is fast, well, I just knew what was right for me. I've always been a "take life by the horns" type of girl. Four years ago when I was just a cross-dresser, , I wasn't sure if guys would find me attractive or not, and back then, I couldn't even fathom not wearing makeup going out. Now I know that the "impossible" is indeed possible. I get hit on now regardless of whether I am wearing makeup or not. Guys tell me they are attracted to my femininity, my strength, my courage, and my outlook on life. While I am upset with the thought of having to postpone my surgery, I know that it is only temporary. I also know that I am already a woman, and the surgery won't change that part. It will simply get rid of anymore "tucking". I've got people reminding me that it is only a temporary setback, simply a postponement and a date change, not a permanent cancellation. That has helped me deal with it better. I do hope to have some kind of employment soon.

April 14th

The red cross from New Hampshire called me again today looking for a possible blood donation. I told them I wasn't in New Hampshire anymore, but I guess I can do one in Ohio now. I wonder if I should put a warning on my blood donation that any girls that get my blood might turn into a cock-sucking cum slut. Speaking of cocksucking cum sluts, I am in the mood to be on my knees in front of about a dozen guys (for starters), sucking their cocks, and have them shoot cum on my face and down my throat.

April 15th

Yahoo mesenger fucked up (as usual) today, and it died just when I was about to check the messages on it, so if you sent me a message via yahoo messenger today, just be aware that I didn't get it. This was taken from someone's facebook page and I agree with it. "I think all GLBT people should refuse to pay taxes anymore until our rights are guaranteed. I'm talking about equal treatment. I'm talking about the right to marry, the right of survivorship, the right of patriots to serve in the armed forces, the right of lovers to emigrate each other to this nation, the right to offer healthcare to the significant others of GLBT people... the right to get a 10 year passport in our identifying gender like every other american, the right to change our birth certificate in every state after having GRS, the right to be be in public without fear of being beaten up or murdered simply for being ourselves, etc. When you don't get equal treatment, your only recourse is civil disobedience." I think the GLBT community should quit paying taxes until fat, pudgy, bigoted people, married cousins from West Virginia, and so-called "religious" psychos grant us all the rights of citizenship. I am tired of being treated like a second class citizen.

April 16th
	I had torture treatment this morning, although I will say that even though it hurts a little, Carol does a great job in clearing my face. I'm so glad to only be doing this for half an hour now, means we're close to the end. I may go to Warren tonight for the GNO, not sure.

April 18th

Happy Birthday Ken. Off to job hunting again. Hopefully I have some luck today. I may give this internetmodeling.com site a try and see what it is like. I applied to IBM, Northrop Grumman, and also to internetmodeling.com              Hopefully one of those will come through. I also wrote an article for Transliving Magazine, we will see if it gets published or not. In other news, here ae some lucky girls in the  links below.   I want cum on my face too. http://xhamster.com/movies/625829/a_lot_of_sperm_07.html http://xhamster.com/movies/603216/girl_swallow_a_lot_of_cum.html http://xhamster.com/movies/272806/beauty_girl_swallowing_lot_of_cum.html

April 19th
	Well, on the bright side today, I was approved for work as a "model" on internetmodeling.com Now I have to finish filling out the rest of the paperwork. So, yea, I at least have something, now we'll see how much money it brings in. They said it will take a few days to get everything set up. I also found this site for pole dancing classes in Columbus. Pole Dancing in Columbus

April 20th

I am in Cleveland until the morning of the 29th, then on the 30th, I am heading to Pittsburgh for the NRA meeting. There is nothing I like better than a nice hard cock down my throat, followed by a nice load of sperm shooting down my throat, on my face, on my tits, and in my hair. Yummy ! Next question, who wants to pee all over me? Cocks are good, cocks are great, so many cocks to choose from to rate I love them all, I love each one, I especially love it when they cum and cum Its so hard to rate them win, show or place,especially when they cum all over my face one cock, two cocks, look, there's three, I just love to drink their pee one in my mouth and one in my ass, now that's an opportunity I certainly won't pass pee in my mouth, pee on my face, bring 50 of your friends over to my place cum on my face, cum in my hair, drown me in jism, cum everywhere I love to suck, oh yes I do, but don't forget, you can fuck me too.

April 22nd
	I was at the grocery store today trying to coax spring into coming out of its hiding place. I had on my 5 inch heels, cute white top, and my Daisy Duke short shorts. I was getting a few stares from the men (and had one following me with a shiteating grin on his face), and I probably got a few scowls from the married women, lol.

April 23rd
	Yea, spring, nice weather today, finally! I have on my daisy duke short shorts, I am going on a walk around the neighborhood.

April 24th
	HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE.

April 25th

Transgender Woman Beaten at Mcdonald's "It is a HATE CRIME. It is even more outrageous as the "women" who did this are black. And they SHOULD know about hate and discrimation. But it appear they do not. I hope Both get serious jail time." (Personally I'd like to see both attackers executed publicly in the town square). Chrissy Lee Polis, 22, stopped at the McDonald's to use the restroom, but was attacked by two females, including a 14-year-old girl, who repeatedly kicked and punched her. Polis also claimed they spit in her face. A worker at the restaurant Vernon Hackett, 22 taped the attack, and he was fired days after the incident. Another employee and an elderly restaurant patron tried to intervene. Others can be heard on the video laughing, and others are doing nothing. After the video garnered hundreds of thousands of views on websites, McDonald's issued a statement condemning the incident. Hacket allegedly posted a comment about the incident on Facebook, saying "that was not a female that was getting beat up¦ that was a man. The three-minute video clip was posted on YouTube, but then taken down by administrators who said it violated the site's policies. But it popped back up on other sites and was ultimately linked from the Drudge Report. " My first and foremost concern is with the victim," franchise owner Mitchell McPherson said in a statement, adding that action might be taken against other restaurant workers. "I'm as shocked and disturbed by this assault as anyone would be. The behavior displayed in the video is unfathomable and reprehensible." Read more story below.... Polis said she plans to take legal action against the restaurant, according to the Baltimore Sun. "Anyone in my predicament should not be afraid to walk the streets," Polis said. "They should not have to go into a restaurant and get gawked at and made fun of. They shouldn't be afraid to leave the house. It's just wrong." Polis, a resident of Baltimore, reportedly was first attacked in the women's restroom. At the end of the attack, she appears to have a seizure. She suffered cuts to her mouth and face, and multiple bruises. Polis told The Sun that she had a sex-change operation to become a woman, and that this was not the first time that she's been picked on physically because of her sexual orientation. She said seeing the attack aired worldwide has been, "like walking out of the closet all over again." Polis, who is white, told authorities that race also may have been a factor in her attack, both the assailants were black, according to the police report. Equality Maryland has called on state Attorney General Douglas F. Gansler to step in and investigate the case as a hate crime. Equality Maryland Board President, Chuck Butler, issued a statement on the attack: "A member of our community was recently the victim of senseless violence. Equality Maryland is saddened that in this day and age, bigotry and discrimination against transgender individuals continue, especially in our own backyard. No person ever deserves to be a victim of violence regardless of their gender identity or presentation. We encourage the State's Attorney General to investigate this as a hate crime based on gender identity. We are encouraged that McDonald's is working with local police to investigate this incident, and hope that the company will follow-up with appropriate disciplinary action against any employees involved." "As a community, we remain horrified that transgender citizens are so vulnerable, that they can be brutalized for simply walking down the street," said Lisa Polyak, vice president of the Equality Maryland board told The Sun. "She was simply trying to use a public accommodation. People should not feel threatened when they exist in public space. "This is why we need a statewide law that prohibits discrimination on the basis of gender identity and gender expression." Scott Shellenberger, the state's attorney for Baltimore County, told The Sun that his office has not yet received the file and has not interviewed the victim because the charges were filed late in the week. He said his office will likely interview the victim in the next week and a half and gather additional evidence to determine if the attack was a hate crime. Police said the 14-year-old girl has been charged as a juvenile, while charges were pending against an 18-year-old woman. Police officials said the investigation is continuing. The police report does not provide a motive, but quotes one of the suspects saying that the fight was, "over using a bathroom."

April 26th

I am applying for jobs today. My skillset summary is below. I have 43 years experience with sucking cock, I have 40 years experience drinking cum. I have 37 years experience drinking pee. I have played with men, women, couples, groups, cd's, ts's, she-males, etc. I have sucked off guys at the adult theatre, the adult video store, in cars, at gloryholes, at parties, etc. I love to be fucked in my tight little tushy as well. I have 30 years experience of being fucked in my nice tight ass. I love 69, cowgirl, missionary, doggy style(woof!). I love bukkakes, facials, group golden shower sessions, etc. (yes, I get tested regularly, I am DDF and intend to stay that way). I am an extremely talented cocksucker, and being a good slut is what I do best. There's a reason my initials are BJ.

April 27th
	I am tentatively registered for a pole dancing class in Columbus, Ohio on May 14th. I am also going to register for their Fitness Boot Camp too so I can lose a few more pounds. I have lost a little bit of weight lately, I have about 10 pounds to go.

April 28th

Tonight, I uploaded the last of my modeling forms to internetmodeling.com I've applied for a lot of computer jobs the last three months and have received nothing so far, except for the one job I actually had a start date for until the tsunami in japan caused them to cancel the contract. I was also hoping to hear back from a company in Wisconsin, or one in Rhode Island, but nothing from either one. The one in RI would have been my preferred one, but oh well. So, I've given up on computer jobs, my career field of 37 years is no more. Next up is pole dancing class on May 14th, and then their fitness class after that. After that I am not sure what I will do right now. If I had it to do all over again, I would have become a gender therapist. Now I am concentrating on stripper, porn star, or paid slut. Maybe I'll just keep doing massages from now on to earn a few bucks for food, etc., since I do enjoy that line of work.

April 29th

I find it interesting when a guy asks me if his cum tastes okay. HELL YA, IT TASTES OKAY, IN FACT, IT TASTES GREAT. I haven't met a load of cum that I haven't thoroughly enjoyed down my throat (or on my face). A cum whore (aka cum slut or cum dumpster) is a type of whore who thoroughly enjoys the taste and consistency of cum. They also derive pleasure from cum being all over their bodies whether it be face, boobs, butt, legs, etc. I was getting packed to head to Pittsburgh this weekend and I was molested. I was leaning over the bed to pick up something, and the next thing I know, I felt the head of a nice hard cock at my butt. Hmmm, I got fucked good, finished up with some cum in my butt, and the rest on my face and down my throat. Yummy.

April 30th
	I went to the NRA convention in Pittsburgh today and enjoyed myself. I saw the perfect item for home defense, I believe it was an anti-tank gun.

May 1st
	I am confirmed for exercise class at 2pm tomorrow afternoon in Columbus, and for Pole Dancing class at 4pm on May 14th.

May 2nd
	They have received my internetmodeling forms, so they said my account will be set up in about 2 weeks at which time I can start making money on the site.

May 4th
	Okay, so who wants to cum all over my face today?

May 5th
	Watch out guys, I'm on the prowl today for some nice hard cock down my throat. Hmmm, sperm, yummy, tasty sperm. Does anyone have a nice hard cock that they want to slide in between my lips and down my throat ?

May 6th
	This is a great question that is asked. To apply it to my situation, How many transgender girls must god create before people accept that he wants us around? How Many Gays Must God Create Before People Accept That He Wants Them Around?

May 7th
	Today is torture treatment day, I am so happy to be down to 30 minute sessions, not much left to do.

May 8th
	HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MOM. I went to Cocktails bar last night, and posted a pic of me from there on Pics Page 10. I had on my daisy duke short shorts, my 7 inch heels, pink panties, and my tshirt that says: "I love sucking cock and swallowing cum". I think I have my digital camera fixed now, so if that is true, I will be making more pics and movies soon.

May 9th
	I had exercise class today. I have discovered (rather quickly) that I am not as flexible as a 25 year old. Tomorrow, I have Flexibility class at 11am, we'll see how that goes. Wednesday is Fitness Boot Camp Day. Saturday is Pole Dancing class.

May 10th - SLUTWALK INFO

So guys, what should I wear? I am thinking schoolgirl outfit, with my TGIRL top, and my 5 inch heels. I am thinking of making it to the one in Detroit on June 25th. SLUTWALK - 2011 DATES AND PLACES SYDNEY (AFP) – Women protesting for the right to wear what they like and behave how they choose without facing sexual harassment are set to hold "SlutWalks" across Australia as the movement goes global. SlutWalk began in Canada in April in response to a Toronto police official saying that "women should avoid dressing like sluts in order not to be victimised". Since then, events have been organised across the United States, and now Australia. "Being assaulted isn't about what you wear; it's not even about sex; but using a pejorative term to rationalise inexcusable behaviour creates an environment in which it's okay to blame the victim," the organisation said on its website. Notices for SlutWalks in Australia were posted on Facebook on Sunday and more than 3,500 people have already registered, including 2,500 in Melbourne alone. "We are asking you to join us for SlutWalk, to make a unified statement about sexual assault and victims' rights and to demand respect for all," the group said. "Whether a fellow slut or simply an ally, you don't have to wear your sexual proclivities on your sleeve, we just ask that you come. Any gender-identification, any age." The Melbourne event will be on May 28, with others set to follow in Sydney and Brisbane. One of the Melbourne organisers, Lauren Clair, told Fairfax newspapers that she was keen to reclaim the word "slut" as a source of pride, not shame. (I COULDN'T HAVE SAID THAT BETTER MYSELF---BOBBIE JO) "I've spent my entire life being judged for my appearance and sexuality. I'm sexual, I have sex, I enjoy sex. I'm not going to be ashamed," she said. Sydney organiser Samadhi Arktoi agreed: "A slut is someone who enjoys sex, not someone who it's okay to rape," she said.

May 11th
	HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MISTRESS, Mistress Elizabetha, the lady that is responsible for my happiness, my life, and my very existence. I got fucked tonight, oh yes, that felt damn good, and ended up with a nice load of cum in my ass.

May 12th
	HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SISTER JENN

May 13th

I went to edit my website today and couldn't, got an error trying to login. I called Hostgator and they fixed whatever the issue was. So now I can get back to talking about sucking cock, drinking pee and having people cum all over my face. I went to the grocery store today in my daisy duke shorts and a cute pink top. I appeared to be the only girl in there wearing daisy duke shorts. Tomorrow is Pole Dancing Class day, I wonder how many other 53 year old transsexuals will be there ?

May 14th
	I got fucked last night, yummy, had a nice hard cock in my tushy. Most of the cum in my tushy, and the last bit I licked off the head of his cock, yummy ! Today is Pole Dancing Class day. At 4pm I will have my hands wrapped around a nice hard pole. cocksucker red lipstick - $8.00 lotion/lube - $10.00 having a boatload of men cum all over my face - PRICELESS

May 15th
	I sucked cock and got fucked again last night, that makes several times this week. Yummy ! I had a wonderful time yesterday at Pole Dancing class. I thoroughly enjoyed myself. A truly incredible experience. I will be taking more pole dancing lessons. I was the oldest girl there, but that didn't stop me from having a good time. I just love wrapping my hands around a nice hard pole.

May 16th

Well, a company that I had a phone interview with last week wants to fly me in for an interview next week. They are finalizing the details and should let me know the flight info later this week. In other news, today I received all of my pre-surgery paperwork (consent form, possible complications, travel arrangements, etc) that I have to sign and send back. Unfortunately I will have to reschedule my surgery since I am still $10,000 short.

May 17th
	I am hoping to make it to a "cum on my face party" this Saturday night the 21st. In other news, I am filling out the application and other paperwork for the onsite job interview I have next week.

May 18th

Okay, so since the rapture is supposed to happen on May 21st, I am thinking of doing a depraved sexual act to celebrate jesus's coming. (I know I know, so what else is new Bobbie Jo?). Judgement Day May 21, 2011 Let's see, oral, anal, dildos, handcuffs, whips, blindfold, paddles, riding crops, nipple clamps, bukkake, golden showers, spanking, gangbang, tens unit, etc, etc. Anyone have other ideas? (this should not need saying, but anyway, no scat, no blood, no children, and I am not really into pain).

May 19th

Don't forget, judgement day in 2 days. Judgement Day I think for my act of depravity on judgement day, we will start of with a group bukkake and squirting scene, on my my face, in my hair, on my tits, and down my throat from both men and women. Then I'll have everyone pee on me, finally finishing up with being fucked in the mouth and in my ass by all the men. Then put me on display for all the world to see, tied to a St. Andrew's cross, cum and pee dripping off of me.

May 19th - #2

Okay, I feel much better now. I have successfully rescheduled my gender reassignment surgery to August 20th, 2012 with Dr. Brassard in Montreal. Suzanne was extremely understanding and very helpful in getting this rescheduled. Thank you so much. I'm not going to let anything stop me from accomplishing this goal. I will be back in the cleveland/mentor area on Sunday afternoon the 22nd and will be there for at least a week, most likely two weeks. The only exception is next Thursday when I will be in Alabama interviewing for a job.

May 20th
	WOW, I got fucked last night and I mean FUCKED GOOD. WOW. I am off to cleveland this weekend, I have to get my car fixed on Saturday, hopefully it will be done by Sunday.

May 21st
	I am in Warren tonight, but do not think I will go to Prom at the Funky Skunk. As strange as it may sound, transgender related events simply do not interest me as much anymore. I am leaning towards putting on one of my bikinis and jumping in the hot tub instead.

May 22nd
	well, still here, no rapture damnit. I was looking forward to having a boatload of cum and pee dripping off of me while tied to a St. Andrews Cross. Oh well, headed to cleveland in a little while where I will be there for a few days. Congrats to whoever was the prom queen at Funky Skunk last night.

May 23rd
	I am in Cleveland for a couple of days.

May 24th
	I need to suck some cock.

May 25th

Okay, I have now just received two job offers within a span of 10 minutes. These were both from the phone interviews I had earlier today. There is a possibility that I may get a third job offer tomorrow. Now I have yet another company wanting to interview me tomorrow morning for a different position, but I'll be on a plane then for my in person interview in Alabama. Okay, I have the solution-----> I just need to clone myself a few times and it will all be okay.

May 27th

Well, I am off to Milwaukee, Wisconsin to work for awhile. I will be in Wisconsin Tuesday evening and I start work on Wednesday. I think I found a hotel room for the first few days not far away from where I will be working, now I need to find a room to rent for a more permanent living arrangement. I will be saving my money and sending payments to Dr. Brassard in Montreal for my gender reassignment surgery in Montreal in August of 2012. Tomorrow night, I will be at a birthday party for my good friend Donna. The party starts at 7:00, so I will probably be naked by 7:03

May 30th

WHAT A WILD WEEKEND. Saturday, I went to Donna Renee's birthday party. The party started at 7, I was topless by 7:30. I ate out Donna's pussy and ass, sucked cock, drank pee, and had cum down my throat. YUMMY. Mistress Alicia was there. She is a beautiful transsexual dominatrix. I was tied to the St. Andrews Cross, cuffs on me so I could not get away. I had on my pink collar with a lock on it that only Rob had the key to. Mistress used an electric wand all over my body, concentrating on my nipples. I was screaming with pleasure. Mistress told me to repeat after her, "Electricity is our friend, electricity is our friend" as she took the electric wand back and forth over my nipples. Rob also used a paddle on me, smacking my nipples with it, oh, it hurt so good. I was also spanked, flogged, and whipped numerous times throughout the evening. Then it was time to untie me from the cross and put me on the medical examination table. Donna Renee took cold beer and poured it on my tummy as someone else licked it off. A nice guy took off my 7 inch heels and started licking, kissing and sucking my toes. Then he came up and kissed me. Another girl was rubbing me all over which felt really nice. Rob continued smacking my nipples with the paddle. This went on for quite awhile, cock-sucking, pee drinking, etc.. Eventually I fell asleep exhausted but happy Sunday we were invited to Gary's to shoot guns. I had a wonderful time there, chatting with the other girls there, shooting my 22 while the men where shooting the rifles, etc. Later we drank beer, ate a wonderful meal, chatted until after midnight, watched some tv and eventualy fell asleep. Tonight (Monday) I am driving to Mentor so that I can leave from there tomorrow in the early afternoon to head to my new contract job (a 4 month contract) in Milwaukee, Wisconsin. I will be concentrating SOLELY on using this money to pay for my surgery in 2012.

May 31st
	I got fucked nice and good last night, and ended up with a tushy full of cum. I am getting ready to head to Wisconsin today, will probably leave here about 1pm.

June 1st
	I am in wisconsin today for my first day of work, but this is going to be a really short trip unless I get some money wired to me soon. Right now I have enough money for the hotel room through saturday morning, and after that I will be sleeping in my car I guess.

June 1st - #2
	My first day went pretty well, they are getting my badge done, showed me around some. I signed on the computer and looked around at some of the things they want me to do. It looks pretty familiar, basically just get used to their naming conventions and how they do things and I should be fine.

June 2nd
	Work is going well, the people are wonderful, I am definitely enjoying it. A lot of information thrown my way right now, but it will get easier as time goes by. I miss my friends, but I am keeping in mind that soon as my paychecks start rolling in, I will be sending more money off in prep for my surgery in August of 2012.

June 4th
	HELP. Transsexual in Milwaukee would like a place to live besides the hotel. This weekend I will be looking for places to live, and also today I am going to make a run to the lake, and maybe to the zoo tomorrow.

June 4th - #2

I had a nice day, let's see, I went to Lake Michigan, walked around the lake, teased the boys with my bikini. Hmmm, walking around the outside of the motel in my bikini, I seem to have attracted some attention. I was checking the oil and antifreeze in the car a few minutes ago, and I bent over as far as possible while I was doing that. I seem to have attracted quite an audience at the restaurant next door, lol. The boys also watched me as I made my way past the hotel pool. Then a couple of bikers a few doors down seem to be interested as well. Careful boys, they broke the mold when they made me.

June 5th
	I don't bite, I am simply a normal girl who happened to be born with the wrong genitals. (but I'm going to fix that in 2012).

June 7th
	I will be in Cleveland this weekend for the GLBT cruise on the Goodtime 3 saturday night.

June 8th
	I obviously need to change my room searching tactics. Maybe my next ad should say something like, "The best cocksucker in the eastern united states needs a room in Milwaukee, WI area. Give me a place to stay and get your cock sucked often, and hey, I'll even pay you some for the room too."

June 9th
	I am off to cleveland tomorrow after work. I will be going to the glbt cruise around lake erie on the Goodtime III. If it rains, then maybe we'll hit cocktails. Desperately waiting until my paycheck gets here on the 17th.

June 11th
	I had torture treatment at 10am this morning. Now I am going to shave my legs in preparation for the cruise tonight on Lake Erie. I'm not sure what dress I am going to wear, maybe I'll go slutty? Slutty? Me, hmmm, that will be a stretch but I might try.

June 12th

What a wonderful time last night. My man and my friends by my side, good music, great weather, nice cruise around Lake Erie, etc. Later we went to Cocktails and I had a wonderful time there as well. We went outside for a few minutes, someone mentioned there was a slut tied to a St. Andrews Cross. Oh goody, I got into Mistress Bobbie Dominatrix mode and got right into action. Someone gave me a belt and said "have fun, she's all yours." I went to town, "Okay slut, we are going to count, COUNT FOR ME" I said to the slut. I smacked slut. "ONE" she said. "NO, NO, NO, that is not the correct way to count, let's try again, listen to me, "ONE, THANK YOU MISTRESS". I spanked her again. This time slut did much better, "one thank you mistress" was her reply. However, she said it so softly that I hardly heard her. I went up behind her, grabbed her hair, and said, "I CAN'T HEAR YOU". I spanked her again, this time she made sure that I heard her say "TWO, THANK YOU MISTRESS". She made it up to 10 thank you mistress. I spanked her again. "12 thank you mistress" was her reply. "EXCUSE ME????" I said to her. "I don't think you did that correctly. Twelve does not come after 10. We are now going to have to start over at 1. WHERE did you learn to count?" I rubbed slut's behind, it was a nice pink color. I grabbed slut's hair. I reached around in front to grab at her pussy. WHAT IS THIS? My goodness, this slut has a clitty that feels an awful lot like a cock. Rob initially thought she was a GG, but not with that clitty she wasn't. I spanked her again. "ONE THANK YOU MISTRESS" was my slut's reply. I spanked her several more times, pausing occasionally to run my hands over her butt cheeks. She was doing a much better job of counting this time. She was a good slut, and I just love a good spanking slut. Eventually slut used one of her safe words and begged for mercy. "RED, RED, THANK YOU MISTRESS". I allowed my slut to be untied from the cross, she had pleased me well. I told her what a good girl she was. Mistress Bobbie

June 13th
	I am back in Wisconsin today. I got here about 2 am this morning. I was fucked Saturday night and then fucked again on Sunday morning. Then we finished with a load of cum down my throat both times. Yummy !

June 14th
	I am feeling a little lonely tonight, wish I had someone hugging me.

June 15th
	I am hoping to see my paycheck show up Friday, I am out of money.

June 17th
	Well, unless these idiots at the consulting company get my paycheck issue solved, I guess I will be heading back to Ohio this weekend. I am OUT OF MONEY and have none left. They said yes, yes, don't worry, your paycheck will be here today, and shock and surprise it isn't. I guess I'll give them a little while and then I am going to start packing.

June 18th
	YEA, this damsel in distress put out a call for help yesterday and some wonderful people came through for me. Thank you so very much. You may not know how much it means to me, but I appreciate it greatly. I know times are tough for all of us, and thank you so much for your help. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I have one of the best support systems in the world, thanks to you.

June 19th

I wish I had known sooner. I sent an email to my therapist just to say hi and see how she was doing and I got an automatic reply back that she is recovering from back surgery and won't be available until the end of August. In other news, it seems to be in the Milwaukee area that there is a lack of: GG's that suck cock pre-op transsexuals pre-op transsexuals that give good blowjobs In other news, I am getting more drops from my breasts when I pump them tonight.

June 20th
	Lonely right now, wish I had someone hugging me, I love to cuddle. We will see what happens today at work, if I don't see my paycheck (which was supposed to be here Friday), this could be my last week in Wisconsin. We'll see if my paycheck shows up today. It was only because of some generous people that I am still in Wisconsin now.

June 21st
	The claim is my paycheck is going to get here today. We shall see.

June 21st - #2

Well, the good news is that my check showed up today. The bad news is that it does me no good today. I am unable to get this cashed today. No bank in this part of the country has ever heard of "Union Bank" which seems to exist only in California, therefore no one will cash this check. I even tried Walmart, they would not cash the check. I GIVE UP. I think we should just say goodbye and go our separate ways. Quite honestly, I've had more than enough. The job is wonderful, however the stress from trying to actually get paid for my work is MORE THAN ABSURD. I don't think it is being unreasonable to have this check written by a bank that actually exists in the part of the country I am working in. Time to go back to Ohio and be broke and unemployed.

June 22nd

Another transgender girl murdered. Interesting, isn't it? You would think if any group of people should realize that discrimination is bad, it would be black people. Transgender girls are murdered simply for being ourselves. When is society going to learn that we are indeed women? It is not our fault that we were born with the wrong genitals, anymore than it's someone fault for being born with a different skin color. Another Transgender girl murdered A Newark man has been indicted on murder and bias intimidation charges in the killing of a transgender woman he met at a nightclub, the Essex County Prosecutor’s Office announced today. Alrashim Chambers, 24, is accused of shooting Victoria Carmen White multiple times in a home in Maplewood on Sept. 12, 2010, authorities said. White, 28, was a lingerie model who had had sex reassignment surgery nine years earlier, the prosecutor’s office said. Investigators believe Chambers shot White after learning she was a transgender female. White, Chambers and another man, Marquise Foster, of North Plainfield, had met at a nightclub earlier that night, authorities said.

June 22nd - #2
	Well, I see that the Florida "family" whackjobs are busy as usual promoting their agenda of hate. Can someone answer a question for me? WHY are some "so-called religious" people so full of hate? Florida "family" whackos

June 24th

Rob is visiting for a few days. I have been getting fucked the last two nights and finished by drinking the loads of cum down my throat. DELICIOUS ! In other news, I went to pay the wireless bill for my notebook computer last night and it said I owed 48,000 dollars. Hmm, I don't believe we'll be paying that amount. I called verizon, obvious computer fuck-up, I actually owe $100 because I used more data than my plan, but I knew that already, $100 is much better than $48,000. Okay, so wants to arrange a bukkake with me being the cocksucking slut for the evening. Loads of cum down my throat and on my face. Yummy !

June 25th

Week did not start off well on Tuesday, car muffler fell off and was hanging on by one bolt as I pulled into work Tuesday morning. I was finally able to get that fixed on Friday after my check cleared the bank, but wait, my check that's another issue. (long story). At least it finally cleared the bank, I have a little bit of money now after paying several bills, I will be in better financial shape when my next paycheck gets here this coming week.

June 26th

I had a nice several days with Rob and his Mom. They left this morning to head back to Ohio. I am getting caught up on laundry and other things today. I hope my second paycheck makes it here this week without incident. I will be in Warren, Ohio next weekend. I will most likely be driving back July 4th to get back to Wisconsin. Maybe I can make it to Wisconsin in time to catch some fireworks somewhere.

June 28th

"Interesting" isn't it? The anti-gay marriage people will of course claim that "god" created Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve. Okay, let's assume for just a second that the bible is real. How does anyone know that Adam and Steve (or Kim and Barbie) weren't the second couple (or even the first couple) that "god" created, and in fact that wasn't reported back then simply because of someone's prejudices?

June 28th - #2
	i wanted to wear my cute red dress today, however I can't wear a bra that has straps with it. I obviously left my strapless bra somewhere, back in Ohio I hope. I really can't wear this dress without some kind of bra, otherwise my nipples stick out, and that's not quite appropriate for work. Anyway, I improvised, and used nursing pads to cover my nipples which worked fine.

June 29th
	Getting ready to head to Ohio for the 4th of July weekend. I will be leaving work when they close the office Friday at noon, and will be in Ohio until Monday morning. Possibly going boating this weekend.

June 30th
	Less than 14 months until I will be a virgin. August 20th, 2012 is my gender reassignment surgery date. I am going to mail off a payment to my surgeon next week, and then another one in early July. My goal is to have my surgery paid off by the time this job is over in September.

July 2nd
	I finally got in Ohio about 1am this morning. I just finished doing my laundry and shaving my legs. Now I am getting packed, ready to head to Warren Ohio and boating this weekend. Which bikini should I wear today?

July 4th
	Happy Fourth of July everyone. I went boating yesterday and had a wonderful time. I wore my red bikini yesterday.

July 5th
	Getting more milk from my girls

July 6th
	Klutz here tripped and fell face first into the car window. We will see tomorrow morning whether I have a black eye or not. My crown is loose, so I may have to find a dentist around here to re-cement it. I'l have to see if someone knows of a good dentist close by.

July 8th
	I am looking forward to a nice weekend in Milwaukee. I may go to the beach tomorrow, not sure. Plus I want to get some shopping in this weekend too.

July 9th
	I just got back from shopping at Kohl's. I bought a cute little top, another strapless bra, and a pair of shoes. I think that makes 54 pairs of shoes now. Yes, I'm a shoe whore. (actually I'm a whore in a lot of ways, but that's another story.). I think I might take myself out to get something to eat, I am getting hungry.

July 9th - #2

All too often people who "claim to be christians" seem to be extremely full of hate. Every once in awhile however a religious person comes along who isn't a hate-filled nutcase. Even though it came at a very steep price (the death of her daughter), this christian lady went through a marvelous transition and is now a strong advocate and supporter of the glbt community. Teach Ministries - To educate about the Consequences of Homophobia

July 9th - #3

Dear IRS, On the grounds that all people in this nation are not treated equally by their government, I am withholding both my tax filing and all taxes owed until such point as true equality becomes the law of the land. I will be more than happy to comply with the U.S. Tax code as soon as my government complies with the spirit of the United States Constitution by affirming the rights of individuals to define for themselves, the nature of family, the right for ALL people to serve openly in the armed forces without persecution, the right for adults to marry each other regardless of their gender. Need I continue or are you idiots getting the point now? I will quote the first few words from a document created by our forefathers......"We hold these truths to be self-evident...." Are we all "created equal" or does that only apply to bigoted, fat, pudgy, straight white people? I understand that failing to file taxes is a violation of law, but our nation was founded on a violation of law. My choice was to either take up arms to or disobey the law is a free expression of my right to speak to a government that has stopped listening. Are you listening now? Sincerely, A Would -Be- Taxpayer"

July 10th
	I think I will wear my red and white bikini to the beach today.

July 10th - #2
	I had a wonderful time at the beach today. I had on my red and white bikini today. Someone dared me to wear bright cocksucker red lipstick with my bikini. DONE ! Most people know not to dare me to do anything because there isn't much I won't do. I have very few limits. Anyway, as I was walking down the beach, 4 guys in a boat on the lake, said, "Hey babe, you want to go for a ride?".

July 11th
	I will be in Columbus, OH this weekend, spending the weekend with my man on his birthday. I am flying out of Milwaukee Friday night.

July 13th
	Well, stupid here managed to slice my finger open while I was digging through my purse and instead of finding what I wanted to find, I found a razor I had in there to shave my legs with. I put a band-aid on it, hoping it stops bleeding.

July 14th

Something I will never understand is why are so many "so-called religious" people so full of hate? I think the only way we are ever going to solve his problem is either a civil war, or to take these hate-filled "christian" nutcases and ship them overseas to the most backward muslim country there is. Let the so-called "loving and tolerant" christians and the "peaceful" muslims murder each other over whose imaginary man is better. We can start by sending the idiots of the westboro church on the first plane out. Note that I have nothing against TRUE christians, and by that, I mean those christians that actually FOLLOW christ's teachings and that treat EVERYONE with love and respect, regardless of their gender identity, sexual orientation, etc. Ditto for those muslims that treat everyone with respect and love as well.

July 14th - #2
	I am going to be packing tonight, ready to head to Columbus, OH tomorrow

July 18th
	I had a wonderful weekend in Ohio. I got to play with my cute puppy. Rob and I went to the movies, I got fucked, I sucked cock, I enjoyed myself.

July 20th
	I donated blood today. I wonder who the lucky recipient of my blood donation will be?. Here's something else to ponder, will they turn into a cock-sucking slut? This weekend, I am mailing another payment off to my doctor for my surgery next August.

July 21st
	I am mailing off another payment to my surgeon in Montreal this weekend. OOPS, one of my crowns just fell out, I am going to have to find a dentist. Does anyone know a dentist who can re-cement a crown?

July 23rd
	I mailed off another payment to my surgeon this morning. I made an appointment with a dentist in Milwaukee to get my crown re-cemented on Wednesday. Now I just have to be careful until then, so my cock-sucking may be limited until wednesday afternoon.

July 24th

I don't know how many times I've heard of transsexual people losing their so-called family or their so-called friends simply because of their transition. I couldn't possibly say the following enough times. If your friends don't love, cherish, accept and support you, then they aren't truly your friends, they are simply acquaintances. If your family doesn't love, cherish, accept and support you, then they aren't truly your family, they are simply people that you are related to.

July 26th

I had my contract extended today, now until the end of February. This will easily allow me to get the rest of the money I need for my surgery. Hey, John dumbfuck Mckenna at oppressive insurance and joe jackass natoli at nationwide. I am so glad to be away from you useless motherfuckers. After you two jerks, I have now had two good managers in a row. See, you both need to learn this lesson-----> you can be a manager, and NOT be a complete and total asshole. Well, you two can't, but that's another story. I went up to the hotel's front desk tonight, and as I was coming back, there were about 15 construction guys in the parking lot. Hmmm, 15 guys, okay, that's a start on the 50 for the bukkake. Perhaps I should have gotten down on my knees right there in the parking lot.

July 27th

I went to a dentist here in Milwaukee and got my tooth re-cemented today. He told me that at some point, I will probably have to get a bridge put in place. I kind of knew that already anyway, had another dentist tell me the same thing a year or so ago. A bridge is fine, as long as it doesn't interfere with my cocksucking abilities. Anyway, walking out of the building to work, on my way to my dental appointment, I got caught in a mini-hurricane, nasty thunderstorm. I was soaked from head to toe. The rain was heavy, and coming in sideways. My pants, my blouse, and my shoes were absolutely soaked. I walked into the dentist office with water dripping off of me. I think the only thing that might have been somewhat dry was my bra and panties. When I finally sloshed back to work, I took off my shoes so they could dry and my feet could get somewhat dry too. I came close to stripping out of my wet clothes and working in my bra and panties.

July 29th
	I may go to a movie this weekend. I wish I had someone to cuddle with tonight.

July 30th

I had a wonderful day today with my friend, driving through the countryside, having fun. That was quite enjoyable. Tonight, I took myself and went to see the movie Cowboys and Aliens with Harrison Ford. Later this coming week I think I will see "Friends with Benefits" and the new Transformers movie. I'm hoping my paycheck gets here Monday since I am pretty much out of money. I think I have $8 left.

July 31st
	Yea, my paycheck arrived. Thank goodness. I am down to $3, so just in time.

August 2nd
	I may make a visit to New Hampshire in September. I'm going to mail off another payment to my surgeon in about 12 days or so. Their office is closed for vacation until August 14th. My surgeon - Dr. Brassard

August 5th

What are you? A pussy? Why yes, yes, I am, thank you for noticing. Movie time this weekend. I am going to the movies this weekend. There are 4 movies I want to see. Planet of the apes, The Change up, Transformers, and Friends with Benefits. I doubt I will see them all, I am thinking planet of the apes tonight. I noticed at work today that my pink panties were showing through my dress. OOPS. Guess I need to wear slightly different panties with this dress next time. The guys were getting an eyeful. At first, I was wondering why a few of the guys were paying extra attention to me until I looked in the mirror. LOL. I am going to see if I can find a doctor in Milwaukee for my psoriasis. It's starting to get out of control.

August 6th
	I will be making a doctor's appointment next week. This is starting to affect the vision in my left eye. Looking for a room to rent in Milwaukee. I went to see the movie "rise of the Planet of the Aps" last night. I liked it. Today I think I may go see "Friends with Benefits" or the new Transformers movie.

August 7th

Happy birthday Mom. I went shopping at Kohl's yesterday. I bought three cute tops, a cute summer dress, and a pair of shoes for $70. Last night I went to see the new Transformer movie. I still want to see "Friends with Benefits", and the "Change Up". Today I think I may go to the beach for a little while. This weekend, I've been busy looking for rooms to rent in the area, having some luck, but it seems that a lot of people want more than a six month term which I can not guarantee right now. My psoriasis is bothering the vision in my left eye, I think I found a dermatologist in the area to help with that. I now have my account set up and all my paperwork complete to be a model on internetmodeling.com, so I will be doing some webcam play for pay, shame I don't have a stripper pole here in the hotel room. Oh well, time for me to get something to eat, later.

August 8th
	I am going to call the dermatologist today, I am tired of having my eye swollen almost shut. Hopefully I can get an appointment soon.

August 8th - #2

Okay, I made an appointment with a dermatologist for next Wednesday. Hopefully they can fix this, I am getting tired of my left eye being swollen. I received my medical insurance and prescription id cards today. Next, the last couple of days my car has been overheating, mainly in traffic. I think I know what it is, but not sure, I think one of the two cooling fans has stopped working. I guess I'll find out tomorrow when I take it into the mechanic. Hopefully it won't cost too much to fix.

August 9th
	Okay, so I changed my dermatologist appointment to tomorrow, so hopefully I can get some medicine soon.

August 10th

My doctor appointment went well, he gave me two prescriptions and he said, "I don't usually tell people this, but you need to get out in the sun, that will help with this". So I will be donning one of my bikinis and laying out in the sun this weekend. I'm not wearing any foundation for a few days while my eye heals. (just doing lipstick and mascara). Funny isn't it? In 2008 I wouldn't have been caught dead leaving the house without foundation on. Of course I was still early in the electrolysis process then too. So much changes in three short years. Now I have less hair on my upper lip than most GGs. I find it amusing now that I was so worried about hair on my upper lip before. I know quite a few GGs that have to wax their upper lip on a regular basis. I go back to the doctor for a follow up in September, at which time I am also going to have him remove the mole on my face.

August 12th
	I have started doing webcam shows on internetmodeling.com. Let's see if I make any money or not.

August 13th

Obviously tired last night, I didn't wake up until after 10 this morning. Anyway, I showered, washed my hair, waiting for my hair to dry, trying to decide what to wear today. Today's not beach day, kind of cloudy and yucky. I think this is jeans day today, tomorrow will be short shorts and bikini. I'm going to get something to eat soon, maybe a little shopping after that, and I think a movie might be in order.

August 13th - #2
	My dream, to be the girl in a video like this. LUCKY GIRL. Okay guys, line up, I want cum on my face and then I want to be peed on. LUCKY GIRL

August 14th
	Okay, I followed my doctor's orders, I put on one of my bikinis, went to the beach, laid out in the sun for 2 hours, then put on my daisy duke short shorts, a cute top, and walked in the sun for another hour. Now, it's time to jump in the shower and then go grab something to eat. Hmm, anyone want to join me in the shower? I need a protein shake today.

August 15th

My car was overheating on the way to work today, so I dropped it off at the mechanic. He called me and told me there were two things wrong with it. One was that the cooling fans weren't working because the wire was not connected, it was actually broken. He fixed that for me today, so I was able to get the car back to the hotel. Tomorrow, I am taking it back in to get the water pump fixed, since the water pump is also broken. I knew it had been leaking a little antifreeze lately.

August 18th
	As I was coming down the stairs today while I was leaving work, my shoe broke and I fell down the last few stairs. Thankfully I didn't break any bones. Tomorrow, I am heading to Chicago for the weekend.

August 20th
	In one year, on August 20th, 2012 I will be having the most important surgery of my life, to finally match my physical body to my gender. I am planning on having this paid off by the end of the year, so that I can focus my energy next year on preparing for my surgery, getting my final medical tests completed, etc. 4 years and counting, and It has been a truly incredible journey. Bobbie Jo

August 20th - #2
	Hmmm, me, me, I am thirsty too.

August 21st
	I had a wonderful time in chicago this past weekend. I went to the top of the john hancock tower, wow, what a view. I also bought a new pink teddy bear. Last night, went for a ride in a horse carriage around a part of Chicago, that was very nice.

August 23rd
	I move into a new place tomorrow night.

August 25th
	I am no longer in the hotel, I am now renting a room in Menomonee Falls. I wish I had a cat or dog with me, but no pets here. Anyway, I have my pink teddy bear with me that I bought in Chicago last weekend.

August 27th
	Well, I want to go to the lakefront, but right now I can't find what I did with the top to one my bikinis. I may end up being pretty popular if I go topless. LOL.

August 28th
	Feeling a little lonely and homesick tonight. I think I will curl up with my teddy bear.

August 29th
	Sigh.

August 30th
	I am tired from driving and ready for bed. I am in Columbus, Ohio for a few days. Rob is in the hospital due to a blood clot. They have him on a blood thinner right now. I stopped by hospital for a quick visit with him, going to bed now for a few hours sleep. We will see what the doctor says tomorrow.

August 31st
	Good, Rob is responding well to treatment and it looks like he might get released from the hospital on Thursday. Update-well, Rob got released this afternoon, and other than limping some, he is doing well, so I will be heading back to Wisconsin tomorrow.

September 1st
	Rob is feeling good, still limping a little, otherwise doing okay, able to drive car, etc. I will be heading back to Wisconsin today.

September 5th
	I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday weekend. I had a very nice holiday weekend, also worked on those bikini tan lines some more as well, supposed to be down in the 40s tonight, brr, I am not ready for fall yet.

September 6th
	Missing my friends.

September 7th

I went to the doctors today, he told me to only put the medicine on my psoriasis once a day now since things are looking much better with the medicine he gave me a few weeks ago. He also removed that stupid mole on my face, I have to wear a band-aid for a few days until that heals. Anyway, it has been entirely too long since I've given a blowjob and had some nice tasty cum down my throat and on my face. Can anyone help out a girl in need of some protein?

September 9th
	I went for a walk tonight, walked about 3 miles.

September 10th
	I mailed off another payment to my surgeon today. Later I went and saw the movie Shark Night 3D.

September 11th
	I went to the beach today. I had on my pink and white bikini. Later I went to a movie, then I went to get something to eat.

September 12th
	The place where the doctor took the mole off my face is almost healed. I will pack on Wednesday to head to Ohio for the Girls Night out party this weekend in Warren.

September 16th
	I bought six pairs of shoes today, three of them are for work, and they cost only $26 for all three pair. The other three were $30 each, a pair of 6 inch heels, a pair of 7 inch heels, and my highest pair of heels yet, a pair of 8 inch heels. (and yea, I can actually walk in them too). I am in Cleveland tonight, tomorrow I head to warren for the girls night out party.

September 18th

I had a wonderful time at the Girls Night out party in warren, ohio last night. I wore my schoolgirl outfit, pink top with TGIRL written on it, my plaid skirt, my thigh high white stockings and my 8 inch heels. Yes, I actually managed to walk in 8 inch heels without breaking my ankle. As the night worn on, and after a long island ice tea, I decided to abandon the 8 inch heels and went back to my 7 inch heels. I had a very nice time, got to see some people that I hadn't seen in almost a year, some people it had been longer than that. I enjoyed myself. I think I got groped by most of the people there, or I groped them, one of the two. Last night after the party, I got fucked good back at the hotel room, and ended up with a tushy full of cum. This morning I gave a blowjob and received a nice protein shake. Yummy ! Delicious.

September 18th - #2

Well, I had an interesting time tonight in my trip back to Milwaukee. First, I was at the airport gate waiting for the plane. Fortunately, Rob saw that I had left the cellphone in his car, so being the sweetheart he is, he parked the car, went to the ticket counter and they tried to page me, but guess I was in the security line and didn't hear it. Anyway, they gave him a pass to get back to the gate, and he came and gave it to me before the plane took off. That was so sweet of him. Next, I finally arrived in Milwaukee, got my luggage out to the car, and lo and behold, I had a flat tire. Fortunately I had one of those inflate the tire thingies. I started inflating the tire, about halfway through that process I needed to pee really bad, so either squat down and pee in the parking garage, or stop the tire inflation and make my way back to the airport terminal. I chose to go back to the terminal. Took care of that, felt a lot better, made my way back to the car, inflated the tire, and packed up the pump. Then I go to get to the garage exit and I can't find my parking stub. So, that took about 15 minutes for the clerk to resolve. Okay, now I'm finally on the road. I finally made it home without further incident. I am tired now and am going to bed. Goodnight all.

September 19th
	I am ready to be back in Ohio today, missing my friends. There's some people here in Milwaukee that I was hoping to hear back from, but haven't heard from them in quite awhile.

September 20th
	I took my car in today to check on the tire that is going flat, and as i turns out the rim is damaged, so it will most likely need to be replaced. They put some sealer in there to try and seal it for awhile. Eleven months until my surgery. In 11 months, I will be a virgin.

September 21st
	I am sitting here crying tonight, watching the video of Susan Boyle with her first appearance on Britian's Got Talent. That video always brings me to tears.

September 23rd
	Timm, calling Timm. Are you okay?

September 24th
	Good day today. I found out that a friend of mine was in the hospital, but is going to be okay. I wondered why I hadn't heard from him in awhile. I am glad he is going to be okay. I also heard from a couple of people here in Milwaukee that I had been wanting to hear from too. I went shopping earlier, bought a couple of long sleeve tops for winter.

September 26th
	HAPPY BIRTHDAY SASHA

September 27th
	Keeping Linda in my thoughts.

September 28th
	151 days until I am back in Ohio permanently. My contract ends in 5 months. I am ready to get back into massage therapy once I get back to Ohio.

September 29th

150 days until I am back in Ohio, yea ! Counting down the days. Having a rough, stressful week at work, which has me very much looking forward to being back in Ohio in March. Then also today, the health insurance buffoons tell me they need to get my previous health insurance information before deciding whether they will pay this claim or not. Of course, they haven't bothered to tell me exactly what information they need nor how far back. I sent a pretty strongly worded email to the bunch of morons today, that won't do anything to change their dumbass process, but made me temporarily feel better anyway. Why the fuck am I paying monthly for health insurance if the jerks aren't going to pay claims anyway?.

September 30th
	Okay, so who wants to cum all over my face? I want to be covered like the girls in this video. Would someone please cum on my face?

October 4th

My motto is in the picture. No, I am not being rude. That is simply how I live my life. I live my life to make ME happy, what other people think about how I live my life is of no importance to me. I am happy and that is ALL THAT MATTERS. Too many girls are stuck in the closet because they let what other people think control their lives and preventing them from being truly happy. FUCK THAT HORSESHIT. WE HAVE A RIGHT TO BE HAPPY TOO. Come out of the closet girls, there is a great big wonderful world out there.

October 7th
	I had to work late last night, so a little tired today. I think I will be leaving work early today and get an early start on my weekend. I need some cum down my throat and on my face.

October 9th
	Rob will be here on the 22nd, thank goodness. Not only do I miss him emotionally, but it has been entirely too long since I've had a cock in my mouth, and in my ass. Hmm, there appears to be a bdsm party in Chicago the weekend of the 22nd. Now for the question, should I go as submissive schoolgirl, or should I go as Mistress Bobbie?

October 10th
	I wish I was curled up next to someone last night. I love spooning. Thank goodness I have my pink teddy bear with me. I am bitchy and irritable, must be my time of the month, or maybe I just need some cock down my throat.

October 11th
	There's some initial talk of extending my contract again or bringing me on full time. I still have a few months to think about that, so we'll see. I think I will look for a new place even if I do get extended. I am keeping MIchelle in my thoughts. She is in Thailand, and should be recovering from her gender reassignment surgery right now.

October 13th
	ALLRIGHT ! I just talked to Michelle and her gender reassignment surgery went well. She will be back in the USA on the 25th. YEA!!!!!!! .......I can't wait for my surgery in 10 months.

October 16th

I am upset tonight. Rob got a tongue lashing (and not the good kind). Apparently Rob's mom saw my website, and she was not overly happy about some of the content. I don't know whether she found it on her own or if someone had some weird neurotic need to show it to her. I don't know how much she saw. Apparently the "There's a reason my initials are BJ" comment on my home page didn't go over well. Anyway, I am upset that she fussed at Rob. That conversation should not have been directed at Rob, it should have been directed to me. I am the only one that is responsible for the content on my website. For me, in 2007, I stopped caring what people think and I have been much happier ever since. I just want to make sure that Rob isn't hurt in anyway. We each have different views of what is disgusting versus what is sexually stimulating and vice-versa. In the 1920s some people thought the flappers were "disgusting". In the 1950s and 60s, the way Elvis gyrated his hips was considered obscene by some. I remember when my mom (when she was age 40) told me she was going to have another baby (my sister). My brother's first thought was to go look in the Guinness book of world records to see if she was the oldest woman to ever have a baby. My first thought at the time was to think "Mom and Dad are still having sex at age 40????" Oh god, that is disgusting and gross. YUCK. I don't know, maybe I thought sex stopped at 25 at the time, who knows. The last thing a child wants to think about is their parents having sex, that's a visual I don't need. Life lesson #1 for everyone on this planet- If you're going to go looking for something, then don't complain when what you find is not up to your individual standards, whatever those may be. So, yes world, shock and surprise, the secret is out. I am a sexual being. I am not always a G rated disney princess. Sometimes I am an R rated princess, other times I am an X rated princess. Regardless of whether I am dressed in my most formal evening gown, at an elegant sit down dinner by my man's side, or whether I am dressed in my sluttiest schoolgirl outfit, 7 inch heels, on my knees in front of my man taking care of his sexual desires, I am and always shall be a princess. Even though some of the links on here may hopefully help parents understand, love, accept, cherish, and support their transgender children, I did not design this website for moms. I don't share my website with my own mom. I told her about my transgender status in 2007, but I don't share this website with her, it's none of her business quite frankly. I designed it for me, to remind me of where I came from, where I am at now and where I am going. Parts of this website are rated G, some parts rated R, and depending upon your point of view some parts might be rated X. I designed this website to tell the story of a scared, frightened, unhappy, miserable, lonely, depressed, suicidal, hated my body, hated to be out in public, bitter shell of a person (me) who was forced into living a lie for 49 years simply because of society's idiotic prejudices and me trying to please everyone else instead of taking care of the one person that truly matters, myself. The bottom line now is that I am a happy, well adjusted woman and that is all that matters. I'm a live and let live person, as long as you aren't molesting / abusing children, treating people like crap, or forcing people to do something they don't want to do, what you do in life is no one's business but yours. I can only say this, and this goes for everyone. If you don't like the content of my website, then it's as simple as this --> Don't view it. Problem solved.

October 19th
	I am meeting Rob in Chicago this weekend and we are going to a party. I will be so happy to see him. I miss Rob a lot.

October 20th
	TEN MONTHS LEFT UNTIL MY SURGERY. I am going to a tgirl party this coming weekend in Chicago.

October 21st
	Hmmm, I sucked cock, got fucked earlier, ended up with a tushy full of cum. Then off to the shower where I drank pee and got my face peed on. Hmmm, now that's entertainment. Now, off to dinner, then to party later.

October 22nd

I had a nice time at the tgirl party last night. They had some lap dancers there, and several of the guys partook of those. I met and chatted with some new people last night, so that was nice. One thing I learned early in my transition (and is an attitude that a lot more girls need to have) is that I don't give a fuck if anyone "accepts" me. I accept me, and that is all that's important. I lived 49 years trying to be good to everyone but the one person that truly matters - myself. It was time that I support HER, even if no-one else does. After all, I'm the ONLY one I know for a fact will be with me until my final day.

October 23rd
	I had a nice weekend with my man. I sucked his cock saturday morning and he came down my throat. Yummy ! Saturday afternoon we went into chicago, ate some great pizza, went to the navy pier, watched fireworks, did some shopping on michigan avenue, etc,. etc. This morning I got fucked again and drank some cum, Delicious.

October 24th
	I mailed another $2,000 off to my surgeon today.

October 25th
	Lonely tonight.

October 28th
	I should find out on Monday or Tuesday how much I have left to pay for my surgery next August. Tomorrow morning I am heading to Detroit for a halloween costume party tomorrow night. Party starts at 7pm, I will probably be topless by 7:02.

October 30th

I had a wonderful time this weekend. I went to Donna and Nina's party in Detroit. I met some friends, met some new people, and my boyfriend Rob was there too. I had on my naughty mrs. claus christmas outfit on for the first half of the evening, after that I was topless. I was put on the St. Andrews cross, spanked, and had the electric wand used on me. I sucked cock and ate pussy. Later I was cuffed to a bench,(both legs and hands) and had a blindfold put on me, so that I had no idea what was happening. I had a bunch of people playing with me, touching me, kissing me, etc., but I couldn't tell who.

November 2nd

Well, there is a rumor they are thinking about offering me a full-time job. I'd have to think about that. For starters, I need at least 4 weeks off next year, one week in Florida early in the year to see my family, and 3 weeks in August for my gender reassignment surgery. I would need more information on their benefits, I don't know what kind of salary they would offer, or would they allow me to work from Ohio, or split time between Milwaukee and Ohio, etc. I'd have to think about this.

November 6th
	I have 6,000 left to pay on my surgery. I went to a tgirl party Friday night and enjoyed myself. Saturday, I went to see the movie Tower Heist and I liked it. Today, I did laundry. I will be mailing off another payment to my surgeon in a couple of weeks. I have been reviewing the information the surgeon sent me in regards to my surgery, what to expect, etc.

November 7th

Time for the list of pros and cons. I was asked today by Kohl's if I would be interested in a full-time job. Anyway, I am going to discuss with my honey when he gets home from work and I am working on my list of pros and cons in the meantime. The salary and benefits will need to meet my expectations, as well as they need to understand that I WILL be taking off 3 and 1/2 - 4 weeks next August for my surgery. I discuss all this with my manager tomorrow morning at 10 am.

November 8th

I had a discussion with my manager today about a full time job at Kohl's. I mentioned that I would need about 5 weeks off in 2012, 1 week in march for a florida visit, then 4 weeks in august for my surgery. He told me that should be fine and that he would work with me on that. Then I asked what his views on telecommuting were. He said that working from ohio some should be fine, as long as I was getting my work done, and was able to come back to the corporate office in Milwaukee when the job required me to be onsite. Tomorrow I talk with the h.r. rep about benefits, and a possible date for me to switch from consultant to full time employee.

November 9th
	It looks I will have the job offer in my hot little hands within a couple of days, to include telecommuting opportunity from Ohio, plus 3 and 1/2 to 4 weeks off for my surgery in August, plus a week for a vacation to Florida in March.

November 14th
	Okay, I am thinking it is time for a movie this week. Today I applied for a job that I've basically been doing for 6 months. I think they're in the final stages of getting the paperwork together for the full-time offer.

November 19th
	This is the attitude I finally took in 2007 after many years of being lonely, sad, miserable, suicidal, etc. Being in the right gender and comfortable in my own skin is the best thing ever.

November 19th - #2
	Watching the movie "50 First Dates". That movie always makes me cry.

November 20th, 2011
	Transgender Day of Remembrance

November 22nd
	Rob is coming into town tomorrow, which means I will be sucking lots of cock and getting fucked quite a bit over the next few days. Hmmm, yummy !!!!

November 22nd - #2
	I received my offer letter today and I have accepted a full time position working for Kohl's department store. I "transition" from contractor to full time employee on December 19th.

November 24th

Happy Thanksgiving I had a wonderful day yesterday, I wanted to see the new muppet movie yesterday, and Rob was so wonderful to take me to see it. I loved the movie and cried when they played the song The Rainbow Connection. This morning I got fucked like nobody's business, I had trouble standing up afterwards, lol. I have to work tonight from midnight until 8am Friday morning, but am off the rest of the weekend. I think we might go see Jack and Jill or The Tower Heist tomorrow, maybe a little shopping later on tomorrow as well.

November 26th

Yesterday I sucked cock, and I received a load of cum down my throat, delicious! Last night we went to an adult shop called The Tool Shed, and bought a paddle, a pink collar for me that says SLUT, a pair of pink handcuffs, some lube, some nipple clamps, a t-shirt for me that says SLUTWALK Milwaukee on it, and some lube. Oh, and we also bought a sex pillow to raise my butt in the air, hmmm, i think we'll make good use of that tonight. I went to the post office this morning and mailed off some gender reassignment surgery information to my recently post-op friend Michelle. She had her surgery in Thailand, and I don't think she was given a "how to care for yourself at home" packet, so I mailed her a copy of the one that my doctor gave me. Then we went to get something to eat at Applebee's, and then I went shopping at Kohl's. I found seven cute tops that I bought for myself......no shoes this time,lol. We're watching college football right now, and I'm about to go do some laundry.

November 27th
	Hmmm, I got fucked good last night, finished off with a load of cum down my throat. This morning, I received another load of cum in my mouth. Yummy !!!!!! Later we went to see the movie "Tower Heist", then at 5:30, I took Rob to the airport so he can head home.

November 28th

Dang it. Need to think about next August. Rob is unable to get the last week of august off due to more senior people wanting that week. So, do I reschedule my surgery again, or do I just say fine, he can be there for the first week, then I'll be by myself the second week, and hopefully he can get the third week off which is when I'll really need someone at home with me. The first 2 weeks I will have nurses and other girls close by. I need to think this over and discuss with Rob when he gets off work tonight.

November 30th

okay, so I think Rob has his schedule next year set, so still on for August 20th, 2012. I am still on schedule to have this all paid off by the end of February. At work, they're doing a background check, credit check, etc., so If they place too much emphasis on the credit check, then that will mean this job falls through, and I'll just go back to doing massage. I went to the doctor today and he gave me two more samples of some expensive medication for my psoriasis on my eyelid. The stuff he gave me for my legs worked extremely well, no more itching, no more dry rough skin on my ankles or the inside of my thigh, yea

December 2nd
	Hmm, nothing feels as good as a nice cock in my ass and down my throat. I am probably going to do some christmas shopping this weekend.

December 3rd
	I mailed another $1,600 off to my surgeon this morning, now time to go grab something to eat and do some christmas shopping. I might have to get one of my crowns re-cemented again, it is loose.

December 4th

Look at this boy. Look at his face. Now put your son where he is. Put your son in the video. What would you say to him? What wisdom would you offer? This video makes me angry. Angry that this young man is in a position that he felt the need to post this video. My son posts videos about his legos, or his football, or his movie making attempts. Where is this boy's proverbial legos? Why were they stolen from him? I especially want to see churches doing their part and stop promoting hate.. Being gay, bisexual, lesbian or transgender is not a crime, it's not a choice, it's a biological difference. Why would anyone choose to be harassed, bullied, treated like garbage, denied basic human rights., be treated like a second class citizen, etc, etc.?? This video brought tears to my eyes. You tell this young man, I got his back. Whatever he needs--you let me know. I want the rest of you to look for the Jonahs in your school, or in your child's school, your communities, your churches, etc.  Listen to "The Pain is Gone" by Steven D. Tibbs. "Maybe you are the person that's not reaching out--but you should." Now, watch this video. If it doesn't make you cry, I'd would retrace your steps and look for your soul. It clearly is not with you. Everyone needs to see this video

December 6th
	got my cute little top in the mail today, I think more women need to be getting these, and men need to get the mens shirt.

December 7th
	okay, so a new survey question. Outside of Bobbie Jo whose face would you like to cum on the most?

December 9th
	well, the doctor received my $1,600 payment yesterday. This means that I have paid 14,000, with $4,500 left to pay on my surgery.

December 10th
	I did some of my christmas shopping earlier, than I went to see the movie New Years Eve. I loved that movie, and I cried a couple of times during it.

December 13th
	My kind of energy drink, YUMMY !!!!

December 16th

Yea, I have finished my christmas shopping for everyone that I have to mail presents for. Tonight, I will be wrapping these, then tomorrow I will be mailing the packages and christmas cards too. I was working on my telecommuting schedule for 2012. I still have to work out the final details, and the final schedule may vary by a week or two, but basically it will come down to 32 weeks in Ohio, and 20 weeks in Milwaukee. This will allow me to see my friends in both Milwaukee and Ohio, the best of both worlds. Currently, this calls for me to be In milwaukee through February 3rd, and again from June 17th through July 28th, and for 2 months starting October 14th. The rest of the time I would be in Ohio, except for the last two week of August when I will be in Montreal having and then recovering from surgery.

December 17th
	I mailed out christmas presents and all my christmas cards this morning.

December 18th
	Having a cock down my throat ---- YUMMY. Getting fucked in my ass -------- Oh yes, that's good. Having my face covered in cum --- PRICELESS

December 21st
	I am heading to Ohio tomorrow after work. I want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas. I hope you have a wonderful christmas.

December 27th

I had a nice weekend in Ohio. Thursday night started off with me taking Rob to the hospital. He fell at work on Thursday and hurt his leg pretty bad. Fortunately nothing broken, The doctor put him on light duty at work for three weeks. For christmas, I received many lovely gifts, beautiful earrings, nice dresses, several nice tops, a couple pairs of jeans, etc. Checking my mail since I've been back, I see that wells fargo thinks that I am supposed to come up with 41,000 in three weeks or they will proceed with "acceleration". well, fuck you wells fargo. I posted a not real nice comment on their facebook page. They responded with "please tell us what the issue is", Fine, I'll make one more attempt. I will be back in Ohio this coming weekend as well. For new years, we've been invited to go shooting at Gary's. I haven't shot my gun in a little while, so I'm psyched, I love going to Gary's. If it rains, then Gary can always invite 45 more guys over and we can have a bukkake party all over my face.

December 28th

I will be heading to Columbus this weekend. Even though I won't have health insurance until March 1st, I may have to head to the doctor here shortly after the new year. I have a mole on my nipple which is getting tender and sore and growing some in size as well. I think I will make an appointment to get this checked within the next week or two. I've heard that this can be normal during pregnancy, but somehow I don't think that's the issue.

December 29th
	I am heading to Columbus tonight. Should be getting fucked around 10pm or so, it's been entirely too long since I've had a cock in my ass. ....and who wants to cum on my face?