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Answers to questions I keep getting
 

1. No, I am NOT fully functional. I am on hormones. I am NOT a she-male. Most true TS's are NOT fully functional.

2. Yes, that truly is my real hair.

3. yes, I have actual real live breasts now, and no, those are NOT implants.

4. Once again, I am NOT fully functional, I am a PRE-OP TS, and NOT a she-male. If you want someone who is fully functional, you need to find a SHE-MALE, or a CD, but NOT a TS. A true TS will NOT be fully functional unless she has taken something like Viagra to help her along. See this link for correct definitions of the terms. TS, CD, TG definition

 



April 16th, 2009
 

April 2009-It is with my latest experience with corporate stupidity that I have grown tired of the horse manure in IT.

"we care about our employees".....translation: we care about covering our own butts

-or-

"we provide career path opportunities for our employees"...translation: only if you're a ceo or a senior manager.

So, I'm looking at some other ideas (listed below), IT just doesn't appeal to me anymore.

Exotic Dancer

Dominatrix

Porn Actress (if I'm going to get fucked over, I might as well enjoy it)

President of the United States (my campaign slogan would be: THE BULLSHIT STOPS NOW)

General all around slut (see porn actress comment)

Housewife



April 17th
 

Good Grief, I just realized, April 2009 was my 35th anniversary in I/T. Now's a good as time as any for a career change.

 



April 20th
  What yucky weather. Unfortunately I have to go out in it and get a few things faxed. Where is Spring?

April 22nd - a letter to my daughter
 

A letter to my daughter.

Dear Sasha,

I want you to know that I have loved you from the minute I first saw you. I remember how small you seemed when you were first born.

I look at you now, and you are growing up so fast. Eight years old, and going on "14".

You were, still are, and will always be my little angel. I am so proud of you, and I want you to study and do well in school and in your life.

I also want you to know that if you need anything of me, all that you have to do is ask, and I will be there to help you.

Your mom took you away from me on April 5th, 2009 under the guise of "protecting you from me" simply because I am a transgendered female. I can not imagine how cold-hearted a person has to be to do that to someone.

I want you to know that I will always think of you, and I hope that when you turn 18, we will be able to reconnect and once again be as close as we were for the first eight years of your life.

 I wish you all the best, and I will always think of you, and I hope to see you when you turn 18, if not before.

I love you with all my heart.

Take care.



April 25th
 

I went to the PFLAG conference in Cleveland. I was able to not only see and hear Mary Lou Wallner, I was able to hug her and thank her for all of the help she has been to me.

She and her husband are truly angels.

Their story is on their website at: www.teach-ministries.org

 



April 26th
 

I went to church today at United Church of Christ, where they are actually very accepting of GLBT people.

http://www.liberationucc.org/index.html

After church, I went for a walk around the neighborhood.

Then later, I jumped in the car, went to the state park on the lake, and walked around the lake for awhile. After I came home from the lake, I fixed my roommate and myself a salad.



April 27th
  Started throwing some things away for when I sell the house, so I have less stuff to move. On another note, today is the 13th month that I have been out full time as a tgirl.

April 30th
  Oh my goodness, I was going through some old papers today throwing some stuff away in case I have to sell the house and move in the next 5 weeks or so. and what did I find? An autographed photograph from Baltimore Orioles Third baseman Brooks Robinson, personally autographed to my grandfather. wow, too cool. Bobbie Jo

May 7th
  I went to downtown cleveland today to celebrate the domestic partner registry. Later we went to a church service and then onto Bounce Nightclub. This weekend, (5/9) I will be going to my prom at Cocktails Night Club. My first prom as my true and correct self, I am very excited.

May 11th
 

Gee, I know the feeling. I found this one on jobvent today and it was just too good to pass up.


 
 
Northeast 05/11/2009: Progressive is the most heartless company ever. Please, run from this place while you can. Laid off today after 15 years of dedication to this slimy company. If Tricia has any bit of a soul left, I doubt she will ever have another night of sleep in her life. She has destroyed lifes today with her ruthless display of "flattening out the organization". Her parents should be ashamed of her. Her family should be ashamed of her. Her kids should be ashamed of her. What a legacy - destroying peoples familys who have bled blue for this company. Tricia, my kids thank you for being able to see me more then 2 days a week. But how will they respond when we are living on the street? I can't tell you how many nights I have spent in hotels, missing my kids as they have grown without me there to watch. Missing my wife, my family, giving everything for this company. Today I received the most ruthless news of my life advising that my job has been eliminated. It was a cold, calculated conversation. Not even a thank you for years of dedicated service. Nothing... Unreal. This company is going down so fast. Stock prices will be below $5 a share before the year is out. The only hope this company has left is for Geico to buy them out. Tricia, I hope cutting all of quality people allows you to build another Service Center or two (worst idea of all time) then you can force more reps to force customers into "our" repair channel. What a joke. Progressive steers customers. This is no secret. We have been cheating auto body shops for years. Progressive is a joke. Good luck to all of you!!! Tricia - you rule. Great job so far. Hmmm. What have you done? Nothing but destroy families that have given you the ability to drive your fancy car to your fancy house and eat your fancy dinner. Wow, you should be ashamed. Nothing says success like getting rid of the people who have helped build this company and your salary. I hope nothing but the worst life has to offer you Tricia. Good luck and good bye to a horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible claims leader. You are a joke.


May 14th
 

I couldn't agree more. I wish I had known about this site before I started working for repressive corporation. I certainly wouldn't have taken a job with that horsrcap of a company if I had known how they truly treat people. I now check out every company on jobvent.com before I put in an application with them. Prospective employees, be aware, there are a lot of reasons that repressive corporation has a negative 7500 rating.

From jobvent.com

Respect-Does not exist.Progressive Insurance breaks just about every law they can get away with. Descrimination, micromanagement, Lies and more lies. They literally have a team of HR goons that do nothing but try to blow smoke up employees tail ends and keep the law breaking management (All levels) from getting the company sued

Work Environment- The absolute worst environment of any company I have had the pleasure to work for. Employees are fearful, concerned, angry, and just plain tired of the way the executives and management has ruined every thing that once was great about this company. Graduates do very very thorough research on Progressive. You will see the examples of the work enviroment you will encounter upon accepting employment here.

Job Security-Absolutely pathetic. The current executive management team has made poor choices and has caused Progressive to drop from the #3 auto insurer to #5 and still dropping. The upper management creates false records in order to set up a system to get rid of employees so that they will not have to pay severance or unemployment. There is no tenure
here.



May 15th
  This is so cool. I looked out the window today and Momma groundhog is out in my back yard with her 4 babies. I had never seen the babies before, this is really neat. I love it. That absolutely made my day.

May 17th
 

I had a freaking fantastic time in Warren, OH at the Girls Night Out last night.

I LOVE MY LIFE.

"We don't stop playing because we grow old, we grow old because we stop playing"

I wouldn't trade my life as a tgirl for anything in the world.

My only regret is that I tried to hide from my true self for far too many years.

Bobbie Jo, I was a woman from day one, and I am now finally living my life as the woman I should have been all along.

 



May 18th
 

Good for her. I wish I had done this at that age instead of trying to live up to other peoples expectations for far too long.

http://www.ketv.com/cnn-news/19474067/detail.html

OMAHA, Neb. -- An Omaha couple is allowing their 8-year-old son to openly live life as a girl. It’s a decision that means the child is no longer invited to attend Catholic school.

Therapists and the child’s parents say the second grade student is transgender, a medical condition where a person’s inner sense of identity doesn’t match their biological gender. Some gender experts say as many as one in 500 people may be transgender or carry significant traits of the opposite sex.

“It’s kind of like you’re trapped somewhere and you can’t get out,” said the child, whose name and face are not being made public to protect the family from potential harm.



May 21st
  I am extremely fortunate, I have a truly incredible bunch of friends.

May 24th
  Last night I went to the URNA party in Columbus Ohio. Today, I was doing volunteer work for askcleveland, we did canvassing for transgender rights in Cleveland, Ohio.

May 25th
 

Today, I called my sister and talked to her for awhile, then I put on another pair of white shorts shorts, my bikini top, my flip flops, and I went for a stroll at Headlands Beach park.

About 7:00 p.m., it was getting a little cool, so I headed back to the car, put on my tgirl tshirt and headed over to the grocery store and then to Best Buy. I love my tgirl tshirt, found at: Tgirl tshirt



May 26th
  Torture treatment day (Electrolysis) I will be so happy when I am done with this.

May 29th
  I have been in columbus the past few days, helping my boyfriend Rob get his new house ready for closing.

I actually painted the basement steps yesterday, okay, I painted both me and the basement steps. A half a gallon of paint on me, a little more than that on the basement steps.

Rob has treated me like a queen, he is an extremely sweet guy and I love him a lot. I hope that his parents know what a truly great son they have.

If I don't find a job soon, Rob will be getting two new roommates, me and my cat. I probably have about 5 weeks of cash left before the bank account goes to zero. My deadline for deciding whether to put the house up for sale or not is the first Friday in June.



May 30th
 

Do so-called "normal" people have HID?

I absolutely, positively hate the term GID. I don't have GID, I now know exactly who I am and who I was meant to be all along, it just took me awhile to figure it out.

I simply have a birth defect, and that is all I have. I DO NOT have an "identity" disorder, and people need to quit classifying it as such. I was meant to be a woman all along. I am FINALLY living my life as I should have from day one on this planet.

Hopefully one day if my finances allow, I can have my birth defect corrected.

 



May 31st
  I went to church today in Cincinnati and I was able to see my daughter and also watch her sing a song. That made me happy.

June 1st, 2009
 

It is shortly after midnight, and I am sitting here singing to the song "The consequences of falling" by K.D. Lang.

I was sitting here at the computer, and my cat Oreo was on top of the computer desk, we had the blinds to the sliding door wide open.

All of a sudden I see Oreo, and she's staring intently at the window, am I'm like what the he** is she looking at ?

I turned around, and there staring back at me big as life, was a racoon

That was so cool.



June 2nd
  Tonight, I was doing phone banking for askcleveland.org to support anti-discrimination legislation for transgendered people.

June 3rd
 

 

After hearing how Domenic lost his spouse to a brain aneurysm, it got me thinking about death, so sorry but this post might be a bit morbid, you've been warned

I was thinking, what would I want people to know if I died tomorrow, so here, in no particular order are some of the things I have to say to various people. I will probably add a few more people when I think about this some more, but this is a start for now.

1. Mom - Please don't hate me or my lifestyle, because I am truly happy for the first time in my life. Please be happy for me. Love, Bobbie Jo 

2. Sasha - I love you so much, you are my angel. I wish you all the best, and know that I will always be with you in spirit, always there, looking out for my little girl.

3. Domenic - I was so sorry to hear about your spouse. Your story touched me, and your generosity was simply incredible. Thank you.

4. Rob - You are my sweetheart, my lover, my companion, my boyfriend, my protector, and all that I could have ever hoped for. I can not possibly express in words everything that you mean to me. I was so glad that I met you at Southbend. That was easily one of the best nights of my life.

5. Michelle - You are such a great friend. I value our friendship immensely. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

6. Bob S. - I will always remember our fun times together. They brought a smile to my face (and yours too I am sure)

7. Linda, Jean and Susanna - Thank you so much for your understanding and support during my transition. Linda, your makeup tips were just wonderful, I no longer look like a drag queen in heat. Thanks to the three of you so much for makeup tips, jewelry, clothes, and nail polish suggestions. Your help made me the woman I am today.

8. Ed - You are about the best roommate I could have ever hoped for, even if you did spoil my cat rotten. Thank you.

9. Jenn - What can I say? You have been the best sister on the planet. Thank you so much for your support, understanding, friendship, love, etc.

10. Donna Richards - I may not have told you, but you are my inspiration. I look up to you. I can only hope to be 1/10th as lovely as you are.

11. Chrissie, Glenda, Buffy, Lynn, Cindi,Marsha,Hunni - You girls are simply amazing, your zest for life is truly remarkable. Thank you so much, I am happy to count you among my friends.

12. Ken and Michelle - love each other, and take care of the kids. I am lucky to have you as my brother and my sister in law.

13. Sean - Please take care of Jenn, she seems to think she is invincible at times.

14. Rick Kotynski - You are one of the two best managers that I ever had the pleasure of working for. I certainly do wish that you had stayed in charge of the group. The kool aid drinkling, brown nosing, yes goon that soon followed you was without a doubt the worst idiot I have ever worked for.

15. John Schmitt - The best manager I ever worked for. Thank you so much for your support and subsequent friendship.

16. Dianne - yes I've changed a little since our high school days, but I wanted to tell you that I hope all of your dreams come true, you were my first real love, even though there were times that I didn't do a very good job of demonstrating that.

17. Rico - We had a lot of fun times too. Thank you, I certainly enjoyed them.

18. Cassie - I had a great time recollecting old times and shopping with you when I visited Florida. You've got it all together..

19. Margaret - The time we spent together was fun. I enjoyed it, I hope you did too.

20. Valerie - Thanks for your friendship. I was very close to your mom, and I enjoy to this day that you and I keep in touch.

21. Vonda - I liked working with you, and I don't know about you, but I sure am glad to be away from Regressive Insurance. I enjoyed our talks at Applebees, Hometown, etc.

22. Geoff - You helped keep my spirits up, you have helped me through some very difficult times and I greatly appreciate your support and generosity. Thank you very much.

23. Mistress Tara - You provided me with so many opportunities to enjoy myself. I had such a great time due to you. Thank you.

24. MIstress Delilah - as Slave -8 said, we are the ying and yang  of well, you know. I had many great and fun times with you.

25. Mistress Elizabetha - You are the lady who made all of this possible for me, and taught me to release my inhibitions and become my true self, and release all of those inner feelings I had for so many years. I thank you from the bottom of my heart.

26. Mary Lou Wallner - Thank you for everything that you and your husband do. Thank you for being a great supporter of the GLBT community. You two are truly a blessing, and you have made a difference in my life.

27. Phill - Thank you for being so generous and kind to me. You are a wonderful person.

 



June 4th
 

                          Living with Meniere's Disease

Yes, I have this. In 1999, I suffered my first attack from Meniere's Disease. At the time I had no idea what the heck it was or what was wrong with me. So, if I am out somewhere, and you see me fall to the floor, or grab onto something to steady myself, this may be what is going on, I may be suffering an attack. Follow the instructions in section below titled: ---> How Do I Manage an Attack of Meniere's disease?

In 1999, I was at my desk working, when all of a sudden I had a massive headache, felt like the worst migrain headache in the world. I laid my head down on the desk, my manager came by and asked me what was wrong. I told him I had no idea, I could not walk straight, I could not stand up without throwing up. They called the ambulance for me, put me on the stretcher and took me to the hospital.

By the time we got to the hospital, my headache was somewhat better, and I could at least stand on my own two feet without falling down. They gave me something to help with the dizzy spells, and then sent me home.

After many days, weeks, tests and more tests, they finally ruled out everything else and told me that I had Meniere's disease. I was given Antivert in 2001, and I took that until 2003. The doctor suggested that I try and cut down the dosage and see what would happen. I did, and I had no more repeat occurances. Eventually I just went off the medicine altogether, my last pill was taken in the fall of 2003.

Update - June 2009 - I have recently had a couple of little episodes where I have had a dizzy spell (granted not anywhere near as bad as before, no vomiting this time, or being unable to stand up straight), but I did have a prescription for antivert refilled, as a precaution, just in case. So, if I am out somewhere, and I fall to the floor, and don't recover myself, then please take an antivert pill from my purse, and pop it in my mouth.

 

http://www.american-hearing.org/disorders/menieres/menieres.html#whatis

Meniere's disease - In 1861, the French physician Prosper Ménière described a condition which now bears his name. Meniere's disease is a disorder of the inner ear that causes episodes of vertigo, ringing in the ears (tinnitus), a feeling of fullness or pressure in the ear, and fluctuating hearing loss.

A typical attack of Meniere's disease is preceded by fullness in one ear. Hearing fluctuation or changes in tinnitus may also precede an attack. A Meniere's episode generally involves severe vertigo (spinning), imbalance, nausea and vomiting. The average attack lasts two to four hours. Following a severe attack, most people find that they are exhausted and must sleep for several hours. There is a large amount of variability in the duration of symptoms. Some people experience brief "shocks," and others have constant unsteadiness. The majority of people with Meniere's disease are over 40 years of age, with equal distribution between males and females.

A particularly disabling symptom is a sudden fall that may occur without warning.

Meniere's episodes may occur in clusters; that is, several attacks may occur within a short period of time. However, years may pass between episodes. Between the acute attacks, most people are free of symptoms or note mild imbalance and tinnitus.

Meniere's disease usually starts confined to one ear but it often extends to involve both ears over time so that after 30 years, 50% of patients with Meniere's have bilateral disease (Stahle et al, 1991). There is some controversy about this statistic however; some authors suggest that the prevalence of bilaterality is as low as 17% (Silverstein, 1992). We suspect that this lower statistic is due to a lower duration of follow-up and that the 50% figure is more likely to be correct. Other possibilities, however, are selection bias and different patterns of the disease in different countries. Silverstein suggested that 75% of persons destined to become bilateral do so within five years.

How Do I Manage an Attack of Meniere's disease?

During an acute attack, lay down on a firm surface. Stay as motionless as possible, with your eyes open and fixed on a stationary object. Do not try to drink or sip water, as you would be very likely to vomit. Stay like this until the severe vertigo (spinning) passes, then get up SLOWLY. After the attack subsides, you will probably feel very tired and need to sleep for several hours.

If vomiting persists and you are unable to take fluids for longer than 24 hours (12 hours for children), contact your doctor. He or she can prescribe nausea medication, and/or vestibular suppressant medication. Your doctor may wish to see you. Antivert and Ativan are commonly used vestibular suppressant medications and Compazine or Phenergan are commonly used medications for nausea.

What Can be Done to Reduce the Symptoms of Meniere's disease?

Between attacks, medication may be prescribed to help regulate the fluid pressure in your inner ear, thereby reducing the severity and frequency of the Meniere's episodes. Dyazide is the most common medication for this purpose. Neptazine can be used when response to Dyazide isn't good enough. Verapamil (typical dose: 120 SR) sometimes reduces the frequency of attacks. Some physicians prescribe Histamine injections. Prednisone or other steroids (for example Decadron) are occasionally helpful in short bursts. Vestibular suppressants such as Antivert (meclizine) or Klonazepam are used on an as-needed basis.

How Does What I Eat Affect Meniere's Disease?

Your inner ear fluid is influenced by certain substances in your blood and other body fluids. For instance, when you eat foods that are high in salt or sugar, your blood level concentration of salt or sugar increases, and this, in turn, will affect the concentration of substances in your inner ear.

People with certain balance disorders must control the amount of salt and sugar that is added to food. You must also become aware of the hidden salts and sugars that foods contain. Limiting or eliminating your use of caffeine and alcohol will also help to reduce symptoms of dizziness and ringing in the ears.

How Might Meniere's Disease Affect My Life?

Since the acute symptoms of Meniere's disease are episodic, it is important to explain to your family and friends what might happen when you have an attack. Then, if the symptoms occur when they are present, they will understand and not be overly frightened.

You may be able to protect yourself from injury if you feel that an attack is about to begin. Some attacks may occur during the night, so be sure you have a night light on; you will be relying more on vision to help maintain your balance. You will want to make sure that the path to the bathroom is free of throw rugs, furniture or other obstructions.

 

 

 



June 7th
 

I had a Meniere's attack this morning, I had to go lay down for awhile. I felt almost sick to my stomach, had a headache, and dizzy as well.

I am still not feeling the greatest, but a lot better than earlier.

I think I am going to stop drinking soft drink and see if that helps. I had been drinking a fair amount of diet mountain dew lately.



June 8th
 

I joined a couple of other people at Cedar Lee Theatre tonight in the effort to help spread the word about the need for transgendered people to be treated the same as everyone else.

Please, if you can, come join us at future events, it would mean a lot to me.

Thank you

http://www.askcleveland.org/event-calendar-for-ask-cleveland



June 9th
  Electrolysis day. OUCH !

June 11th
 

I applied today for an escort/model job. We'll see if that one pans out. I need something to start bringing in some money before too long considering my cash is going to run out in about 30 days.

I also sent a reply to Tyra Banks, she was looking for some people like myself to be on her Tv show. Not sure if I will make the cut, after all, that's a once in a lifetime shot, but hey, if I don't try, then there's no chance at all. Bobbie Jo



June 14th
  I went on the annual G.I.F.T. cruise last night, and I had such a fantastic time. Dancing, entertainment, good friends, meeting people, drinks, food, etc. I must be doing something right, because I had some more people on the cruise that had no idea that I was a TS. They were talking to me, and they thought that I was a genetic girl. That just makes me day, affirming that I am doing well with my makeup and my transition. Bobbie Jo

June 15th
 

We don't stop playing because we grow old.

We grow old because we stop playing.



June 19th
 

Interesting article, and very true. http://www.clevescene.com/cleveland/how-progressive-insurance-lost-what-made-it-progressive/Content?oid=1504924

Chris Lantzy's 16-year career ended in a hotel room in Newton, Iowa. The call came as he was road-tripping from Colorado with his five sons, headed to Mom's house in Cleveland for Thanksgiving. His wife was back in Colorado, pregnant with their seventh child and unable to make the trek.

Lantzy could afford a big family, thanks to paychecks from one of Northeast Ohio's most successful companies, Progressive. He had worked his way up from lowly temp to senior IT programmer, earning $75,000 in a good year. He'd moved to Colorado Springs from the company's Mayfield Village headquarters just two years before, and always planned to retire from the insurance giant.

Now it had come to this: laid off at the age of 44, just in time for Christmas.

Lantzy was one of more than 340 people to receive pink slips in November. Facing a plummeting stock price, declining profits, and a losing advertising war, the nation's third-largest auto insurer was faltering. The "reduction in force" was supposed to trim the fat.

But two months after the layoffs became public, the company bought the naming rights to Jacobs Field. It was a savvy marketing move, perhaps, but one that angered both Indians fans and employees, who saw the $50 million advertising buy as an insult.

Suddenly, one of Greater Cleveland's best employers, a beacon of stability with 9,400 jobs, became a target of ridicule and resentment. While Wall Street analysts may not have been overly bothered by the slump, Clevelanders couldn't help but take it to heart. The region doesn't have many Fortune 500 companies left. If Progressive stumbles, where does that leave us?

In 2000, Peter B. Lewis was headed through security at the Auckland, New Zealand airport when drug-sniffing dogs discovered an ounce of pot in his briefcase. The 66-year-old billionaire philanthropist, who had recently had his leg amputated, endured a cavity search and a night in jail. This is the man who built Progressive.

Raised in Cleveland Heights during World War II, Lewis took over his father's company in the '60s and grew it from a small outfit to a national name brand with 27,000 employees nationwide. Around the Mayfield campus, "Peter B." was a deity.

He hired bright young people and gave them the power to make decisions. They were encouraged to question authority and be honest with their customers — a novel approach in the insurance world.

Under his leadership, the company earned a reputation for innovation. In the '50s, it started insuring high-risk drivers when no one else was interested, and those customers helped business explode. Then, in the booming '90s, Progressive became notoriously efficient. Independent insurance agents could send a customer's information to Progressive and get a policy faster than anywhere else.

It was one of the first companies to sell insurance online. It launched 24-hour phone lines, and even took the unusual step of providing customers with quotes from competitors.

Meanwhile, employees were treated royally with on-site gyms and doctors' services. Lewis' ex-wife, Toby, helped build what became one of the most impressive corporate art collections in the world.

New ideas were welcomed, and if you worked hard, it paid off with promotions and prestige.

"[Lewis] treated his employees as assets to the company and as real human beings," says one former employee.

"There was just a camaraderie," adds Lantzy. "You took care of them; they took care of you."

Lewis was so dedicated to the company that he told a reporter his fantasy was "to be carried feet first out of my office." About eight years ago, thanks to circulatory problems that led to partial amputation of his leg, he ceded the spotlight, resigning as CEO. These days, he enjoys his private jet and homes in Beachwood, New York, and Colorado, and spends nearly half the year on a luxury yacht overseas. Renowned for his love of art, women, and weed, he makes a habit of giving the finger to Cleveland's civic establishment, withholding donations from institutions like Case Western Reserve and University Circle if he decides they're poorly run.

He's still the chairman of Progressive's board, but when he departed, he made Glenn Renwick his handpicked CEO. Some employees say nothing has been the same since.

"Until the reorganization was announced, I could've written a commercial for how much I loved Progressive," says one veteran manager.

"Everybody wanted to be there," adds another longtime employee. "Now it's quite the opposite."

When contacted by Scene, most employees were afraid to speak publicly about the company. Some fear they'll be fired. The laid-off still have friends and family on the job. And Progressive, they say, is no longer a place where people are encouraged to speak openly.

In the years after Lewis left, new layers of management appeared. Analysts and MBAs were hired to examine processes and procedures, rather than bring money in the door. "Things quit getting done," one former manager recalls.

Office politics became more important, Lantzy says, causing the company to lose focus. New managers would reorganize things. Six months later, everything would be reshuffled again. It had become something of a Dilbert cartoon — management for management's sake. "It didn't seem like being a loyal, hard worker counted as much anymore, whereas it always had," he says.

Soon, the trademark collegial office culture was replaced by fear. One longtime employee says that if someone complains in his out-of-state office, the bosses will put a newspaper on his desk, opened to the want ads.

"They pretty much rule with an iron fist," he explains. "They want you out, they'll get you out."

A former local manager, who was earning more than $100,000 a year, learned of his impending layoff at a hastily convened meeting in November. Progressive's call-center chief actually read from a script. The manager's position was being eliminated, they told him. There just wasn't a place for him.

He might have mistaken this for a scene from Office Space, if not for the extra security guards outside the door. He grabbed his coat, turned in his key card, and walked out.

The days of Peter B.'s swaggering honesty and fearless innovation were officially over.

Some trace the decline to Progressive's dubious decision, four years ago, to split the company into two brands. Drive would sell policies the traditional way, through agents in neighborhood offices. Progressive Direct would sell via the phone and the internet.

For reasons no one can seem to explain, the company believed the split would help them win favor with independent agents, who hawked the policies of multiple companies. Progressive invested heavily in the idea, wining and dining agents in Vegas, and renting out a racetrack so they could see the Drive car compete, one veteran employee recalls.

The execs didn't seem to realize that diluting their name recognition by splitting into two lesser-known brands was asking for trouble.

The decision didn't sit well with many independent agents. They were already peeved about Progressive's low commissions and worried that its online and phone sales would put them out of business. Trying to get them to sell an unknown brand wasn't going to help.

"Everybody saw that it was ridiculous," one Cleveland manager says.

Yet the split remained in place until last September, when the company folded back under the single Progressive banner. But by that time, agents had already taken to placing their business elsewhere, says Brian Sullivan, editor of the trade newsletter Auto Insurance Report.

Meanwhile, competitors began to target Progressive's greatest strengths. Other companies jumped into online sales and sought high-risk drivers. And Progressive continued to get pummeled in the area that's always been its weakness: marketing.

According to TNS Media Intelligence, nationwide spending on car insurance ads exploded from $600 million in 2003 to $1.6 billion in 2006. GEICO alone spent at least $500 million that year.

Progressive had long believed that customers would automatically recognize its superior service, Sullivan says, though it might not offer the cheapest policies. But that's not a message that sells well in a sound bite. Slogans such as "Think easier; think Progressive" and "Relax. Just drive" weren't the kind of catchphrases you could hum in a carpool.

Nine years ago, the company ran a Super Bowl ad featuring E.T. as a spokesman for safe driving. It was supposed to be part of a larger branding campaign, complete with propaganda in drivers' ed courses and an E.T. Safety Club for kids. But it all had the feel of a public service announcement. When new customers failed to arrive, Lewis fired the ad company.

"They really don't understand advertising and marketing," Sullivan says. "That's what's playing the game right now."

GEICO is just the opposite. With its faintly British gecko mascot and Caveman commercials — so popular they spawned a sitcom — it offers a counterpoint as a friendly, likable company with a healthy sense of humor.

Allstate, meanwhile, portrays itself as a reliable, comforting hand you can depend on during a disaster. Its spokesman, naturally, is the cello-voiced Dennis Haysbert, who played the president on 24.

By comparison, Progressive's ads seem more like software commercials. They are sleek and tech-savvy, but hardly distinguishable from thousands of others. The current slogan, "It's about you. And it's about time," is as bland as its predecessors. Its latest commercial features a nondescript guy in a checkout line. The cashier claims he just saved $350, then touts the company's "concierge claims service" and 24/7 help online.

Within the blizzard of ads that pound consumers daily, it has all the ingredients to be eminently forgettable.

"Progressive has consistently proven that it doesn't know what funny is," Sullivan says. "It's just bad."

Progressive seems to be aware of the problem. It recently moved its brand development division under CEO Renwick's direct supervision. One of its biggest moves was to buy the naming rights to Jacobs Field. The question is whether displaying its logo at Tribe games will be enough to make a difference.

Sullivan says the name game is helpful, because it builds branding and puts Progressive's name on the lips of baseball fans everywhere. But the dizzying pace at which stadiums change names leaves it unclear whether fans remember any field's name.

"This is a spectacular insurance company with a very powerful foundation," Sullivan says. "Four really smart people can fix the advertising. The problem is, they haven't found those four people."

By last fall, Progressive's stock price had fallen to $18.21 — the lowest it had been in four years.

This raises questions about the company's capacity to grow. People clearly aren't buying its stock, and that problem has persisted for months (the price was down to $17.76 in early March).

Last month, Progressive's claims chief of the past nine years, Brian Passell, was "separated" from the company without explanation. Such moves don't inspire confidence. "They're not growing," Sullivan says. "They need to get this figured out."

It's perhaps a sign of how bad things have gotten that corporate officials refused to talk to Scene for this story. There was a time when reporters could reach Lewis directly. Now calls are vetted through a PR team. Answers to Scene's questions were provided via e-mail and attributed to the company's human resources chief, Tricia Griffith.

She admits that having a well-known brand is key to competing with the GEICOs of the world and says that the Jacobs Field deal is designed to make that happen. As for the employees, they're still enjoying the same gyms, yoga classes, health centers, dry cleaning, and profit-sharing perks they always have. Those who were laid off were considered either "redundant" after Drive and Direct merged, or simply not necessary. She says the company's IT department was "overstaffed." In fact, she suggests that the layoffs, many of which affected higher-paid veterans, would help save Progressive from the problems that concern Sullivan.

"These changes allow us to operate more efficiently, which can help us bring competitive prices to more customers and grow our business," Griffith wrote.

But as one manager points out, it's been four months since the layoffs, and "Our stock prices are still not moving." She can't help but blame the people on top.

"Peter would have found some way to stimulate the business," she says. "He would've put Progressive out there in the forefront."

These days, the mood in Mayfield is dark. No one's sure whether more cuts are coming, and managers feel their every move is being examined from above. One says she used to be free to make many of her own decisions. Now, "I could still do that, but only after I get permission to do that."

She won't leave, because she has a son in college and "couldn't touch" the salary she's earning anywhere else. But she's frustrated, knowing that a company full of "some of the brightest people I've ever worked with" is being choked by fear and micromanagement. "I think that the business would be successful again," she says. "It's like you need to unleash those people."

Of course, no one is ready to write Progressive's obituary. Some analysts argue that the company's roaring growth of the '90s couldn't last forever — all rising empires inevitably plateau. "They had a golden age," Sullivan says. "That is rarely sustained for long."

John Ryan, an analyst for Morningstar, points out that the car insurance industry as a whole is suffering through a natural downturn after a boom. He's confident it's a temporary problem, and a well-run company like Progressive will recover in time. "People may be antsy . . . To us, it's nothing new," he says from his office in Chicago.

Adds Sullivan: "They're struggling, but the core of what they do is still excellent."

In the end, it's hard to kill the optimism bred by decades of success. Even Lantzy says he recently applied for another job at Progressive. "I really cared about the company," he says, "and in a funny way, I still do. It's just a big chunk of me."



June 23rd
  Torture treatment day again. I can actually tell that there is less hair each time to worry about, but of course it isn't going away fast enough for me. I want this to all be gone now. Thank you Carol for your help in transforming me into the woman I should have been all along. Your work means a lot to me, and I appreciate it greatly.

June 24th
 

Why I bother, I do not know.

The idiotic "service engine light" came on today on the car.       Hey good one, let's take more money that I don't have.

In my previous line of work I always tried to help people resolve their issues and I see exactly where that got me.

I guess the saying is true, "nice people finish last".

I think I'll sell everything I own and move to Las Vegas and become a hooker to make a living.

Anyway, I'm going to make some popcorn and watch a movie, maybe I'll be in a better frame of mind come tomorrow after a good night's sleep.

Sorry for the negative sounding post.

************************************* UPDATE - 10 P.M. *****************************************************

I went for a walk around the neighborhood in my cute red dress and my 3 inch heels a little earlier to try and get myself in a better frame of mind.

After I got back, my sister called me, she saw my whining on this thread and she called me.   Thanks sis.

She said, hey girl, why don't you take it to Autozone and they can probably tell you what the code is saying for free.

Oh cool, good idea. I didn't even think of that one, DUH ! ......another Bobbie Jo brunette moment.

I found one that was open about 8 miles away, they said it's probably just a small vacuum leak, and shouldn't be too much to fix. YEA, some good news for a change.

 

 

 



June 25th
 

So, I take the car into the mechanic today to have them look at it, and they say,

"oh yes, we've seen this car before, I remember the guy that used to have this car"

"So, when did you buy this car from him?"

Thinking about my response, Ah yea, that's it,

"Yes, I bought it from him not too long ago, he was certainly pretty decent about it, he gave me a really good price too".

 

ANOTHER DAY IN THE LIFE OF BOBBIE JO

I JUST LOVE BEING A TGIRL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!



June 26th
 

Michael Jackson, dead at age 50.

I don't know what happened, but my personal belief is that when he was burned filming that Pepsi commercial some time ago, I think he was hurt far more than anyone was letting on, including Michael himself.

He was one of the greatest entertainers of all time. I love his music.



June 27th
 

I had my bottom up last night, oops, I mean we went to Cocktails followed by heading over to Bottoms Up last night.

As usual, this girl had a fabulous  time.

The only downer was as we were leaving, I stepped on a soft piece of grass to get into the car, my heel got caught, my foot turned, and I broke my 7 inch heels.

WHINE !   OH NO!

Michelle is going to take them somewhere and see if she can get them fixed for me. She is a great friend..

I hope, I hope, I hope. I love those shoes.

 

At bottoms up, I played on the stripper pole some more, I just can't get enough of a nice hard pole.

Then we went downstairs, watched the drag show, and this particular girl got up on stage and did a slow, sensuous dance.

I was asked if I was a stripper. "No honey, I'm a transsexual, full time, 24X7".

"REALLY?, I thought you were a GG".  I have been getting that a lot lately. Many people have told me that I look very good, and that my moves, my makeup, my legs and arms, and yes, now even my body are quite feminine. The fact that the "girls" have finally started peeking out of their hiding place is also helping in this obviously. (I credit my ability to pass for a GG to my many great friends who gave me lots of makeup and clothes tips, I want to say a special thank you to Linda and Domina Elizabetha especially. Linda gave me my first help with makeup, and Domina Elizabetha was the lady who saw the woman hiding in me and showed me the way to happiness and to be my true self.)

Anyway, back to last night's story, Someone else chimed in and stated that I was playing on the stripper pole upstairs earlier.

Yet another great night in the life of Bobbie Jo, now if Michelle can just get my shoes fixed.



June 29th
  THANK YOU MICHELLE. Thank you so much for finding a place that can fix my 7 inch stripper shoes. You are a great friend, thank you very much.

June 30th
 

This girl is in the mood to dance and play on the stripper pole again.

I may just take my tushy over to Bottoms Up Tuesday night.

July may be my last month in cleveland, so I am going to enjoy it while I can.
I have yet to find a place with a stripper pole in columbus, but I am currently doing extensive research on that issue.

Bottoms up Tuesday night, 6/30/09, I may get there around 9:30-10 p.m.

Bottom's Up of Lakewood

1572 W. 117th St.
Lakewood, Ohio 44107

 

Bobbie Jo



July 1st
 

I went out to Bottoms Up nightclub last night, this time in my six inch stripper shoes that my sister bought me for my birthday.

I went with Michelle, a very attractive transsexual. We had a good time. She even got up and did kareoke.

I've been on stage dancing and doing lip syncing, but haven't done kareoke yet, maybe sometime soon.

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July 2nd
 

I love this song by K.D.Lang, it is one of my favorites.

Are you breathing
What I'm breathing
Are your wishes
The same as mine

Are you needing
What I'm needing
I'm waiting for a sign

My hands tremble
My heart aches
Is it you calling


If I'm alone in this
I don't think I can face
The consequences of falling

Are you thinking
What I'm thinking
Does your pulse
Quicken like mine

Are you dreaming
What I'm dreaming
I can't read your mind
One step towards you
Two steps back
Feels like I'm crawling

If I'm alone in this
I don't think I can face
The consequences of falling



July 3rd
  It is my hope that one day we can all be accepted for who we are, no matter whether we are gay, straight, bisexual, lesbian, or transgendered.

July 4th
 

Yes, I know this one is a day early, I just wanted to wish everyone a happy and safe July 4th.

Have a great time, and be careful with fireworks.

My two favorite bars to hang out in are: Cock and Tails, oopsie, I mean Cocktails, and My Bottom is Up on the stripper pole, oops, I mean Bottoms Up.

In other news, this has become my new favorite link:

http://www.platinumstages.com/



July 5th
 

I think I will go to Home Dept on Monday and get some boxes to start packing up some of this crap.

Throw out a lot, sell some, and pack the important stuff for my move.

I will stop by Executive Den for a job tomorrow too, not that I expect much of anything to come from that, but hey, I've heard no a lot of times lately, so one more time won't mean much.

I have an appointment with the real estate agent on Tuesday about selling the house 

 

I'm supposed to be doing training tomorrow for the Transgender anti-discrimination legislation we are trying to get passed, but honestly I am so tired right now, I don't know if I will make it there. Maybe, I know it is a very important cause. .

Tuesday night is the phone bank for it, and Wednesday is some event for it as well..

I am just getting so tired, and I am starting to wear myself down and I need to stop that, because I don't have health insurance and I really can't afford to be sick.

I have a lot of work upcoming trying to get the house ready to be sold, and for moving out of here, and I am not exactly looking forward to packing up all of this crap,

I think a lot of stuff is going to find its way into the trash can, including the oak computer desk, for some reason no one is volunteering to move that one..

Time for bed, I'm tired as hell right now, but sleep is not coming easy to me.

Oh well, maybe I can hopefully make a few dollars tomorrow to put gas in the car and some food in the refrigerator.

I see they put my ad looking for a stripper position up this weekend, maybe I will get some calls and possibly a job from it this coming week, I could use the money.  I will keep my fingers crossed.

OKay, I mean it this time, I am going to try and go to sleep. It's 2:44 in the morning right now.

.

 



July 6th
 

Anyone think I have the body to be an exotic dancer or stripper?

http://www.stripclubjobs.com/jobbase/Resume.asp?ResumeId=23614



July 7th
 

Why exactly is the idiotic "service engine soon light" on again in my car?

Didn't we just go through this last week?

Hey car, knock it off, I don't have any money right now

Anyone want to buy a 2002 Camaro z28 ?

I'll just start driving the 1966 Caprice everywhere.

I hope that stripper job comes through, of course the main problem is that there's a lot of competition out there right now.

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I talked to a realtor today about selling the house.

She suggested I try and talk to the mortgage company about doing a "short sell". I guess I will contact the mortgage company tomorrow and get that process started.

Michelle, (another transsexual) also suggested a place today for me that can offer mortgage help too. I am going to look into that as well.

 

Putting my current situation into words, if I had a choice between:

1 Saving my house and going back to work for Progressive Insurance,

----------------------------------------OR------------------------------------------------

2. Being thrown out on the street, not knowing where my next meal is coming from, ending up being homeless, destitute, and selling my body to eek out a meager existence..

 

I WILL TAKE BEING THROWN OUT ON THE STREET ANYDAY over working for those brown nosing, kool aid drinking, idiotic goons at Regressive ("Progressive") Insurance.

 



July 2009 - Violence directed at LGBT community
 

Please be careful out there, there are a lot of idiots in the world.

Columbus, Ohio

BRAVO, has received 3 reports of anti-LGBT attacks in multiple neighborhoods around several LGBT Bars on Friday night of the 4th of July weekend.

The description of the attackers in each incident is very similar and BRAVO strongly believes that these attacks are related and were perpetrated by the same group of assailants.

In all 3 assaults the victims were jumped by a group of 6-7 young men, in well lit and populated areas. The attacks took place between midnight and 2:00 AM.

The assaults involved beating, kicking, and punching with “brass knuckles”. Injuries included concussions, stitches, abrasions, bruises, and head injuries; medical attention was required in all cases.

Anti-LGBT language was used in all 3 of the attacks.

 If you have been the victim of, or are aware of, similar assaults please contact BRAVO (614-294-7867) or the Columbus Police Department. (614-645-4545)

For further information BRAVO can be reached at 614-294-7867 or 866-86-BRAVO

Description of Perpetrators: Sex: 6-7 Males in a group Race: Caucasian, African American & Latino Age: Early 20’s



July 8th
 

My good friend Michelle took me over to Executive Den this morning, and the girls there were extremely nice to me, they even let me perform on stage to two songs.

My moves need some work, and I certainly wasn't expecting to be on stage dancing this morning, I was simply going over there to check the place out.

Thank you to the girls and management at Executive Den.

That was an enjoyable start, that absolutely made my day. I will always cherish and remember this moment.

Thank you Michelle for taking me there.

Bobbie Jo

 

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Why was I born with the wrong genitiala ?



July 9th
 

Darn it, I hate it when I don't write the phone number down correctly, but have deleted the answering machine message already so I can't replay it. Ditto for when someone gives me a number and then I forget where I put it, or I don't write their name with the number, and it's like okay, whose number is this?.

Hopefully you will call back.

No, I am not ignoring you, I'm just a little too brunette for my own good. (Everyone who knows me says I have blonde roots).

So, call back please, thank you.

Bobbie Jo

Well that was certainly bizarre, he was acting awfully suspicious, I wonder if he was coming here to rape me, rob me, kill me, or all three.

I am extremely glad that my roommate was home with me, that could have turned out very bad otherwise.

Bobbie Jo



July 10th
 

A very kind person posted this comment on my facebook page today, and it touched my heart.

"I was just reading your profile and its so great to see you living your life the way that makes you happy. more people in this world could learn alot from you. you've inspired me to feel more proud of myself"



July 12th
  I am going to see if I can get enrolled in this, I would love to be an exotic dancer, that would make me very happy.

http://www.xexercise.com/classinfo.html

I think I will throw on my bikini and jump in the hot tub.



July 13th
 

I have started using the Peggy Bundy approach to paying the bills.

I throw all the bills up in the air, and the ones that land face up are the lucky ones I pay this month.



July 14th
  I am trying to get registered in an exotic dance class so hopefully I can get a job at a stripper club.

July 15th
  HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROB.

July 16th
 

I just don't want to end up being a burden to anyone and that is all I am going to say today.



July 17th
 

On Friday, July 17th, I will be having a good time and enjoying life at Southbend Night club in Columbus, OH from around 10:45 p.m. or so until the wee hours of the morning.

Meanwhile, From facebook - Bobbie took the "What Type Of Girl Are you" quiz and the result is "Blonde Bimbo" (well, people do say that I have blonde roots)


So, people dont see you as the brightest star in the sky but you know deep down past all those stupid things you've said and done there is smartness in you, and as long as you know that all those names out there cant hurt you. you are very beautiful and you know that, so keep it up! p.s. YOU ARE NOT STUPID!


July 18th
 

I did a striptease on stage at Southbend Nightclub in Columbus Friday night and I had a great time.

I wish I could be up on stage, dancing and strutting my stuff for a living, but I guess that is not to be, too much competition, and I need to face facts, I mean who really wants to hire a 51 year old pre-op transsexual as a dancer? Answer: no one. (and I'm certainly not getting any younger)

I could suck cock for a living since I do that fairly well, ,but for some reason which I will never understand, a woman can give away her body scott free, but if she tries to make some money off of it, then and only then does it become a crime. What group of lunatics wrote that stupidity? Personally, I think we ought to take about 95% of the laws in this country and throw them in the trash can. I know, I have an idea --> Bobbie Jo for president, my campaign slogan, THE BULLSHIT STOPS NOW.

 

On another note, I was a member of a yahoo group that "supposedly" was created to help transsexuals with hormone questions, however there is someone on there that thinks that not answering a valid question and that being a smartass is perfectly okay, and sorry, but I've had quite enough lately of idiotic morons that think they are god's gift to the world. I left the group for good, and I will find another way to get my hormone questions answered. I am quite tired of dealing with idiots.

  

 

 



July 18th - #2
 

I can tell that I must be in my "pms cycle". My emotions have been up and down over the last few days, sometimes crying for the silliest reasons, plus I feel like I have water gain. I can only imagine what some GG's go through.

Aren't hormones a wonderful thing? I only wish I could get pregnant and start a family, medical science probably won't catch up in time for me, but hopefully it will be possible for girls like me in the future to give birth to children and raise a family.



July 18th - #3
  Maybe one day stupid here will actually learn not to step on soft surfaces in seven inch heels. Back to the shoe repair shop we go.

July 19th
 

TWO OUT OF THREE ISN'T BAD:

PMS moments aside, Even though my financial health is in the toilet right now, I am very lucky to have excellent emotional health and physical health.

I am probably in the best shape of my life, and I have many great friends and a wonderful family that keeps my emotional well being at a good level.

Finally living my life as I should have been doing all along.

 

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There shouldn't be any damn consequences to living our lives as the people we were meant to be all along.

I am so very sick and tired of the term GID.

Did people who are living their lives as their birth gender have to go through therapy because they live their lives as a woman or a man?
Answer: No.

So my question to the world is: why in the hell do I have to go through therapy just because I was born with a birth defect I am trying to get corrected?

 



July 20th
 

Doing what I need to do to survive.

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I may go to Bottoms Up nightclub in Lakewood Tuesday night, I hear there is a very lonely stripper pole there that has been missing me.

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Okay, that's the second time in 2 weeks I have been ripped off. My stupidity for trusting people, and thinking people will do the right thing. When will I ever learn?

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I submitted the paperwork for possible mortgage help today. We'll see if I get any. I have a phone appointment to discuss options in more detail with them on Friday, 7/24

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Well, anything else want to happen to me today? What did I do wrong here? I know I'm certainly not beautiful, but I don't quite think I'm butt ugly either.



July 21st
 

Electrolysis day again.

I sure will be glad when I am done with this.

I do appreciate all of the hard work that Carol has put into making me be more feminine. She has done a wonderful job turning me from an ugly duckling into a reasonably attractive swan. Lord knows she has put a lot of work into me, and I appreciate it greatly.

 



July 22nd
 

You find out who truly loves you and who your real friends are when going through transition.

People who don't like it and can't accept it were obviously never that important to begin with..

I watched Chloe's special on ABC news last night and I bawled my eyes out. Some of what she has been through I have been through myself.

I can remember wanting to run my car into a tree at a high speed and kill myself because I didn't like my former self at all. I can remember many times sitting in the car, about a mile away from the spot I had picked out where I would hit the tree. A few times I even did a "practice run" to make sure that I would have enough speed by the time I hit it. I never felt comfortable in my previous life. I felt out of place, socially awkward, and very unsure of myself. I absolutely hated getting "dressed up", wearing suits, etc for church or other social functions, leave me in jeans and a tshirt in my former life.. My dad would always keep my hair cut so short, and I hated that, oh my god, I absolutely hated that. The first opportunity I was able to have a say in how I got my haircut, I started wearing it longer. I hated being made to look like a boy. I just dreaded going out in public. Of course, growing up in the 60s and 70s, there wasn't a huge amount of help for the transgendered community,  at that age, even I didn't really understand why I had all of these feelings of hate for my body and the way I looked.. If not for my little sister being born, I am pretty positive that I wouldn't be here today, I probably would have succeded in one of my suicide attempts at some point if not for her. 

My little sister Jenn and I get along extremely well, and we were always very close, both before and after my transition.

I am finally living my life as the woman I should have been all along, and I am so much happier now. (even if I do go off on a pms rant every once in awhile).

Now that I am finally living my life as the woman I should have been all along, I love getting dressed up to go out, sometimes I dress a little slutty of course, but other times dressing very much the lady with an evening gown, or other beautiful dress. I love getting all dolled up to go out, it makes me feel so wonderful and special, and very much in touch with my true self.

http://abcnews.go.com/Primetime/MindMoodNews/popup?id=8100642'

http://abcnews.go.com/Primetime/MindMoodNews/Story?id=8126749&page=1

 



July 23rd
 

I am hopeful that I can have SRS and FFS one day. I want my body to finally match who I really am. Bobbie Jo

Interesting link. Sex change, The last time they'd seen her, she was a star quarterback named Paul McKerrow

The last time they'd seen her, she was a star quarterback named Paul McKerrow



July 24th
 

If I can ever afford SRS, this is the doctor that I want to have my surgery scheduled with:

SRS - Dr. Marci Bowers

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Tuesday, I am going to ask the doctor I go to for laser hair removal if they also do genital laser hair removal, (in prep fpr SRS).

A friend just sent me a great facial video, with several guys jacking off onto a girls face, I wish I was the girl in that video. I'd love to do a porn video.



July 25th
 

Yes, the rumor is true, exotic dancer Bobbie Jo is now on youtube, and having the time of my life.

Bobbie Jo, the tgirl exotic dancer



July 26th
 

I saw this posted on another tg message board by a member there, and I couldn't have said it better myself.

"Oh yeah and for what it's worth -- YES. My gender is not my disorder. My freakin' malformed BODY is my disorder. Physical illness, not mental. Society's mistreatment of me and my sisters and brothers, that's the disorder"

 

 



July 28th
 

Donna Renee Richards, a great lady. She is my inspiration.

I remember the first time I met her, she is a truly wonderful gal, her and her husband are two of the nicest people you could ever hope to meet.



July 29th
 

I remember the fall of 2007 when I was just starting electrolysis and laser hair removal. I had a lot of questions and not many answers.

I wasn't sure if I could ever be considered passable in public.

Two years later I know not only is it possible, it is happening all the time. I have been mistaken for a GG many times lately, which just makes my day. I have received many great compliments and people have been very polite, and also extremely nice and kind to me as well.

I love going to the beach, wearing my bikini. I have been hit on quite a few times, and I'm smiling and thinking to myself:"If only you knew what was under this bikini bottom" (but hopefully it won't be there one day).

I am so very happy and comfortable with myself now. Early in 2008, I could never imagine leaving the house without makeup, lots of makeup back then. Today I do this on a routine basis. I feel so alive, so very happy, and so wonderful that my dream of womanhood is finally coming true.

We are down to the last three electrolysis appointments, YEA, I love Carol and the excellent job she has done on me, but I won't miss the weekly electrolysis sessions. It has been a long road, and I have had my setbacks and my disappointments, but with the help of family and many wonderful friends, and my dear boyfriend Rob, I have successfully made it through.

FINALLY LIVING MY LIFE AND COMFORTABLE WITH MYSELF AS THE WOMAN I SHOULD HAVE BEEN ALL ALONG.

Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine the number of other people that felt the way I did. I have been amazed by the number of other transsexuals I have met, both ftm and mtf. There are a lot of us out there, and for each one of us that makes that transition, it will be easier for the next person. Society is beginning to accept us, it has taken far too long for this to happen, and there are still many challenges ahead for myself and other transgendered people. I am also amazed at the number of crossdressers out there as well, I have met so many of you and you have simply been wonderful to me. I can not thank each and every one of you enough.

To all the other girls out there, many of you still in the closet, that first step to take is the hardest, they really do get easier after that first one.  I was nervous and very unsure of myself at first, but once I saw that this was really possible, I felt such an overwhelming sense of relief. I won't say that is has been all roses, but I am so very happy to finally be at this point in my life, comfortable with who I am, and the many great friends, and family I have around me. I wish the many future ladies out there all the best, and if you ever have any questions you'd like to ask me, I will try and answer anything I can. Feel free to contact me at my email: goldshow@yahoo.com

I had a great talk with a former co-worker and friend of mine today, he emailed me this morning, and called me this afternoon, we had a very nice chat. I asked, so how did you find out? I got the story, he was sent a link to my website from someone else who asked him "Have you heard from so-and-so,  and at first, after looking at the pics, he's like no way. Then as he started looking very closely at some of my older pictures, he figured it out. He then told someone else, "Go to this website and look who this is". He kept trying to tell the other guy who I was in a former life, and the other guy said, No way, can't possibly be" It wasn't until I sent him an email with my username set to Bobbie Jo that the lightbulb finally clicked on.    

Have a great day, and enjoy your life. Always remember, we don't stop playing because we grow old, we grow old because we stop playing. 

Bobbie Jo

 

 



July 30th
 

Some people are scared of tgirls, I am not sure why. I guess too much "conditioning" from society all through the years.

We don't bite, and in many ways, we are more womanly than most GG's (genetic girls) are.

We also know how to please men very well, I've been told that I was born to please men, and I think I do a darn fine job at that.

So, if you have a chance to meet or date a transsexual, I say go for it, don't be shy, you just might find the love of your life.

What's between our legs (or in the case of the more fortunate tgirls, what was between our legs) does not define who we are.

 

My hope is that one day, web pages like this one will no longer be needed, because we will all respect each other for who we are.. Remembering our dead.

I don't know why, but I got to thinking about, how would people find out if someone killed me or if I died in an accident?  My roommate would probably realize something wasn't right when I wasn't around. Rob would wonder where I was, as well as would my family and my close friends. However, what about those people who I just communicate with via email, yahoo messenger or on facebook? How would they know I wasn't here anymore? I'm not sure I have an answer to that one. I guess they would figure it out when I'm not responding to emails or messages anymore. I think the thing that would bother me the most is not being able to give people a hug, thank them for their wonderful companionship/friendship, etc. and not being able to say goodbye. Don't know why this is on my mind today, but it just is, hopefully it isn't a sign of things to come.

 

 



July 31st
 

A couple of people have suggested that maybe I might have the XXY chromosone.

My mom (after she watched Chloe's special on ABC, yea mom, I am so glad you watched that).

My good friend Mike also suggested it too.

I don't know if that is the case or not, but if I ever get health insurance again, maybe I will find out one day. 

 



August 3rd
 

Entirely too much junk in this place. I don't want to move all of this crap. What the heck did I keep some of this stuff for? Looks like the trash can is going to be full for each of the next few weeks. Time to get back to having only what I need to survive.

I am so very fed up with the rat race. Too many of the american people are a bunch of sheep, but not this girl. I will NOT be walked all over anymore.

I will die first before I put up with that nonsense again.I hope one day that the american sheeple will wake up and quit being trampled upon. I wish our forefathers were here today.

I have a fuck it all attitude. If more people had this attitude, the world would be a better place, and there wouild be a whole lot less bullshit to deal with.

I closed all my bank accounts and my 401ks, I will keep one credit card in the event of an emergency, and that is it. Other than having that one credit card, this girl will be CASH ONLY from here on out. I am fed up with being RIPPED OFF by banks, wall street and corporate america.  Hey banks, up yours, you ripped off BILLIONS of TAXPAYER money (including MY taxpayer money) with this so-called stimulus. So, guess what that means, all of my credit card bills, etc are now considered PAID IN FULL. Every other american needs to tell you people the same damn thing. You can take my credit rating and shove it, I won't need that nonsense ever again.

Bobbie Jo for President, put me in charge of this country, I'll create jobs in a heartbeat, and it will be the AMERICAN PEOPLE getting big stimulus checks, and NOT corporate america.

I am paying the bills I can pay via money order or COLD, HARD CASH from now on.      No more bank account, no more checks.

In other  news, I am going to two strip clubs this week to see if I can get a job there..



August 4th
 

Torture treatment day. Yea, only a couple more electrolysis appointments after today. Thank goodness. I will be extremely happy when the last of the hair is gone from my face. That will be a major milestone for me.

After I get back from torture treatment, (and paying a few bills), I will be working on throwing more stuff away in preparation for moving.

 

Let me know your opinion on the topic below, thank you.

should I close this site down? Yes, no, or don't care?



August 5th
 

So, let's see, would it be a bit too over the top if I put a billboard out on the highway saying:

"BOBBIE JO - ADULT VIDEO SLUT WANNA BE, GET 49 OF YOUR FRIENDS TOGETHER AND CONTACT THIS BUKKAKE VIDEO WHORE AT xxx-xxx-xxxx"

Why is everything I like to do illegal or immoral?



August 6th
 

Bill paying day today. I threw them all up in the air and the lucky ones that landed face up were the ones that got paid.

The Peggy Bundy method of paying bills.

Right now, I am concentrating on paying utility bills, so i can keep the house lights on, a/c and water running.

Throwing away more crap in preparation for eventual moving day

Everytime I think I'm getting somewhere in the rat race, they make faster rats, so I finally decided, the heck with the rat race, I will be at the nearest party, partying my a** off and enjoying life

 



August 7th
 

I read a great friend's journal entry on www.urnotalone.com and I couldn't have said it better myself. I will post just some of the lines from her entry here, with some of my commentary included. :

"I hear many stories of how some trans-sexuals have to still be male because of families & jobs. I want to say that is bogus nonsense, because if you are for real about who you are & who you want to become, then quit making yourself miserable & unhappy & trying to do the "right thing" for everyone else, and instead start making yourself happy"

BobbieJo - I agree, Quit listening to what other people telling you is "best for you". These people are nothing but busybodies that want to tell you how you should be living your life. FUCK THEM AND THE HORSE THEY RODE IN ON. Only you can make yourself happy, no one else.

"It may hurt & may cost someone their family or even friends, but why sacrifice your happiness, sometimes you have to lose to win, no matter the cost. Some people understand, some don't"

"No one should have to hide who they are just to make someone else happy, no one should be considering suicide, or mental health issues because of who they want to be. I know some families won't understand, but that is their loss because you know who you are & you are a great person no matter who you want to become, you are still YOU, & the love you have will never change"

BobbieJo - This is exactly the way I feel too. Transitioning to a woman has cost me a lot, (and not just money wise), but it has given me so much more in return. I have so many wonderful friends, a great support system around me, some of the most caring and kind people I have ever met in my life. The best parts about transitioning to a woman are that I am FINALLY in the right persona, I am at long last comfortable and happy with myself, and that I no longer think about committing suicide.

Bobbie Jo 



August 10th
 

Possible job offer in Portsmouth, New Hampshire.

They are supposed to call me about the details in the morning, we will see, I have already been through the interview process with them, and they were asking me about a start date.

This would be $60 per hour, so decent change, and for some stupid reason I will never understand, selling my body seems to be against some dumbass archaic law. .


August 11th
 

I've had more sperm in my hair, in my mouth, on my tits, down my throat, and on my face than all of the sperm banks have combined.

Bobbie Jo, the sperm bank, your deposit is safe with me.

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Looks like I am off to New Hampshire for a few months.



August 12th - Torn between two worlds
 

On the one hand, I will miss my many great and close friends, and I can not even begin to put into words how much I am going to miss Rob.

On the other hand, I have bills that need to be paid, and I need money.

I should have gotten out of that toxic hell hole called oppressive insurance back in July of 2008 when I had that job offer from Citizens Bank.

 

My heart is aching right now, think I will go cry myself to sleep, wish I had someone here to hold me.  I could use a pair of arms wrapped around me, holding me tight.

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Frustrated, annoyed and heartbroken that I won't have time to say everyone I'd like to say goodbye to. I don't understand life's twists and turns. Sometimes I almost wish I didn't have a heart so at least it wouldn't be broken when I have to make a hard decision.



August 20th
  I am working in Portsmouth, New Hampshire at Liberty Mutual currently.

I am desperately trying to find a room to rent for the next few months.

I plan on being back in Ohio, maybe heading to warren for GNO the third saturday in September.



August 25th
 

I still need to get my computer working, have to find a wireless internet company.

I am using my landlord's computer right now. all is well with me, I hope everyone else is doing okay too.

I went to Club 313 on saturday night in my stripper outfit (7 inch heels, etc) and I partied and danced my a** off. I had such a good time, I think I am going there again this coming weekend. They had a great drag queen show too.

Yesterday, I went out to dinner by my lonesome, went to Applebee's and I had a nice meal. (I NEVER WOULD HAVE GONE OUT TO EAT BY MYSELF IN MY FORMER LIFE, just goes to show how I truly am living my life as the woman I should have been all along. I am much more at ease with myself, with others, and a whole hell of a lot happier with my life. I haven't been seriously depressed or tried to committ suicide in 2+ years now, almost a record for me.

Today my cat met my landlord's dog (an alaskan malamut (sp). They seemed to get along okay together, no blood was shed.

It has been 10 days since I've had a load of sperm down my throat, what will I do?

I am missing out on my protein, and a girl needs her protein.

I DESPERATELY NEED PROTEIN, CAN ANYONE HELP?



August 26th
  Thirsty tgirl needs sperm to drink, I need my protein. Maybe I will just rob the local sperm bank.

August 27th
 

I had someone suggest that I change my web profile from female to male. I can GUARANTEE you that WON'T be happening.

He seems to think that gender is what is between our legs, boy, are you in for a rude surprise.

I tried straightening him out some, I don't know if my point got through or not, I guess we will see.

ONCE AGAIN PEOPLE, IT IS NOT MY FAULT THAT I WAS BORN WITH A BIRTH DEFECT.



IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT - WARNING FOR ALL OF THE LADIES OUT THERE, GG, TG AND OTHERWISE

I received this email from a "loving and tolerant christian nutjob" today, and people wonder why I hate religious idiots.

save the planet, BAN religion.

I have reported this lunatic to the fbi, the pennsylvania state police, the us district attorney's office and the yahoo account team.

This is mark smith's message to me:

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NO asshole that is GOD definition of gender not the government and if I see a male in a bikini i'll want to shoot him. You are fucked up in your head and if I ever see you I will tell you that. You dont have a birth defect between your leg its between in your head asshole. again YOU ARE FUCKED UP

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I have also included this lunatic's pic, so you girls out there know to be on the lookout for this buffoon.

his yahoo profile is this: http://profiles.yahoo.com/u/ONY5T3YTETBCDMTTYAAJWGWOPY

his yahoo/messenger id is this: tankman3650



August 29th
 

First, I want to say a BIG THANK YOU to Oppressive Corporation. I am now making over $1600 a paycheck (EVERY 2 WEEKS) MORE than I was making at oppressive corporation. (and that is NET PAY, after the taxes are already taken out)

Thank goodness I am NOT working at that toxic hell hole called Regressive insurance anymore. The MANAGEMENT IDIOTS and HR GOONS at regressive corporation wouldn't know what it is like to be "progressive" if it bit them in the ass.

 

For fun news, I am going to club 313 tonight in Manchster, NH. Last week I was there in my stripper outfit and I had a wonderful time. Tonight I think I will do schoolgirl.

CLUB 313

Take care all, and love you, from one of the hottest tgirls on the planet.



September 4th
 

I have got to be one of the most fortunate tgirls on the planet, I have a wonderful family, many great friends, wonderful co-workers, etc. I am extremely fortunate that I have such a wonderful group of people to support me. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart to each and every one of you.

I have my bikini packed and I am off for a weekend of boating, camping, flat out fun, and just all around enjoying life. I also plan to be drinking lots of sperm this weekend as I have been missing out lately. I am a thirsty little whore.

I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday weekend. Love to all of you, Bobbie Jo

Bobbie Jo, hot, sexy, and very playful tgirl



September 8th
 

What A great time I had this past weekend. I went camping with the love of my life (Rob) and I had a great time.

Friday night, we went to the adult video store and Rob got me a vibrating butt plug, now I have to say that was freaking awesome. I loved it.

Saturday morning (2 amish), we were in his parents hot tub, me in my bikini, and I gave him a blowjob and drank a delicious load of sperm down my throat. Yummy !

Sunday morning, I got fucked but good, and ended up with another load of sperm in my tushy, yea ! My panties were a little soaked, lol.

I almost killed myself climbing out of the boat, but other than that I had a great time. Probably if we had been videotaping that, I might have made it on America's Funniest videos for the $10,000 prize. I was in the boat, went to climb out, and fell backwards over the edge, hurting my back slightly, (so pole dancing may be out for a few days this week), got a bruise on my back, and scraped some skin off my foot and hand. Other than that, I am alive and kicking.

Anyway, after my fall, and regaining my composure, (and what was left of my pride), we went swimming.

We had corn on the cob, watermelon, cantelope (hmmm, I love cantelopes).

What a great weekend, I can't wait for another one like that.

Well, back to work for now. (at a real company, obviously not oppressive insurance)

 

 

 

 

 



September 9th
  Got notice from credit card company, (the one that I had been keeping for emergency purposes).

They want to raise my rate to 25%, well guess what this girl said, I said an impromptu FUCK YOU, and take your card and shove it up your ass. I CLOSED THE ACCOUNT. FUCK THE DAMN BANKS, I CAN GET A BETTER INTEREST RATE FROM THE MAFIA.

sorry bank idiots, but you will NOT be RIPPING OFF THIS GIRL ANYMORE. I HAVE HAD IT WITH YOU BUNCH OF FUCKING BUFFOONS. SAVE AMERICA, GET RID OF ALL OF THE DAMN BANKS.

On another note, my daughter's birthday is coming up soon, I wonder if her lunatic mother will let me be there too. Actually, I am somewhat surprised that the bitch hasn't contacted me looking for a handout, but maybe she finally decided to get up off of her FAT, LAZY ASS, and get a damn job.



September 11th
  Isn't this special, I sent a birthday package to my daughter and it came back "REFUSED". I blame myself, I guess I should have been a little more specific in the addressing. I should have said: To my wonderful daughter SASHA, and NOT her lunatic nutjob "christian" mother.

September 15th
 

I went to club313 saturday night and I had a great time as usual. I met another girl there, and we chatted and had a wonderful time talking about our experiences.

well, dumbass here managed to hurt my pinkie but good. I am not sure if I will lose the nail or not, but I guess I will see. I was trying to move my suitcase, and my fingernail got caught somehow, it didn't tear the nail, but did pull it away from the skin, and it started bleeding.

. In other news, I will be in Warren, Ohio at the Funky Skunk nightclub for Girls Night Out on Saturday, Sept. the 19th



September 16th
  I will be packing tonight getting ready to fly to Cleveland, Ohio friday night, for the weekend.

This slut will be at GNO saturday night, Warren, OH, at the Funky Skunk at 9:00 p.m. Shall we do a bukkake video while I am there? Question of the day--How many people can we get cumming on my face at one time???

Now I LOVE this video--> I am jealous, can I please be the cumwhore in a video like this one?

http://www.spankwire.com/Unknown-Girl-100-Cumshots-In-Mouth/video129731/



September 21st

Friday night the 18th, Michelle and I went to Bottoms UP, and of course anytime there's a stripper pole nearby, this slut will be on it pretty quickly. I told my stripper pole I was sorry for being away so long, but I'll do better in the future.

I had a FANTASTIC time at Girls Night Out in Warren, Ohio on saturday night, the 19th of September. I hooked up with a lot of my friends, chatted, danced my tushy off, and partied until the wee hours of the morning (think I got to bed around 4 am or so)

YEA, I FOUND MY NEXT PAIR OF SHOES, and they are on sale too: http://themissionboutique.com/Ellie-X-Juliet-Mega-Platform-Heels.html



September 23rd
 

I added Calpernia's link to my Internet links page. She is truly a very remarkable lady, and one of my heroes. I have a huge amount of respect for this wonderful lady.

http://www.stoppingthehate.com/CalperniaAddams.htm

Tonight, I went to Players, a bar about 35 minutes away from me, and I had a very nice time. Guess what, THEY HAVE A "DANCE" POLE there. I know where this girl will be hanging out a lot from now on. I didn't know they had a "DANCE" pole, otherwise I would have worn something other than a dress. However, my next trip there, I will be in my "DANCE" outfit. Watch out world, Bobbie Jo is on the prowl.



September 24th
 

Gee, I sure am a popular little whore. Then again, maybe it's just the concept of fresh meat, lol.

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I am so very happy that I found a place not far away with a "DANCE POLE", YEA !

Now there is a nudie bar right up the road from my DANCE POLE bar too, but I'm not sure how they would feel about a nude tgirl, especially one that hasn't been through SRS yet, probably would not work.

Bobbie Jo, cute, hot and sexy 51 year old tgirl, although I've heard through the grapevine some rumor that she's a bit of a slut (but that's probably just a rumor)



September 26th
 

September 26th is my daughter's birthday. This is the first time in 9 years that I will be unable to be with my daughter on her birthday. Why you ask? Well, simple, because her mother is a raving, psychotic lunatic "christian" bitch that won't let me be near my daughter because of, oh the horrors, "I am a transgendered female".

So, if you see me out and about this weekend, and I start crying uncontrollably, well, it's nothing personal, I just miss my little girl, and am thinking about her a lot. I can only imagine the lies that her lunatic psycho bitch of a jackass "christian" mother is telling my daughter about me.

ANYWAY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY WONDERFUL AND VERY BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER SASHA DENISE JUSTICE

 

 



SO-CALLED "christian" kathy key
 

Hey guys,

1. Do you want to be treated like trash?

2. want to deal with a nutcase "christian" lunatic?

3. want to see your bank account emptied and your credit card maxed out?

4. Do you like pyschopathic nutcases?

Well, if you answered yes to any of the questions above, then I have the perfect woman for you.

Just contact this psycho bitch nutcase on yahoo. http://profiles.yahoo.com/psg1488

(oh, and fyi, don't be fooled by the fact that kathy might suck your cock a few times, that's just to trick you until you're paying for everything for her).

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That's right miss bitch key, MY name is: BOBBIE JO JUSTICE, AND I AM TIRED OF BEING TREATED LIKE GARBAGE        by so-called "christians".

The gloves are now off honey, you want a catfight dear, well, you have one.

I HAVE HAD ENOUGH.

 



September 29th
  I think I might hit Players Nightclub tomorrow night and go play on the 'DANCE POLE" again. I'm going to see if my schedule allows.

October 3rd
 

In Columbus, OH for the weekend, for my boyfriend's open house party.

I love giving blowjobs. I really do hope that I am able to be the cumwhore in a bukkake video one day soon. I would love to have a bunch of guys fucking my mouth and jacking off all over my face.



DARN IT !
 

Looks like I won't be getting fucked in the mouth until I get to the dentist and get him to recement my crown, which came out this weekend.

DAMN IT, oh well, at least I drank one load of sperm Friday night, and drank two more loads of sperm on Sunday, so that should hold me over for a few minutes anyway.



October 4th
 

Leaving the airport, as I pulled up to the booth to pay my parking bill, the man behind the counter said, "So, have you been taking good care of my car?". Without missing a beat, I said, "Yes, and it drives very nicely too".

He replied, "and what a pretty girl is driving the car as well".

What an angel, I said "thank you dear", paid the bill and went on my way.

I certainly am glad that I didn't listen to the naysayers that said I'd never pass for a GG. No one even gives me a second glance anymore when I use the ladies room, etc.

Bobbie Jo, cute, sexy, and passable tgirl.



October 5th
 

well, I have the dentist appointment set for Wednesday to recement the crown, so yea, I can be sucking cock again very soon.

Thank goodness, if I go more than a few days without a cock down my throat, this girl starts getting antsy.



October 7th
  Well, one crown recemented, now I need to get the other two crowns fixed. That's just going to have to wait until next week as I do not have the money right now to do that.

October 8th
  Well, my second crown and the post that WAS holding it in BOTH fell out today, so that is definitely not a good thing.

I can also tell that my third crown is loose as well. Hope I am still able to be fucked in the mouth after all this. Oh well, I guess we will see what the dentist says on Wednesday.



October 12th
  I went to cash my paycheck today, and the idiotic banks were closed. I guess it must be Wet Sneaker Day or something like that.

Okay, so I have been told by my future mother-in-law that I need to get right on producing babies. Hmmm, yea, I'll get right on that. Apparently she wants to hear the pitter patter of little feet, and my offer to leave the cat at her house for a couple of weeks didn't meet her request



October 13th #1
  Today is my dad's birthday. He lost his battle with cancer in November of 2000. I can not believe that it has been 9 years since he has been gone.

October 13th #2
 

RANT MODE ON

Now I remember why I closed out all my bank accounts previously. This idiotic tgirl made a mistake about a month ago and opened up a bank account with Citizens Bank.

I have a check I have been trying to get cashed for two days, it is a bank of america payroll check

I took off early yesterday, around 4:00 to go get my check cashed at sham of america, er, I mean bank of america. The buffoons were closed (as was every other damn bank). I guess it was wet sneaker day or something like that.

Today I take off again, 4:15 to once again try and get my check cashed, so I can pay a few things like the rent and to pay for my cat being in the kennel

The bank of america buffoons close at 4:00. FUCKING GREAT

So I go down to citizens where I have a checking and savings account, to get my check cashed. They have to put a hold on the check. WHAT THE FUCKING HELL????????. This is a BANK CHECK you fucking idiots, this is not a personal check, THIS IS A BANK CHECK YOU IDIOTIC BUFFOONS, what the fuck, don't you goddamn banks trust each other to pay the bills? I got disgusted, threw my id at the guy across the counter and said, that's it, I've had enough of this bullshit, close both of my accounts now.

I seriously considered crashing my car through the front doors of bank of america, leaving them the check and taking $3,800 in cash.

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THIS IS FUCKING ABSURD, I JUST WANT MY MONEY

I CAN GUARANTEE YOU ONE THING RIGHT NOW, IF I EVER GET SELECTED TO BE ON A JURY FOR SOMEONE THAT JUST "ROBBED" A BANK, I WILL LET THEM GET OFF SCOTT FREE

FUCK THE GODDAMN BANKS, I HOPE THEY ALL GO UNDER

RANT MODE OFF



October 14th
  Well, it is almost official, looks like I will be moving to Columbus, Ohio at the end of October.

October 15th
  Well, isn't this special. I had a whole bunch of messages on yahoo messenger, and when I went to check them, yahoo messenger crashed and when I signed back in, all of the messages were gone.

Thanks a lot yahoo

So if you sent me a message via yahoo messenger over the last couple of days and wondered why I didn't respond, it's because I never got your message, you will have to resend it



October 18th
 

 

What a busy weekend, first, on saturday morning I went to see a transsexual friend of mine (Cameron)  in Cape Cod. She is just starting her transition, so I am trying to help her in any way that I can. She is a wonderful lady. Then saturday night, I drove to manchester, new hampshire for the Sisters of manchester party. Then, I left there after the party, and drove back to cape cod, spent the night in a hotel, then drove to Staten Island, NY Sunday morning/afternoon to meet a great lady that I have been trying to see for a couple of years, Mistress Caitlin.

I am going to try and catch up on some rest tonight.

With each step we take, it becomes easier, not only for us, but for the girls that will follow us



October 20th
  Friends don't let friends work @ progressive insurance.

October 21st
  Remember, I'm not anti-management, I'm anti-moron.

I think I am going to PLAYERS club tonight and play on the stripper, oopsie, I mean DANCE pole, since it is now down to my last 7 days in New Hampshire.



October 22nd
  It has been ENTIRELY too long since I have had a cock down my throat. I hope to be sucking cock and drinking sperm again soon. I NEED PROTEIN.

October 24th
  I am in Cleveland today, heading to the URNA party in Columbus tonight. I had a laser hair removal session today. I also checked with the lady about removing my pubic hair in preparation for my future SRS.

Of course, I still have a lot of other work to do for SRS yet, need financing for it, I also need to discuss the pros and cons with my family, my boyfriend, my friends, etc. The surgery does not come without risks, etc., but if I can at least get the area zapped clean of hair beforehand, that will be a good start. I gave the lady the printout that was on Dr. Marci Bowers website of what area you should get rid of hair, etc. My first session for getting rid of the pubic hair is on November 14th.



October 25th
  Today was a GREAT day, I sucked cock, drank sperm, and got fucked this morning. That ought to hold me for a few minutes.

I leave Columbus today, heading back to Manchester, NH for three more days, then I am off to Cleveland on the 28th, and leave for Columbus on the 29th to start my new job at Nationwide insurance on Friday the 30th.

Yesterday I learned that my beautician, Barb will be leaving the cleveland area to go to Charleston, SC. I will miss her, she has not only done a wonderful job with my hair and makeup, she has also been very nice to me, and has been a good friend as well. I will miss Barb a great deal. I think I am going to have to pay a visit to Charleston, SC to get my hair and makeup done

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October 27th
  I think I have made my mind up. I am not going to do anymore laser hair removal on my face. There isn't any real hair there left anyway, except for the little bit that is on my upper and lower lip, and that can be taken care of by electrolysis.

I am going to concentrate the laser hair removal on my pubic area in preparation for possible SRS one day.

I was packing up the car earlier, getting ready to head to Mentor, Ohio on Wednesday night. I will crash there for a few hours early thursday morning before continuing my journey to Columbus on Thursday afternoon / evening. It is about an 11 hour trip from Somersworth, NH to Mentor, OH.

I will be one tired pussy at work on Friday, but it should be an easy day.



October 28th
  My last day in New Hampshire. I was reflecting back what I have accomplished over the last 2 and 1/2 years, and it has been an amazing transformation. I found a "before" picture from about 3 years ago, and I look at it now, and think to myself, who was that unhappy, sad and depressed soul?

I have been through a wonderful and amazing transition the last 2 and `1/2 years, from an ugly duckling to a pretty hot chick (as people tell me anyway). I feel so much more alive and so much better about life in general. I am so much more comfortable with myself, love getting dressed up and going out. Someone asked me once if I ever saw myself "going back", and I can say loudly and proudly, NO FUCKING WAY. I never want to be that miserable ever again.

Even as recent as spring / summer of 2008, when I would use the woman's restroom, I would get a lot of "second glances", now no one even gives me a second glance anymore. I am just one of the girls, as I should have been all along

For all of you ladies still in transition, or just starting yours, I can assure you that miracles do happen. I could show you a "before" pic and a "now" pic and you would be simply amazed. I know I am. I also know that I am truly happy for the first time in my life.

Love

Bobbie Jo



November 1st
  I made it to Columbus, Oh thursday evening. My car did a little "low on oil" light which concerned me. I had them do an oil and filter change as I was leaving cleveland, before I headed for Columbus, it seems to be better now.

Friday, I had my first day at Nationwide Insurance. It was an easy day, see my work location, fill out I9 paperwork, etc. I went in at 1pm, and was out at 5pm.

Saturday, we went to a costume store, and I got a cute little cheerleader outfit, complete with pom poms. It is orange and blue, so perfect for this Florida gator. I wore it during the Florida-Georgia game yesterday afternoon, and did a couple of cute little cheers while the game was on

Saturday night, we went to a halloween party, and I wore my pink pussycat costume. I loved it, bought it a couple of weeks ago, at the Mission Boutique in Eastlake, OH. I received several compliments on it, took a few pictures which I will be posting on the website later today.

Today (Sunday), I got fucked good this morning, and drank a nice tasty sperm protein drink. Hmm, Yummy. I am going to finish unpacking the car, do some wash, etc. It will be a just take it easy day. Tomorrow at work I am in orientation all day long, so it will be an easy day tomorrow too. I think I will sign up for their fitness center, see if I can get into an aerobics class or something like that, I guess we will get a tour of the fitness center tomorrow as part of orientation.



November 3rd
  Monday and Tuesday went okay at work. I signed up for the fitness center, I need to lose a few pounds. I am hoping to get a bicycle for christmas, if not before. I really do want a bicycle, very much.

I still haven't found my way around all the buildings yet, but I am getting there, I will be the girl with the "help, little girl is lost" look on her face

I will be in Mentor on 11/7, 11/14 and 11/21. I have an electrolysis appt on 11/7 and 11/21, and a laser hair removal session on 11/14 on my pubic hair in preparation for future SRS.



November 4th
This is a pic of me and my sweetheart, Rob. I care for him a whole lot. This was a pic from May 2009.

November 5th
  why are some "supposed christians" so full of hate and intolerance?

I'll have a lot more respect for christianity when I see christians starting to actually act christ-like.

I live my life to make myself happy. If other people don't like how I live my life, they can drop dead.

Off to mentor this coming weekend, and another electrolysis treatment.



November 8th
  Saturday, I went to a benefit for the family of a tgirl that was recently killed in a motorcycle crash. She had no life insurance. I helped out some, I wish I could do more. If I ever win the big lottery jackpot, there's going to be a couple of people that will not have to worry about money ever again.

I got emotional and cried some during the event, but eventually pulled myself back together. I even danced to a song or two that the DJ was playing. Rob took some pictures which we will have to upload



November 9th
 

SAVE AMERICA, BAN RELIGION. I'm sorry, but I hate nuts like this. These lunatics are a fine example of why we should ban the worship of all sky fairies on this planet.

LUNATIC PREACHERS (but I repeat myself)



November 11th
  Well, this Saturday I start undergoing laser hair removal treatments on my private area in preparation for future SRS. Little did I know when I started down this road in 2007 where I would end up.

I am proud to say that I couldn't be happier. I should have been born a girl, and I certainly shouldn't have waited this long to fulfill my destiny. However, after 49 years on this planet, I finally started living my life as the gender I should have been born in all along.

The last 2 years of my life have been absolutely wonderful, and I wouldn't trade it for the world, even though I did become unemployed for a time along the way, and my lunatic ex took my daughter (who I love and care about very much) away from me.

I have met so many wonderful people who have helped me, encouraged me, supported me, and been there for me. It has been fantastic. I am very lucky to have so many people that care about me. My friends have been wonderful, and I can not say enough good things about my sister. Thank you Jenn, from the bottom of my heart.

In April of 2008, (only a month after going full time), I met a wonderful man, Rob, he has treated me like a queen and been there for me every step of the way.

I also owe a big thank you to Michelle as well, who has been a great friend through good times and bad.

I am happy, excited and a little nervous thinking about saturday all at the same time.

Bobbie Jo



November 14th
  My boyfriend Rob found a new charger for my cell phone. Yea, thank you so much dear. Of course, when I got to the house in Mentor, there I found the other one too. It sometimes gets a little frustrating having things in two places, and transporting stuff back and forth.

In 4 hours, I head over for laser hair removal session on my private area in prep for SRS. I am nervous and excited, as this is starting the final stage to become the woman I should have been all along. I have had a wonderful journey to finally get to this point in my life, I just wish that I hadn't waited so long to finally become truly happy.

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I am back from laser hair removal on my private area. It didn't hurt as much as I was expecting. Today marks the start of the final stage in my transition, I am happy and excited knowing that one day I will truly be the woman I was meant to be all along.



November 15th
 

If I am ever able to afford my surgery, this is the lady that I want to do it.

I am thinking of Dr. Marci Bowers for my SRS surgery, I checked the info on her website, in fact, I printed off those pages and gave it to my lady that does the hair removal.
 
 
 
 


November 16th
 


 

A Mother's story

 

Early on, l knew my son Michael was different. While my three other sons begged me to buy them G.I. Joe figurines and were obsessed with football, Michael preferred playing with My Little Pony and taking tap dance lessons.

In Prince Georges County, Maryland where we live, we have a diverse group of friends so the idea of having a gay son didn't scare or shock us. Sure, we feared he had a hard road ahead of him - being bullied at school, getting fired from his job for being gay and facing the possibility that he may never be able to be legally married - but with our love, we knew he was going to be okay.

When Michael turned 16, he told us that he wasn't a gay man. Instead, he was a transgender woman named Michelle who had been dressing as a woman when he left the house. At that point, my husband and I both realized that this was a big deal. My son was now my daughter.

Even though I am an activist and somewhat liberal, I didn't know what being transgender meant. After doing some serious soul searching, my husband and I concluded that our child needed us. Unlike too many of her friends whose parents had kicked them out for being gay or transgender, we were going to open our minds even further than what we thought was possible. It was difficult. But we started going to family therapy and things were slowly getting better.

But everything changed in December 1999, the day my daughter Michelle became the target of a hate crime.

While standing in line with her friends at a club in Atlanta, Michelle was struck in the head with a metal pipe by a stranger who did not like the fact that she was a transgender woman. She fell to the ground and her skull split open.

The doctors weren't very hopeful - they didn't think she was going to make it. As she lay there unconscious, she was unrecognizable. Her head was shaved, there was a V-shaped scar down the side of her face, and she was bruised and swollen.

For weeks, my family, my friends and my minister prayed by her bedside, not confident that we would ever hear her voice again. When she finally woke up, we were ecstatic. But we were realistic that a full recovery was miles away. Michelle had temporary amnesia and didn't even remember me. One day, I asked her if she knew who I was and she said, "No, but you seem like a really nice lady."

Those moments made my heart break, but my daughter was alive and that's all that mattered.

After her attack and full recovery, I reached out to the Gay, Transgender, Lesbian and Bisexual National Hotline for support and was referred to the Sexual Minority Youth Alliance League. They offered me educational workshops about the transgender community and they introduced me to other women like Michelle. Most important, they encouraged me to bond with Michelle on a mother-daughter level. So we started shopping for clothes and makeup together, getting our nails done and hanging out at home more. Now, Michelle feels more comfortable with me and vice versa -she even puts pressure on me to dress more fashionable when going out.

I look at her and I see someone amazing - someone fabulous.

I was fully aware of the homophobia that haunts our community. However, it was not until my child was beaten and left for dead did I ever truly believe that having the courage to be true to oneself could result in being killed. Yet, Michelle's story is not rare. Unfortunately, for many trans women living in the U.S., violence and death are a way of life, especially those who are African American. According to the Human Rights Campaign, 1 in 12 transgender Americans faces the chance of being murdered; while the average person has about a one in 18,000 chance.

From one parent to another, more work needs to be done to protect our children regardless of their sexual orientation and gender identity. We are all products of God and deserve to live, be loved and have peace of mind



November 17th
  Another step towards becoming the woman I should have been all along, I am going to start seeing a therapist in the next week or so. This is so I can eventually get my letter for SRS. I need to get the paperwork filled out that she sent me before my appointment.

November 18th
  My first appointment with a therapist is Tuesday, November 24th at 6:00 p.m. I am going to see Meral Crane in Columbus.

November 20th - Transgender Day of Remembrance
  Today is the Transgender Day of Remembrance, a day on which we take a moment to reflect on the trans people who have been murdered this year, and those murdered in years past...

November 22nd
  If I ever lose (or just flat out decide to quit) an IT job again, I am going to say FUCK IT, go into massage and exotic dancing full time. I am so much happier doing massage and exotic dancing. It just feels so natural to me, and feels like something I should have gotten into years ago. I may do some consulting on ths side, because I did like doing consulting for Liberty Mutual, but that would be about it as far as other work. At least as a consultant, you don't get bothered with the usual management stupidity. Where do they find some of these cretins? I can see the help wanted ad for a manager position now. Must read something like this. Wanted: manager, must be a complete fucking moron with no common sense whatsoever.

I am not sure this nationwide thing is going to work out, but I will give it some time yet. It's still early. I just don't like a few signs I am seeing, unfortunately reminds me why I absolutely despise corporate america.



November 23rd
  Tonight, I am filling out the last of my paperwork for my appointment with the therapist Tuesday evening.

November 24th
  I had my first therapy appointment with Meral Crane today. She is a wonderful lady and I highly recommend her. I look forward to receiving my SRS letter from her in 2010.

I am going to Florida this weekend for Thanksgiving. I have my next appointment with Meral Crane on December 15th.

Now I need to work on getting funds together for SRS, so that one day I can become the woman I should have been all along.



November 27th
  Wow, I just hit 10,000 hits on my web page. Amazing, Thanks to each and every one of you. Bobbie Jo - I am the best cocksucker in the eastern united states. If there's anything you want to see that isn't on my website yet, then please send me an email: goldshow@yahoo.com

November 28th
  I am spending Thanksgiving with my family. I played Scrabble with my sister yesterday and I am going to go over my sister's again today. We are going to watch the Florida Gators play Florida State this afternoon.

December 2nd
  I had a minor physical today to check my cholesterol level and my BMI. I filled out the paperwork and the nurse said, "Oh honey, you forgot to fill out gender", she said "well, you're obviously female", and she checked the female box. Only my gynecologist and I (and a few close friends) know for sure.

My BMI is 24, which is good, my blood pressure is 116/78 (again pretty decent).

I will get my cholesteroal level results in a couple of days.

Bobbie Jo, a truly happy girl since fall of 2007.



December 3rd
  I was very upset earlier, I did not know where my watch and my beautiful butterfly ring were at. However, two hours of tearing the house apart later, I finally found them, thank goodness. I am now packing the suitcase to head to cleveland this weekend.

December 5th
  I am unable to see the Florida - Alabama SEC championship game at the house. Oh well, if the gators win, I hope someone gets me a dvd of it for christmas.

December 6th
  well great, now I have lost my cell phone. great, just great. I don't know what to do with the phone contacts that I had. I don't remember several of the numbers. Hopefully someone finds it and turns it in.

December 7th
  Yea, thank goodness. Michelle found my cell phone. Thank you so much my dear, you have truly been there many times for me in a time of need. I owe you dinner this coming weekend. Thank you again dear, your friendship means a lot to me.

I got my health numbers today, some are okay, a few others I need to work on.

My total cholesterol: 198 (okay, but want to get this down a little)

ldl 133 (borderline high, I need to work on this)

glucose 93

Triglycerides 53 (very good)

hdl cholesterol 54 (need to come down slightly)



December 9th
  So I find out today that I am supposed to be giving a presentation to senior management tomorrow. Plus I am already taking a class this week (monday through thursday). Well gee, mighty white of them to give me some notice about this presentation. I expressed my displeasure with the lack of notice in no uncertain terms. The more I see this kind of nonsense, the more fed up I get with the horseshit in corporate america. Save america, get rid of a management moron today.

Seriously thinking about doing massage and exotic dancing full time and getting the fuck out of computers. Except for missing my friends, I was actually pretty happy working as a consultant at Liberty Mutual in Portsmouth, NH.

I would be so much happier if i was able to do exotic dancing and massage full time. I am going to consider my options this weekend. I may even start working on my campain for president of the united states in 2012, yea, I think it's time we had a tgirl for president, someone with common sense who won't sell out the american people to the oil companies, banks, and other corporate america idiots. I already have the perfect campaign slogan - THE BULLSHIT STOPS NOW



December 10th
  Packing, getting ready to head to Cleveland after work on Friday.

I should have transitioned in my teens, then I could have been a stripper and would be truly living my dream right now. Massage and exotic dancing - my dream jobs.



December 13th
  Well, I haven't been getting many requests for massage lately. I guess I will chalk it up to the holidays and people are busy getting ready for christmas.

However, I think that my ultimate career choice, one which I would probably be most happy with is as a call girl. That is one that I am best suited for, after all, my initials are BJ for a reason.

.

Bobbie Jo, hot, cute, sexy, passable tgirl (and much more feminine than most GGs)



December 14th
  I had another session with my therapist tonight. She complimented me on my feminine voice and she asked me how I accomplished it. She also gave me the name of a beautician here in Columbus. My next appointment is on January 11th.

December 16th
  Oh yes, bunch of guys coming on my face, I would love it. I like this video. http://www.xhamster.com/movies/136643/bukkake_mix_4.html

December 17th
 

When you see a transgender woman, you're looking at one
of the most beautiful women in the world.
You're looking at a lady who posseses the true essence
of a woman.
Many men desire her, but dare not cross that line that
can open not only the eyes, but the heart, the soul,,,
and dare I say the truth.
For every man that seeks a woman seeks one that not only
knows his true nature, but also understands the core of
who and what he is.
A transwoman is just such a woman, for she herself was there
once, she has lived a portion of her life as a male, and she
has never forgotten what drives a man.
This Transgendered Lady knows you and it scares you.
It frightens every notion and understanding you had of
your sexual being.
Your very core is shakened.
She understands your desires and can satisfy you like no
other woman.
She is the future and the future is now.
Her vulnerability is her strength.
To be vulnerable as a transgendered lady, she must
endure and face ridicule from those around her.
She must gather strength from within and without to
fullfill the feminine nature she holds in order
to do what many biological women suppress.
She in essence is more female and therefore more
desirable because of these qualities.
This is the dilemna that men face.
The allure of meeting and knowing such a creature can for
some men be an exhilerating experience.
They discover a beauty that was hidden from them for
most of their lives.
For she knows you,, she knows your wants your needs
because she was there and never forgot.
She can move you by her looks.
Her voice transmits and hits your very core like a missing puzzle.
Her legs give her strength, her hips delite your senses.
Her soft nature invites you in to savour her delicious treats.
Her hardness lets you know the arousal to be real.
Two opposites, the hard and the soft are as one.
She allows you to be a man in ways you never knew
existed,, for she knows you.
She can touch you in ways that tell you and show the
real essence of your manhood,, for she knows you.
Her nature brings out the hidden man inside of you, the
power to really feel something you always wanted but
never received from a biological woman.
She allows herself to be vulnerable because she never
forgot.
To be vulnerable is strength, and to give is to be strong.
A transwoman will fulfill you, and encourage the man in you to
show through.
She takes you into that warm place in her soul.
She opens up herself and allows you to enter, to feel her
from within.
You find yourself wanting her.
You desire to know her.
And in doing so, you discover someone who knows and understands
you better than you do yourself.
You find in her a true partner who can understand and share that
which no other female ever could.



 

Enter into Heaven A priest, a minister and a transsexual woman were standing at the pearly gate in front of St. Peter. First the minister spoke up "I fed the hungry, clothed the poor, and spread the word of God throughout the land". St. Peter said unto him "you have done well on earth, but you have sinned against your brother. You shall spend the next 7 year in purgatory to atone for those sins you did commit then you shall enter heaven".

The priest spoke next. "I have done as my brother the minister has, and I have lived a life of sacrifice, humility and chastity. I have served only God, kept only God's laws and I offer my unworthiness to God now". St. Peter reviewed his notes and spoke unto the priest. "You have indeed lived a pious life and yet you too, have sinned, "You shall only have to spend one year in purgatory to atone for your sins".

Next St. Peter turned to the transsexual and spoke softly, "Go in my dear they are waiting for you". The minister and the priest both protested to St. Peter. "Why in all our piety have we been condemned to purgatory when that creature against whom we preached and whom we chastised, merely passes into heaven?' St. Peter simply glared at the two and said, "Boys, thanks to you and the people like you she has already been through hell".



December 20th
  Hopefully I won't have to be in the hospital for christmas. I will never again try to break up a dog and cat fight. I ended up getting the worst of it. I went to the emergency clinic last night and was given a tetanus shot and a prescription to try and get rid of this infection from the cat bite.

After I got out of the emergency clinic last night, we stopped over at Girls Night Out in warren for a few minutes, but it was really just to say Hi/bye. I was not feeling up to being there for very long, my hand was just bothering me too much. I went back to the house, threw on my bikini and jumped in the hot tub to soak my hand. It feels a lot better today, a fair amount of the redness is gone, it is still swollen, but not as bad as yesterday. Hopefully it will improve even more tonight. I really don't want to have to be in the hospital for christmas, but they told me if its not looking / feeling a lot better by Monday afternoon, then I will be admitted into the hospital to get pumped full of antibiotics.



December 21st
  Well, 14 is a good start, I'd love to have 50 guys (or shemales, or combination thereof) shooting their cum all over my face, followed by all 50 of them peeing on my face and tits.

Bukkake with 14 shemales

Okay guys, shemales, etc. sign up today to cover me in cum and pee. Send me an email: goldshow@yahoo.com



  don't like gay marriage ? fine, then don't get one and SHUT THE FU** UP.

http://politicalticker.blogs.cnn.com/2009/12/07/new-fight-in-gay-marriage-battle/

I cannot believe we still live in the stone ages. If people of the same sex want to marry, let them. Leave them alone. If this lifestyle does not float your boat, fine but don't throw your creepy morals in the game. I used to be a regular church goer but these religious creeps have changed my perspective. Preach love and all they emit is hate. Organized religion sucks.

Denying gay people the opportunity to marry the person they were meant to be with makes a mockery of everything this country stands for. We either have 'liberty and justice for ALL' or we don't. We either believe all men were created equal and that they are endowed by their creator with certain unalienable rights, that among them are life, liberty, and the persuit of happiness' or we don't. We either have equal protection under the law for all citizens or we don't. It's time to move beyond the last socially acceptable bigotry and truly live up to what we claim this country is about.



December 24th
  I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas. It will be the first christmas without being near my daughter, but I will be thinking of her every minute, and hope she can one day get away from that lunatic nutcase so-called "christian" mother of hers. I hope Sasha has a wonderful christmas.

December 28th
 

My goals for 2010

1. get my two letters for SRS

2. get my funds together for SRS in 2011

3. finish the electrolysis on my facial area

4. finish the laser hair removal on my private area in prep for SRS

5. Lose 15 pounds

6. I would love to be in a bukkake porn movie with guys coming all over my face

7. I would like to get a job as an exotic dancer

8. Continue doing massage on the weekends

9. I want to do a wedding photo shoot, with me as the bride. That is one of my dreams.

Finally, my hope for the world is that the "tolerant loving" christians and the "peaceful" muslims quit murdering each other and also that the "tolerant, loving christians" quit treating gay, lesbian, bisexual and transgender people like trash and start respecting and accepting us for who we are.

Bobbie Jo

Email goldshow@yahoo.com

www.tgirlbobbiejo.com

 



December 29th
  I think that it is about time that I put a bukkake sign up sheet up on my website. Hopefully I can be the cocksucking whore in a bukkake scene in 2010.

December 30th
 

Nice ones, I would love to have a bunch of guys jacking off all over my face and in my mouth. I hope to arrange a bukkake in 2010. Who wants to volunteer to paint my face with their cum?

JACK OFF ON MY FACE AND IN MY MOUTH

CUM ON MY FACE

BUCKETS OF CUM

PLEASE SHOOT YOUR SPERM ON MY FACE



December 31st
  HAPPY NEW YEAR

I donated blood today, so the question of the day is, will the woman that gets my blood turn into a cum craving, cock sucking whore?????



January 3rd, 2010
 

Happy New Year everyone.

I recently joined a fitness center, and have started working out. I am a member of their 10K A day program, which encourages people to walk the weight off.

I also have an exercise machine at home, the ProForm Carb Counter . Pro Form Carb Counter

My goal is to lose 15-20 pounds so I can be ready for bikini season.

I am hoping to have enough money to have my SRS in the spring (or summer) of 2011.  I know my SRS surgeon has about a 9-12 month backlog of surgeries, so this summer, I will be arranging my surgery date for 2011.

May all your hopes and dreams come true in 2010. I am looking forward to 2011 and the fulfilling of my dream of SRS.

Bobbie Jo



January 7th
  i will be heading to cleveland on Friday afternoon. I have another laser hair removal session on my private area scheduled for Saturday. I thought about the money I spent on laser hair removal, electrolsysis, hormones, etc. and so far I am up to about $10,000. Youch, and that isn't even including clothes, makeup, or beauty parlor appointments. My SRS is probably going to be about $22,000 and I have started saving for it, hopefully I reach my goal by 2011.

I am ready for SRS and to be rid of this stupid feminine boy part. It has caused me nothing but grief.

Sometimes I wonder if I have Klinefelter's syndrome. I think I am going to get tested for this in 2010.



January 11th
  Tonight my therapist told me that in March she would be more than happy to write me the letter approving me for SRS. YEA, I am very happy !!!!!!!!!!

January 13th
  I joined the 10k a day program at work, (10,000 steps a day) so I can lose some weight. I did 5,300 steps yesterday, today I am at 8,322.

  I think this job is going to be the death of me, good god almighty. A little common sense would be a good change. I defintely understand why they are on their (at least) 2nd project manager and (at least) third team lead on this particular project.

I'd rather be a call girl, stripper, anything else. I'm reminding myself every minute of the day that I am saving up for my SRS. Is there a rich guy out there that wouldn't mind parting with $20,000 for a cute tgirl?



January 15th
  In Cleveland this weekend, went to beauty parlor today, am going back there in a couple of weeks to get the complete treatment, hair, manicure, pedicure, makeup, facial (no, not that kind guys, lol, I leave that kind up to you guys to take care of on me)

January 16th
  I will probably head over to Warren for GNO about 3 pm or so today. I plan to party my ass off this weekend, hell, blowjobs on the dance floor from BJ, the tgirl whore.

I am living proof that an ugly duckling can be transformed into a cute, sexy swan.

The lady doing my electrolysis said that pretty soon we need to cut the hour appointments down to a 1/2 hour because there's not much hair left to work on. YEA, almost done with this !



January 17th
  Some people are so miserable that they want everyone else to be as miserable as they are.

Live your life as YOU want to, and fuck what everyone else thinks. Only YOU can make yourself happy.



I LOVE MY LIFE
  I love my life. Whether I am playing on the stripper pole, dancing on the stage topless at a stripclub, spanking a slave's butt while in my mistress outfit, giving massages, or being a cocksucking slut, I enjoy my life to the fullest no matter what I do.

I do not (nor will I ever again) live my life as someone else wants me to. I live my life as I WANT TO.



January 18th
  Something has happened over the weekend which has left me with a broken heart and has me very sad.

I was hoping (beyond hope) that I would wake up last night, and her car would be in the driveway, with all of her belongings. That would have made my night.

She has been in an emotionally abusive relationship for awhile, her lunatic nutcase spouse does not appreciate her and also treats her like shit, and I keep wanting to go over there, make her pack her bags and get her away from that lunatic nutjob spouse of hers. It takes every ounce of patience I can muster to not go over to her house and drag her away from that lunatic.

Ultimately I realize however, that is not my decision to make. It is hers. She has to want to get out of there. As much as I want to, I can not force that decision.

Whatever she decides, I wish her the best and hope that everything works out for her. I did leave a yahoo group that she posts to regularly because it would hurt me too much to see one of her posts.

So dear, if you read this, I wish you all the best with whatever decision you make. Should you decide to leave that nut, you are more than welcome to stay at my house.

Bobbie Jo



January 19th
  Doing slightly better today, Rob took me shopping for a little while last night, and then we came home, went to bed early, he gave me a back massage, and then he held me, and we fell asleep in each others arms.

That was exactly what I needed.

We will also be taking more pics this weekend. My digital camera has been broken for awhile now, but this weekend we are going to take some pics of me with a different camera, and maybe some pics of my tgirl friend, Chucki, if she is up for it. She is very cute, she easily puts me to shame. She is a wonderful girl, very attractive, I wish I had her body and face. So either late this weekend, or early next week, check my website for some new pics.



January 21st
  I am feeling better, plus I am looking forward to the weekend. I am going to the beauty parlor tomorrow morning, and then off to the URNOTALONE party tomorrow night.

January 22md
  I tried on my bikini tonight. It doesn't look too bad. Those workouts I have been doing at the fitness center are starting to pay off. I'm starting to get back in reasonable shape again. I still have some work to do before bikini season gets here. I am walking, also doing the exercise bicycle, as well as the "cross country ski" exercise machine equivalent.

I want to get my body back in shape for bikini season. Watch out guys, this tgirl is on the prowl, and I'm a cock-sucking, cum-drinking, ball-draining little slut. I am a thirsty little whore.



January 23rd
  i got fucked this morning, it felt good to have a nice hard cock in my tight little tgirl tushy. Then when he was ready to cum, I took his cock down my throat and drank all the delicious cum.

I am going to the URNA party tonight



January 24th
  Weekends go by entirely too fucking fast. I had a very nice time at the URNA party last night. I think we should work for 2 days and have 5 days off, but still get paid the same.

Anyway, we took a bunch of pics of me and Chucki this weekend, so will be downloading and posting those in a couple of days.

I am ready for next weekend.



January 27th
  I just came back from my first mammogram. It was extremely easy, they didn't even give that stupid M on my drivers license a second look. Hopefully in 2011, that will finally be changed to an F.

I have a lot of pics that I am in process of uploading, and they should be posted on my website today or tomorrow. Look for a new pics page soon.



January 30th
  I had another electrolysis appointment today. I am in the home stretch for my electrolysis, not much left to do. I started having electrolysis done in the fall of 2007, and we are almost done. Not much hair left to take care of. YEA! I even feel comfortable these last few months wandering around town without makeup on.

January 31st
  Tuesday I have a doctor's appointment for a physical, and I should also get the results of my mammogram too. Then after my doctor's appointment, I am heading over to my group meeting with other transgendered people.

February 1st
  Hmm, I think I should put a "contact me form" on my website. You know the type, "Contact me if you and 49 of your closest friends would like to coat my face with your hot cum and delicious pee".

Time for a cum covered tgirl bukkake



February 2nd
  My mammogram results came back today, all normal, and my physician wrote me a prescription for more estrogen and testosterone blocker

February 6th
  WANTED: Job where management isn't a bunch of dumbfucks, and I am geographically close to the people I care about. Liberty Mutual was a great place to work, only issue of concern was that it was very far away from the people that are close to me.

I am close to going back to doing massage, and escort full time. I was a lot happier doing that. I was also making fairly decent money doing that as well.

If I wasn't trying to save money for my SRS, I wouldn't be working at Nationwide right now, I'd be doing massage or working at one of the strip bars in town or something along those lines. Who knows, if this nonsense at work keeps up, maybe I will just have to forget about my dream of SRS.

Still hoping to live out my dream of getting my face covered in cum by you and 49 of your closest friends, maybe a bukkake movie with me invading the boys locker room as the plot. Hmm, now that sounds wonderful.



February 8th
  WOW. I just received an email today asking me if I was interested in working at Liberty Mutual again.

February 9th
  Snow, snow, and more snow....after going up the interstate ramp sideways, nearly getting into an accident, I turned around at the next exit and came back to the house to work from home today.

Now what do I do about the call from Liberty Mutual?

Wish I was getting my face covered in cum today.

I was on webcam a little earlier, (even got completely naked) and received a great compliment. One of the people watching me thought I looked to be about 35. Yea, that's it, I am 35. I don't think they believed me when I said I was going to be 52 in three weeks.



February 10th
  QUOTE OF THE DAY - I Dont Need Anger Management ... You Just Need To Stop Pissin Me Off !!

February 11th
  I am so very lucky to have such a wonderful support system full of many great friends and my family.

Thinking about my daughter Sssha and hoping that she is okay. I miss her.



February 12th
  I finally had enough of the nonsense at nationwide today, I am tired of being treated like trash. I called my recruiter and I said if that job at Liberty Mutual is still available, please put in my resume.

If the Liberty Mutual job is taken, then I think I am just going into escort and massage full time.



February 13th
  What a nice way to start the day. A good fucking followed by a load of cum going down my throat. Yummy !

February 14th
  I hope everyone has a Happy Valentine's Day. I hope you are able to spend today with someone you care about.

February 15th
  I guess we will find out what happens to this Portsmouth, NH job in a few days.

February 16th
  Well, looks like I am off to work at Liberty Mutual again. My recruiter called me, told me about Liberty Mutual, and asked me if I was available. I loved working there before, and add to the fact that I have been very unhappy with the way things are going at nationwide, I think that yes, I will head to Liberty Mutual. The manager respected me, and evidently liked my work.

They were actually about ready to make an offer to someone else, and when they found out from my recruiter that I was possibly available, they said they wouldn't make the offer to that person and they would bring me back instead if I wanted the position. That makes me feel greatly appreciated. Obviously they liked my work or they would not have wanted me back. All companies and managers need to treat their employees in this manner.

I will miss my boyfriend Rob a lot. He is the love of my life. I will also miss my friends that are here, but I will be a whole lot happier at work, plus I will be flying and driving back to Ohio at least once, if not twice a month, so I will be able to see everyone then. I do have some tgirl friends in NH too, so it's not like I will be up there completely alone.



February 17th
  I had my last day at Nationwide today. I was tired of being in no-win situation. I don't have an issue with nationwide as a company so much, but I do have an issue with idiotic management goons.

Monday I will be driving to New Hampshire and working at Liberty Mutual for the next several months.

Tonight I talked with my therapist and she has graciously indicated that she would be willing to do Saturday sessions. I am very thankful for her, she has been wonderful to me. My next appointment with her is on March 27th, coincidentally enough that will be my 2 year anniversary of being out full time.

I need to decide on my surgeon for SRS. I have narrowed it down to 2, well, 3. Marci Bowers, Christine Mcginn and Pierre Brassard.



February 19th
  I have the car all packed, and am getting ready to take a quick nap.

Tonight, I head to Cleveland. Saturday I will go to the Girls Night Out party at the Funky Skunk in Warren, Ohio. Sunday is probably going to be my take it easy day, maybe a movie or something.

Then Monday I will drive to New Hampshire.

Tuesday I start my job at Liberty Mutual, I loved working there before, and expect that to be the same again. Great manager, great coworkers, and great location.

Bobbie Jo



February 20th
  I am in Warren, Ohio getting ready for Girls Night Out tonight. Watch out world, this tgirl is ready to party.

February 21st
  I had a wonderful time at Girls Night Out in Warren, Ohio. We had lots of regulars there, as well as a few new girls too. That is wonderful. I was very happy to see some new girls show up.

This morning, I was awakened by a nice hard cock at the entrance to my tgirl tushy. Hmmm. I got the lube, inserted my vibrator and got myself ready for that nice cock. A few minutes later, I was getting fucked like a bitch in heat. We finished it off with him shooting his cum down my throat. Yummy, absolutely yummy.



February 22nd
  Off to New Hampshire I go. I will miss my friends here and will especially miss Rob, (and Michelle too), but I won't miss the dumbass moron of a manager at nationwide.

February 23rd
  TIRED tgirl here. I got into the hotel at about 3:30 this morning, unpacked the car a little, and crashed into bed.

Today at work consisted of getting my userid restored (all of my stuff was still out there from last fall, they just needed to resume my userid and give me a new password). After I write this, I am going home, watch a brief bit of tv and GO TO BED. Tomorrow I will actually start doing real work again, I can't wait, Liberty Mutual just feels right.



February 25th
  wet aqnd rainy here, on the bright side, I did find a place to live last night. I move in this weekend.

February 26th
  I am so much happier at work. Work is going great for me. I shouldn't have left here in the first place. Liberty Mutual is a great place to work.

I miss my friends, and watch out Rob, you better save your energy for March 27th, because when I come into town I will be expecting to be fucked. but good. I NEED SOME NICE TASTY COCK



March 1st
  I celebrate my 52nd birthday tomorrow. I'm going to snuggle up next to my teddy bear again in bed tonight.

I feel like I am in my mid 30s.

Bobbie Jo



March 2nd - my birthday
  This is the day I was born on this planet. I have received many birthday wishes from many great people. I will thank each and every one of you. If I haven't gotten to yours yet, please be patient, a lot of people sent me email.

Thank you all so much. It is nice to know people care.



March 6th
  I am doing well, hope everyone else is too.

My internet at the boarding house isn't working for me, so I have to go to kinko's to update my site. I am moving into a new place Wednesday night.

Anyway, I am much happier going to work each day, I actually don't mind going to work. I almost look forward to it.

Nationwide and Oppressive could learn something from Liberty Mutual in how to treat people.

I will be in Columbus, OH, at Club Diversity on March 27th celebrating two years of being out full time. If you are in the area, stop by. I will probably be there about 9:00 p.m.

Take care

Love,

Bobbie Jo



SRS in Montreal
 

I've been reading this blog.

SRS in Montreal

I am considering this doctor, and like what I read so far. (except for the decrease in sensitivity part, but that can happen anywhere).

SRS is an extensive surgery and shit happens.

Bobbie Jo



March 6th - #2
  I saw this elsewhere and it was true for me too. I also started transitioning at 49 years old.

"I lived 49 years trying to be good to everyone but the one person that truly matters - myself. It was time that I support HER, even if no-one else does. After all, I'm the ONLY one I know for a fact will be with me until my final day"



March 8th - An amazing three years
  It has been an amazing 3 years. It was about 3 years ago at this time that I started cross dressing on a casual basis. Little did I know then I would be at the point I am now.

I was dressed in a bridal gown when I was 9 years old (for halloween). I loved it then (didn't really understand why), but of course I had to pretend like I didn't like it. After all, boys aren't supposed to like those things. That's my issue, I WASN'T A BOY.

When I was in my 20s, I wore my wifes bra and panties some, but didn't get into anything serious.

It wasn't until age 49 when a great lady that I know wondered aloud "I wonder what you would look like as a girl".

I didn't fully understand then, but that started me down the path to truly becoming a girl.

I didn't have any girl clothes at all, I bought my first pairs of panties and my first dress online from Victoris'a secret . Amazingly enough, when they arrived, they actually fit, talk about lucky. I still have those panties from 3 years ago, which I wear on occassion, I no longer wear the dress because it was just a generic red, cheap dress, and my outfits are so much better now.

After buying my first dress, I wore it out a couple of times, then decided to buy another outfit to wear out. I put on one of my new outfits, did my makeup (oh god, what a nightmare I was back then with makeup), and went to a club.

There I met a man who said he found me attractive, and we played some later that night. I know he was just being kind because my makeup skills were atrocious back then, but it was still nice to be wanted.

That evening encouraged me to go farther. I went back to that club several more times after that, becoming a little more sure of myself each time.

I bought more panties, and stuff, and started filling out my wardrobe.

It was about this point, late summer / early fall of 2007, that I knew I had finally figured out what had been wrong with my life for the previous 49 years.

I had been living my life as a man and I WAS A WOMAN !!!!

I decided I was going to change my outer appearance to match my inner self.

I contacted a doctor that did laser hair removal and told them I wanted to get rid of the hair on my face. They asked me why, I said because I am going to become a woman. Those words made me so happy, but also anxious at the same time because I knew I had a lot of work to do to make that dream come true. I made my first appointment for the next week.

Next I contacted a lady who did electrolysis to first fix my eyebrows because they were an absolute disaster, and later to get rid of the gray hair off my face. She asked me why, and I once again said those oh so beautiful words --> BECAUSE I AM GOING TO BECOME A WOMAN. We made an appointment for the next week.

It was also in the fall of 2007, that I created my website: www.tgirlbobbiejo.com

In the fall of 2007, I also started letting my natural hair grow and haven't cut it to this day

I remember my very first GNO in Warren, Ohio in the fall of 2007. I met two wonderful people, Glenda and Michelle. Michelle and I have grown especially close over the last 2 and 1/2 years. I also remember the very first time I ever saw Chloe Prince at a GNO, I thought she was the most beautiful woman I had ever seen in my life. I couldn't believe it when someone told me she was a TS (this was still her pre-op days). She is absolutely amazing, and she is one of my inspirations. Donna Renee Richards is the other.

On March 27th, 2008 I went full time. Almost two years have gone by since that day, and they have been the happiest two years of my life.

In January 2009, I changed my legal name.

In the last 3 years, I have gone from just starting cross dressing to now in the final stages of my transition, choosing my surgeon and preparing to have my SRS surgery.

It has been an amazing journey the last 3 years, one that I wouldn't trade for the world.

I have met so many wonderful people, I have many close friends, I have a wonderful family, I have a wonderful boyfriend who bought me a diamond ring for christmas in 2009. My sister has been far and away my biggest supporter and I love her lots. I have a video on youtube where I did a striptease for a birthday celebration in 2009. Also at 51, I danced topless at a straight strip club. None of the girls there knew I was a TS, they all thought I was a GG until my friend told them. That made my month. Last year, I also dip lip syncing on stage to the song "Papa Don't Preach" by Madonna.

I have lived a truly wonderful and miraculous life over the last 3 years, and I see nothing but good times ahead as I plan my SRS. I thank my many wonderful friends, my family, and my boyfriend for all of the support that they have provided to me.

My only real down moment came when I had my daughter taken away from me simply because I am a transgendered female. She turns 18 in 2018, and I am very hopeful to re-connect with her then. I do miss her and hope she is doing well. I want her to know that I never stop thinking about her. I can only imagine the lies her mother is telling my daughter about me.

I am finally living my life as the woman I should have been all along, and I much better off emotionally, mentally and physically.

Bobbie Jo



March 9th
  My new landlord fixed me dinner tonight, that was very nice of him. Tomorrow night I move in his place.

March 17th
  I am still here, haven't disappeared off the face of the planet, just been a litle busy lately. In 10 days, I celebrate my two year anniversary of being out full time.

Bobbie Jo



March 20th
  One more week until I have been living in my true gender full time for 2 years.

Nothing major going on today, taking one of my beautiful dresses to the dry cleaners to be ready for next weekend. It is a beautiful day here today, actually every day has been beautiful since I made the transition to Bobbie Jo.

I don't know who that sad, unhappy person was that lived my life for the first 49 years, but I am so glad they aren't around anymore. I am much better off now, physically, mentally and emotionally.



March 21st
  I had to dismiss my little slave slut Sissie yesterday. She started getting a bit too demanding and thinking that she was the one in control. WRONG !

So, boys, girls, and boys who want to be girls, if you come to me, remember this, I AM IN CONTROL. Your goal in life is to please your mistress. Get uppity with me, and it's BYE BYE, see ya. I AM IN CHARGE, AND YOU WILL DO AS I SAY. So, I am now lookng for a new slut.

MISTRESS BOBBIE JO



Desperate for cock
  Okay, it has been a month since I've had a cock down my throat or in my tight little tgirl tushy. I need some cock. Just a few more days thank goodness, and I will get the man meat and the protein that I crave.

March 23rd
  SOS, Need cock down my throat and in my nice tight tushy.

March 24th
  Two more days until I get some nice hard cock, thank goodness !!!! This girl is going stir crazy.

CUMWHORE
  I am a cumwhore. This is what I want to do. Who stole my fantasy ? http://columbus.craigslist.org/cas/1660067843.html

Fron the ad above..

Looking for a few girls interested in being "fluffers" at a huge Bukkake Party this Saturday night in Worthington. Your job would be sucking and jacking cock to get it ready to cover our cum queen of the night. The main girl of the party will be swallowing all the cum or taking the loads on her face & body. You would be next to her helping get the guys close to blast off.

You must be ok with sucking young, old, black & white cock. Guys if your wife or girlfriend has ever fantasized about being in a large group or playing "slut" for the night this is your chance. Photos/video will be taken wich you also will get copies of. If your camera shy no fear as your face can be blocked out if you wish.

Trying to get at least 50 guys....have done this before with 47 guys so hope to break our last count.



March 25th
  I actually almost look forward to going to work. I work for a nice manager at Liberty Mutual, have a great group of co-workers, etc. I feel like I belong, shame it is only a contract job.

I've always worked with pretty good co-workers, but I sometimes end up with a dumbsh** of a manager.

At nationwide, the manager was a complete buffoon, an exceptional idiot, but an idiot nonetheless.

At Oppressive, my first manager was very nice, unfortunately he left for another area, and I had the unpleasant experience of working for a kool aid drinking goon my last couple of years there.

Tomorrow I take off for Columbus, Ohio to celebrate my two year anniversary of being out full time on 3/27/10.



3/27/10 - TWO YEARS FULL TIME
 

TODAY IS MY TWO YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF BEING OUT FULL TIME.

I AM A VERY HAPPY GIRL TODAY.

I got up at 6, went to the beauty parlor at 7, got my hair and makeup done, then I went off to my therapist at 11.

At my appointment with my therapist this morning, she did the one letter I need for SRS. She also gave me a congratulations on your "graduation" card with a nice note inside and a couple of beautiful keepsakes as well.

On May 1st, I should get the second letter approving me for SRS.

YEA, SRS in 2011 here I come.

Bobbie Jo



March 31st
  I now have my appointment set for May 1st. This is the day when I will see the physciatrist for the second letter for SRS.

I am so happy that one day I will finally and completely be the woman I should have been all along.



April 1st
  For my surgery, I am currently trying to decide between a surgeon in Montreal (Pierre Brassard), and a surgeon in Pennsylvania (Christine Mcginn). They are both very good, so I think I will be in good hands regardless of which one I go with. I will be making my decision this month, and also scheduling my surgery date.

April 2nd
  Now 3 years in to my transition, I find several things about me have changed. (besides my looks, that one is obvious).

1. I no longer let people run over me. I am much stronger than I used to be before I transitioned. My confidence level is high. I am at long last comfortable with my own body and it shows with how I deal with life on a daily basis.

2,. I take charge of situations. I don't let people dictate to me how things are going to be, I dictate to them how things are going to be. This goes hand in hand with #1 above.

3. Most importantly, I am at long last at peace with myself. I was almost always miserable in my previous life, I was uncomfortable in social settings, I was a loner. I had very few friends before. Now I am almost 180 degrees complete opposite.

4. Before I transitioned, I was angry at the world much of the time. I was not happy with my life, and I tried several times to kill myself. Thankfully I never succeeded.

5. I always felt I was ugly before I transitioned. I didn't even like looking at myself in a mirror. I am now finally comfortable with my looks.

I am at long last comfortable with myself, my body, my looks, and the world around me. Why I waited until age 49 to finally start being happy is beyond me, I wish I had done it much earlier, I think a lot of things would be different. I am finally in the correct gender and am now who I was all along. It is a shame that I kept my true self hidden for 49 years. Thankfully there are nothing but bright times ahead for me.



April 3rd
  Just got out of the shower. I am going to Club 313 tonight. I shaved my legs. Speaking of shaving my legs, I notice that the amount of hair on my legs is down to almost nil. I don't know whether it's the hormones or what, but I don't have much there, this was even after a week of not shaving them. I am only doing it about twice a week normally.

I also wanted to say that it is such a nice feeling to go to work and actually enjoy being at work. Such a pleasant change from that idiot at Nationwide I was dealing with, and that other buffoon at Oppressive. I know now that I can do anything, even going back to doing massage if I so desire. I don't have to take garbage from anyone.

Today, I need to have the tires on my car checked. The two front tires are leaking air, one is losing about 10 pounds a week.

I hope everyone has a Happy Easter

Love, Bobbie Jo



April 4th
  I had a good time at club 313 last night, met another new girl, well new to me anyway.

I have lived an interesting life thus far. I wonder what the next several years will hold for me? Let's see, I've been a BDSM actress, slave, mistress, stripper for a day, pole dancer. I've had a lot of fun the last 3 years and wouldn't trade it for the world.



April 6th
  I NEED SOME COCK TO SUCK.

April 8th
  Thankfully I will be meeting up with my boyfriend tomorrow. Yea, I get to suck some cock tomorrow night. I might get fucked too. Hmmm, nice.

I have been desperately craving cock these last two weeks. These dildos just don't cut it.



April 12th
  I gave some blowjobs this weekend, had a threesome, drank two loads of cum and got fucked too. All in all a nice weekend.

April 13th
  Hmmm, I just got a foreclosure notice on my house.

Unlike the bank, I wasn't able to rip off $25 billion from the american taxpayer when I fell on hard times.

While I am considering just letting the bank have it, (it's a 22 year old house after all that I still owe $100,000 on), but I am also very concerned about my roommate and where he will live. I don't want him to be left without a place to live.



April 14th
  Well, may be able to save the house after all. (for awhile anyway).

I can always get into becoming a call girl if necessary, for now it looks like that won't be necessary, at least not until July when my current work contract runs out.



April 15th
  Thank you Salah

April 16th
  Okay, it has been entirely too long since I've put up new pics. I need to get some new pics up, but unfortunately my camera isn't working very well right now.

I will try and get some new ones posted before too long.



April 16th (add-on)
  DUH, ANOTHER BRUNETTE MOMENT FOR BOBBIE JO

I lost my employee badge several weeks ago and was issued a new one.

Yesterday, I lost the new bag. DOH !

This morning, I ransacked my car looking for it, and I found my badge, YEA !

The only problem was that it was the badge I lost 4 weeks ago. I found this out when I tried to use it to get into the building and it wouldn't work.

Fortunately, someone saw my badge in the parking lot the day before, and turned it into security. I guess it fell out of my hand as I was walking out.

I gave my old badge to the lady in security, and she returned the new one to me. (She is a wonderful lady, and knows me by name, probably because I've lost my badge more than anyone else, lol).

That's what I get for trying to carry too many things at once, badge, purse, notepad, headband, etc. I should have used some common sense and just put the badge in the purse. I'll learn next time, yea, that's it



April 17th
  Hmmm, cock, nice tasty cock. I sure do love giving blowjobs. On my knees, my full bright red cocksucking lips wrapped around a nice hard cock as the guy grabs ahold of the back of my head and pumps my mouth, fucks my face and calls me his little slut. Hmmm, yummy.

I started sucking cock at a young age and I have been a cocksucking slut ever since that first time. I remember my first time sucking cock just like it was yesterday. I just love a cock in my mouth.

I was meant to be a girl all along, I am so happy to finally be living my destiny.

A nice tasty load of sperm being shot down my throat, followed by a good stream of pee, if I'm lucky. Yummy

I can't wait for my boyfriend Rob to get here, he is coming up today to spend the week with me. I'll be getting lots of cock this week, both in my mouth and in my tgirl tushy. Hmmm, can't wait.



April 21st
  I went to Portsmouth on Monday and went shopping and also had a nice dinner at a wonderful restaurant.

Last night, we went to the Smith and Wesson shooting range and I got to shoot a 22, 38, 45, and a 9mm. That was pretty cool, although I think I liked the 22 the best.

Tonight, going back into Portsmouth and shopping at a couple fetish / lingerie shops. Then later, I will be getting fucked. Hmmm, yummy.

As my post op friend says, "I have the golden highway now, but guys still want to travel down the dirt road". Kisses all.



April 23rd
  I saw a REALLY cute pair of shoes at a store in Portsmouth, only problem was they were $300. Sorry, but I am NOT paying $300 for a pair of shoes, no matter how cute they were.

Gave a blowjob last night, drank some cum (us girls have to keep our protein levels up you know) Hoping to get my tight little tushy fucked tomorrow morning.

I may go out and see a movie tonight or tomorrow.



April 24th
  I got fucked this morning, followed by a nice load of sperm down my throat. Yummy.

April 25th
  Let's see, this is certainly good timing. After being here a week, Rob leaves to go back home, and my car decides to die.

Good one, what incredible timing, why the he** couldn't it have done this on Monday so at least Rob would've been here to help get me around.

Well, at least my car made it over to the house where I am staying right now. Not sure what I am going to do about a car this week, or how I am going to get to work tomorrow.

Looks like it could be the clutch, guess I will be delaying my SRS for another month or two, and instead getting my car fixed.



April 26th
  I can not go to work today. My car is dead in the water. I drove it over to the mechanic this morning, he said it's the slave cylinder. They are repairing it as we speak, should be ready later today.

Yesterday, in addition to fucking up the car, I also fell coming down the stairs, slipped on the kitchen floor, and skinned my knee, and fucked up my middle toe. So, no being on my knees for a few days, or dancing in 7 inch heels either until this all heals. My middle toe is red and purple.

****************************************************

They just called me back from the auto repair place, and the good news is that the clutch looks fine, no issue there, but there are waiting for a part to come in, and they said because of that, the car may not be ready until about noontime tomorrow. So, I'll just be without a car for a few more hours, and will have it back tomorrow around noon.



April 29th
  This saturday May 1st, I meet with my gender therapist at 11, followed by a meeting with the psychiatrist at noon.

If all goes well, I will receive my second letter approving me for SRS.

I already have my doctor picked out, just need to schedule the date which I will do next week.

I am hoping to have my surgery in the summer of 2011. It will cost about $20,000 and I am currently trying to save money for it.



May 2nd
 

I met with my gender therapist again this weekend, followed by a meeting with the psychiatrist and after those meetings, I have now received my two letters approving me for gender reassignment surgery.

There is a very good doctor in montreal that I am impressed with, and I am probably going to him next August (2011) for my operation.

If I have any trouble getting a passport, I do have another excellent doctor who works near Philadelphia that I could go to as well.

Now I just have to save my money for it as it does cost about $20,000. Maybe I'll win the lottery.



May 3rd
  I am starting to work on getting my stuff together for my surgery.

I started looking at what do I need to get a passport, etc., etc. Of course, I HATE having to put that dumbass M in the gender column of the passport application, but that (along with my birth certificate and drivers license) will be among the FIRST things to be corrected after my surgery.

After August 2011, the only M for this girl is going to be if I'm on my knees in front of one, or getting fucked by one.

Money is still an issue right now, but hopefully I will have what I need when the time comes.

COUNTDOWN, AUGUST 2011 here I come



May 4th
  Well, I've been reading: Passport Info, and it appears that I can get a temporary passport good for a year with "F" if I get a letter from my surgeron and my therapist. Then after the surgery, I can get a permanent passport with an F.

May 7th
  Tomorrow (Saturday) I will go to club 313 in Manchester, Nh. I will probably get there about 9:00 p.m. or so.

Then on the 15th, I will be in Warren, Ohio for Girls Night out Prom at the Funky Skunk nightclub.



May 8th
  I am going to head to Club 313 tonight.

I always think about Sasha and hope she is doing okay. I hope one day (when she turns 18, and gets away from that evil "so-called christian" psycho lunatic fat bitch Kathy Key that she is currently living under), that Sasha and I can be friends.



The lady who introduced Bobbie Jo to the world
  This wonderful lady is the lady who first brought Bobbie Jo to life. She was the first one that recognized the woman in me.

(well, except for maybe my mom and grandmother who dressed me in a bridal dress when I was 9).

The lady who brought Bobbie Jo to the world


May 9th
  HAPPY MOTHERS DAY !

I was checking the cost of a plane flight from Cleveland, OH to Montreal, and it's about $380. Not bad, I can handle that.

Well, darn it, I guess I am NOT going roller skating today. They are closed because of Mothers Day. Okay gentlemen, can you think of some other way I can work this weight off? (*_*)



May 10th
  Okay, I HAVE to get front brakes on the car, they sound REALLY bad. Today, driving home from work, the car also overheated. I guess I will be dropping my baby off at the mechanic tomorrow.

May 12th
  HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SISTER JENN, I am very lucky to have Jenn as my sister.

May 13th
  Well, that was very nice.

Today my wonderful manager stops by and asks if he can talk to me for a few minutes.

My contract was supposed to be ending June 30th.

My manager asked me today if I would be willing to stay on until the end of August. There's some more temporary work coming in, and they got approval for another short term contract starting in July, and my manager said why not just keep Bobbie for 2 more months.

.

(obviously I must be doing something right or they wouldn't be wanting to keep me around).

(It is so nice to have a great manager after those 2 idiots I had to deal with previously).

I said yes, that would be perfect. I did mention that I had a couple of appointments on July 2nd and I would like to have that day off, and also a few other days in July when my boyfriend is on vacation.

He said, no probem, just let me know the dates.

Bobbie Jo



May 16th
  I had an incredible saturday. First I went to torture treatment (electrolysis), then I went to the beauty parlor and got my hair and makeup done.

After getting my hair and makeup done, then I drove down to Warren, Ohio for the Girls Night out Prom.

I had on my beautiful pink formal gown that I had bought at JCPenny a few weeks ealier. I met many of my wonderful friends, and even met a few new girls too.

I danced, partied, chatted with people, and just had a wonderful time.

Towards the end of the evening they came to the moment to crown the prom queen. They said, c'mon girls, don't be shy, get up here. My boyfriend pushed me up on stage.

They had the audience applause for each girl, and by the time they got to the end they said, "Okay, our winner is contestant #4". Hmmmm, Wait a minute, 1, 2, 3, 4. Oh my goodness, that's ME !

I started crying, I was so happy. To be crowned Prom Queen at prom, every girls dream..

A wonderful evening to a great day.



May 19th
  It's been 3 days (Sunday) since my boyfriend fucked me and I sucked his cock. He came inside of me too, that's always nice, to feel a load of cum in my tushy. Hmmm, I wonder if he can come to NH again soon?

 

Come in,

sit down,

I'll unzip your pants

and get to town



May 20th
  I NEED SOME COCK TO SUCK

May 21st
  I said, I NEED SOME COCK TO SUCK, NOW ! I think I'll make myself a sign that says that and stand out on the street corner.

Living up to true potential
  It's always good when I can help another girl in her journey. It makes me feel appreciated when they ask for my advice. I try to help girls along their journey however I can.

How I did it probably won't work for everyone, and I even did some things "backwards" (i.e., not seeking out a therapist until almost the end of my journey). I am extremely impressed with my therapist, she is a great lady.

Unlike so many girls who started cross dressing at an early stage, I didn't seriously start until late in life (age 49).

However, once I did, it didn't take me very long to realize that I had found true happiness, and found that wonderful cheerful spirit that had been hiding deep inside of me for 48 years.

I thank everyone who has been so kind to me, shown me how to be more of a lady, and a special thank you to Mistress Elizabetha who was the one that looked beyond that miserable male body I had been hiding in for far too many years and saw my true potential.

I am living a dream life now, really couldn't ask for too much better. I have a wonderful boyfriend, many close friends, some very close (Hi Michelle), my aunts, my sister (she's been my biggest supporter), my brother, and even my mom, who gave me grief at first because of her religious beliefs, has finally accepted and loved me for who I am.

The only thing I would change if I could is that I'd like to be spending time with my daughter Sasha, however she was taken away from me by lunatic nutcase psycho, fat, lazy, useless, ugly bitch so-called "christian looney" (No, I'm not bitter), Kathy Key simply because I am a transgendered female. I hope to reconnect with my daughter Sasha when she turns 18.

There are many girls out there still to be discovered, and a lot of them still in the closet.

Like the girls that came before me, I hope that what my generation does and what future generations do will make it easier for the girls of the future to come out and be true to themselves.

Bobbie Jo



May 23rd
  I went roller skating yesterday. Fell six times the first time around the rink, got much better after that. Thought I was doing okay, until some 5 year old kid passed me at what seemed like 30 mph skating backwards.

I am going to buy a bicycle this week to work off about 15 pounds of that wintertime fat I acquired.

Not sure what I am going to do today, maybe take myself to a movie later.



May 24th
  Yesterday, I went shopping, bought a cute little top, then I got some ice cream, then I went to see the new Shrek movie yesterday and liked it.

I think that tomorrow it is BUY A BICYCLE TIME.



May 27th
  I went and bought a bicycle tonight. I will be riding my bicycle this weekend. I want to get back down to my weight when I was stripping at Executive Den last July.

May 29th
  YEA, THE WEEKEND, LONG WEEKEND TOO.

I went and got my oil changed in the camaro this morning.

While I was waiting for that to be complete, this girl went shopping at the mall.

I found a BEAUTIFUL dress at JCPenny on sale, regular price $100, I got it on sale for $39.99

I also bought a cute pair of sandals on sale for $7.99 and the movie Officer and a Gentleman (which I cry at the end of that movie).

I also bought nice smelling body lotion from Bath&Body Works.

I came home, got on my bicycle for about 40 minutes and rode it around the neighborhood. I am feeling it a little in my legs, but hey, at least I didn't crash any. I am going to be on my bicycle a lot from now on, and I am going to lose this wintertime layer of fat.

Now I am going to jump in the shower, shave my legs, wash my hair, and then paint my nails later. I am going to wear my new dress with my white 7 inch heels to Club 313 tonight.

Bobbie Jo



May 30th
  Well, change of plans.

I was wanting to go roller skating today, however they are closed because of the holiday weekend, darn it all.

So, I took myself to a chic flick, "Sex and The City 2", then once I got home, I went out and rode my bicycle for about 20 minutes".

I wish Rob was here, because I could use a cock down my throat or in my tushy.



May 31st
  Okay, it's a little cool to head to the beach today, think I may head out in a bit and see if I can find a water bottle I can attach to my bicycle. Now if I could only meet someone that would take me back to their hourse where 50 guys are waiting to cum all over a certain tgirls face.

I cleaned up my website a little earlier, updated my faq's, recent news, etc., etc.



June 1st
  I gave blood today at work. I wonder who will get my blood, they'll probably be like, wait a minute, the girl that donated this blood sure does drink a lot of protein (wink, wink).

Of course, after I gave blood, then I started getting very light-headed, they made me lie down for about 20 minutes, gave me juice to drink, gave me some salt crackers to eat. They put a cold compress on my head. I felt better after awhile. I continued to eat crackers, etc. for the rest of the day, and I feel better after eating dinner too.



June 2nd
  Right now I am on a desperate hunt to find my white stripper outfit, I am not sure where it is.

June 4th
  Oh good, Rob thinks my white stripper outfit is in Columbus, so he is going to bring it when I see him in cleveland next weekend.

June 5th
  After this morning's thunderstorm, it turned out to be a really pretty day today. I went bicycling and feel much better. I even feel less fat than I did two weeks ago, so maybe this bicycle riding is working after all. I will start getting ready soon to head to Club 313 tonight.

On a side note, why am I getting all of these "yahoo friend requests" from guys in India or Saudi Arabia that say they want to be my friend, then when it comes down to it, all they really want is a free pass to America. I'm going to start ignoring people if they are from india or the middle east. (unless they're an oil shiek). I am getting tired of this.

I finally updated my yahoo profile with this note:

"GUYS--DO NOT CONNECT WITH ME IF YOU ARE FROM INDIA OR THE MIDDLE EAST AND ARE SIMPLY SEEKING A FREE PASS TO AMERICA. I AM NOT INTERESTED."



June 8th
  It's so nice to wake up in the morning and almost look forward to going to work. I like working for Liberty Mutual. Management that leaves people alone to get their work done, what a fucking concept.

June 14th
  WHAT A GLORIOUS WEEKEND, I HAD A GREAT TIME.

Friday started off great, a nice day at work. I even had fun at the airport for my flight to cleveland.

I was walking from getting my boarding pass to the security line. I walked past a girls baseball team. They were like, "oh my god, look at her shoes, those are incredible". That's right dearie, I had on my six inch white platforms.

I then went to get in the security line and a little japanese lady behind me (she had to be 65 or 70), said, "Dear, I just love those shoes of yours". I thanked her, we talked for a minute, and then I and went to go through security

I noticed the lady running the scanner was looking at my shoes, she would stop the machine, then back the belt up, then start it again. She did this three times. I'm thinking okay, so what is wrong with my shoes?

Finally she turned to me and say, "Dear, what size are those, they are incredible. I don't know how you're walking in those" I told her they were six inch heels. She said, "simply amazing, great shoes, well, have a good flight".

As I was walking down to my gate, I could hear a few people saying, "oh my goodness, look at those shoes, wow". That's right, CUMWHORE BOBBIE JO is in town. What's up, you've never seen a hot, sexy tgirl in six inch heels at the airport before?

I had a nice flight to cleveland. Michelle and Betty were waiting to pick me up at the airport. We went to get something to eat at Bob Evans. As I was walking in the door, there were two couples sitting out front. The ladies both came up to me, and said, "Those are incredible shoes, we really like them". I thanked them both, we talked for a minute and I went into the restaurant.

We went out to cocktails friday night, had some drinks and chatted with people.

Saturday, I had a beauty parlor appt. at noon, then we went to get something to eat, and then finally over to the dock to get ready and board the ship.

It was a great cruise, I had a blast. The weather was great, didn't rain until after we got off the boat that night, couldn't have asked for a nicer evening. We took lots of pics which I will be posting some in a few days as soon as Rob emails me the pics. We went partying later on after the cruise.

We stopped by Bottoms Up where my favorite stripper pole was waiting for me. But oh no, they had it blocked off. DAMN. Michelle disappeared for a few minutes, and the next thing I know, I hear the DJ announcing over the loudspeaker, "Bobbie Jo, get up on the stripper pole NOW". I'm like okay, be right there. Michelle had evidently talked to him and he agreed to let me on. Thank you Michelle, that was very nice of you.

I had fun at Bottoms up, we also went to Cocktails for a little while too before going home and crashing. We got to bed around 1 or 2 I think.

Sunday morning Rob got frisky. At 6:30 a.m. my boyfriend wanted some pussy. Okay, well, who am I to turn that offer down? He slid his cock in me and fucked me good, and as he was ready to cum, he pulled his cock out of my tushy, and I got to drink the cum, YEA ! So tasty too !

We crashed for a little bit more after that, eventually waking up and going out to get something to eat. Then it was BIKINI TIME. Betty and I donned our bikinis and we went to Headlands Beach in Mentor and walked around for about an hour. Several heads were turning our way, that's right, cute, hot, sexy transsexuals are ON THE BEACH.

WIVES AND GIRLFRIENDS BEWARE, we know what men want and we know what women need. Eventually all good things must come to an end, and it was time to take me back to the airport Sunday evening.

I had a WONDERFUL weekend, that was great.



June 16th
  I was crying tonight, no, nothing bad happened.

I was watching the movie An Officer and a Gentleman, and the ending scene in that movie where he goes to pick her up at the factory always gets to me. I end up crying everytime I watch it. I bawl my eyes out when watching that scene (not as bad as when I watch Soldier's Girl though).



June 17th
  Now if my breasts would grow at the same rate as my hair, I'd have Double D titties by now.

June 19th
  It is a beautiful weekend here in New Hampshire, in the high 80s to low 90s all weekend.

Today I am going bicycle riding, then coming back and shaving my legs, then tonight I will go to Club 313 in Manchester.

Tomorrow I may put on my new bikini and hit the beach for a little while.



  YEA, GOOD NEWS ! I FOUND MY LITTLE WHITE STRIPPER OUTFIT. It was in the bottom of my bra drawer. I put it on and it doesn't look too bad, the bicycle riding appears to be working.

Might be time for bikini and beach tomorrow.



June 20th
  I had a really nice day today. The day started off cloudy, and I thought it was going to ruin my beach plans.

I decided to put on my short shorts, cute pink top, and my 4 and 1/2 inch heels and I went down to the harbor area and walked around. I stopped at several of the shops there, did some shopping, and even bought a couple of cute blouses. I sat in the park for awhile just enjoying the warm temperatures.

I did an early dinner, and took myself to Applebees. I think I might have been the only transsexual in there, but you never know nowadays.

I wanted to go to the beach, but it looked like it was about to rain, so I decided to go check out the local movie theater instead. However, I think everyone else had the same idea, no place to park. So, I said, well, I will go home, get my bikini, and maybe this rain will end in half an hour or so.

Lo and behold, that is just about what happened. It stopped raining, so I donned my new bikini and headed to Hampton Beach. I stopped to put some gas in the car, got out of the car at the gas station in just my bikini and flip flops. That's right people, hot, sexy, and cute transsexual is here.

I love my bikini. I actually don't feel fat in it anymore, those bicycle rides are working. I walked around the beach for about an hour, and I stepped in the water a couple of times, but BRRRRR, it was cold. I got talking to one of the other girls there, and told her how cold the water was. I told her I'm used to Florida ocean temperatures. Eventually I left to return to the house.

I am now back at the house, just taking it easy for the rest of the night, but I sure did have a nice day.



June 21st
  Yea, I have lost 8 pounds riding my bicycle these last couple of weeks. I am almost halfway to my goal. I'm looking good in a bikini now, life is good.

June 23rd
  Spill the beans time.

Q. When did you suck your first cock?
A. I sucked my first cock at 10 years of age. I have been a cocksucker for 42 years now.

Q. How old were you when you had your first sexual experience?
A. I was 6 years old.

Q. How old were you when you kissed your first boy?
A. I was 14

Q. How old were you when you kissed your first girl?
A. I was 6 years old.

Q. When did you first get fucked?
A. I had a cock in my tushy the first time when I was 26.

Q. Whwn did you drink your first load of pee?
A. When I was 16.

Q. When did you drink your first load of cum?
A. At 14.

Q. When did you know you were destined to be a girl?
A. I've always known something wasn't right with me, but I think at age 9 is when I fnally realized, hey, this just feels right. It was at age 9, during halloween, that my mom and grandmother put me in a wedding gown for halloween. I didn't know it then, but it started me down this path to the woman you see before you today.






June 24th
 

I foolishly upgraded my IE version from 7 to 8 a few months ago and have been having problems ever since.

So, tonight, I uninstalled 8, hoping that my version 7 would return.

However, now it's on version 6 which is not quite what I wanted.

So now, I am busy trying to upload to IE7. FUN, FUN. If you're on IE7, stay there. 8 is bug-prone.

...............................................................................................

30 minutes later, YEA, I am now back on IE7, thank goodness, and my stuff is working again.

 

 



June 25th
  Well, isn't that special. I got a very nasty reply from my survey question on this site. Only two choices here, it must have been yet another closet homophobe (lots of those around) who really wants to suck cock but is too fucking butt ugly to get any, or I wonder if it was fat, ugly christian nutcase Kathy key perhaps? Either way, they're just jealous because they can't get up on stage dancing topless beside 21 year old GGs at a straight strip club.

I don't care what one lunatic says, I have been complimented many times, and I have a great boyfriend and many wonderful friends who think the world of me and care a lot about me.

.

So whoever you are, you don't matter one bit, sorry your life is so miserable.



June 28th
  Starting wednesday, I am on vacation for a week. I could use one too.

June 29th
  I am packing my suitcase for vacation. I leave tomorrow to head to Columbus, Ohio for 2 days. Thursday, I am getting my first ever manicure and pedicure, then I go to see my therapist to get my letter so I can get my passport done, with an F in gender, YEA.

Friday, after my doctor appointment, I leave Columbus and head to Lake Berlin to spend 5 days camping, boating, swimming, cocksucking, being fucked, etc.

It should be a wonderful time, I am ready.



July 1st
  First full day of vacation - Today I received a letter from my therapist allowing me to get the F on my passport in preparation for my GRS in Canada, YEA. Then, I went to the beauty parlor and received my first manicure and pedicure.

July 2nd
  I had my doctor's appt today, and all is good. My cholesterol levels were great, my blood pressure was 103/66 and my liver enzymes (which is what they watch closely due to the hormones) were also very good.

Now I am off to 5 days of swimming, boating, etc). See you all Thursday, July 8th).



July 4th
  My dear TS friend was with us this week at the campgound, however, this week, she was read, at least twice that we know of. Once by my boyfriend's mom, and then again by a woman in the restroom at the campground we went to. The police were called at the campground. They also tried to tell me not to use the women's restroom and I said, "we can stop that bullshit right now, I am out fulltime, I have a letter from my therapist statng that as well, we aren't going there with me, so don't even try, and you can get that out of your head right now. "but ma'am,", "NO, BUT MA'AM, end of discussion. Do not bring that up again with me unless you want to be facing a discrimination lawsuit". END OF DISCUSSION. I think the only thing that kept me from getting really miffed, is that the officer was fairly respectful to me, and did call me ma'am. I think he handled the situation incorrectly, however. What he should have told the woman that complained, was this, "Don't worry, dear discriminating asshole, we are going to send YOU out on the next plane to Iran so that you NEVER have to worry about seeing a transsexual female in a woman's bathroom ever again". PROBLEM SOLVED. (Bobbie Jo for president).

Anyway, back to my friend. She made a couple of key "fuck-ups".

1.Talking in her boy voice in the woman's restroom, that girl needs some practice in getting her girl voice together. She needs to remember that while some GGs are okay with a TS in the girls's bathroom, some GGs aren't, and that is what got her into trouble.

2. Not wearing foundation for the weekend. She is doing electrolysis, but she is still too far away from her endpoint not to be wearing foundation.

3. Girl mannerisms, I think this is one thing (in addition to the two above) that Rob's mom caught onto fairly quickly. She needs a little help here.

I love the girl to pieces, and when she all gets all dolled up, she is beautiful (she makes me look like something the cat threw up), but she needed to be completely in girl mode or completely in boy mode this past weekend, not part of one and part of the other. She got read very quickly by at least 2 people that we know of.

 

 



July 7th
  Just got back to NH from vacationing in Ohio. I am going to check some email and then hit the bed. I gave a bj, drank cum, got a golden shower, went boating, swimming, camping. I had a very nice time.

July 13th
  Nothing major going on right now. I am just taking it easy, getting ready to head to Columbus, OH this weekend.

I did have someone tell me a couple of days ago that he thought I looked to be about 30, and I'm like okay, yea, that works, I'm 30. He was amazed when I told him I was 52. All of that work on the stripper pole keeps me young looking.



July 15th
  My car is making a weird noise, almost sounds like it is rattling when the engine is running. I stopped by my mechanic today for a quick opinion, and he thinks it might be a bearing. I am going to take it into him on Tuesday.

July 16th
  Whatever that weird noise (sounded like loud rattling) that my car was making yesterday stopped today. Somehow I doubt it's the bearing, bearings tend to not just heal themselves.

July 17th
  Hmmm, I gave a blowjob and drank a load of cum last night. This morning the day started off wonderfully. I got fucked, and then ended up with a load of cum down my throat.

I have torture treatment (electrolysis) in a little while, then it's off to go boating for a couple of hours, and then later to Girls Night Out in Warren, OH.



July 21st
  I was a little down in the dumps yesterday. I am in a slightly better mood today. I think I'm getting homesick. Only 40 days left until I leave New Hampshire. I think I will take myself and go see a movie tonight, maybe Toy Story 3, or a comedy, something to cheer me up.

July 23rd
  I am in a much better frame of mind now. I went and saw Toy Story 3 yesterday and that cheered me up.

Tomorrow (saturday) I am going to apply for a passport book so that I can go to get my SRS in Montreal in 2011.



July 24th
 

Government stupidity, (but I repeat myself).

Good thing I am starting this passport process early.

I figured government stupidity would be involved at some point, and it was, right at step 1.

Today I go to get my passport application done, and they tell me that they can't take my birth certificate. Apparently they need a certified copy of the long form birth certificate (whatever the **** that is).

So I guess I get to call the Baltimore City health Department on Monday to try and get this long form nonsense.

Why is it that our idiotic government does such a fine outstanding job of harassing its own citizens?

If our stupid government wants americans to have a passport to travel to canada, then our idiotic government needs to be providing a FREE, NO-HASSLES passport to every legal american citizen.

Bobbie Jo for president



July 26th
  NEWS:

1. My contract, which was supposed to be over at the end of June, had been extended once already until the end of August. My manager today asked me if I could stay on at Liberty Mutual until the end of the year. I have mixed emotions about this, I was wanting to get back to Ohio and see my friends, on the other hand, this will help me save up for SRS.

2. Whatever my car was doing 10 days ago was a false alarm. I took my car into my mechanic today, (he is such a nice guy). They looked it over and could not find a thing wrong with it.



July 28th - a
  I often receive emails, comments etc from other girls and they usually say the same thing to me.

"I admire your strength and courage".

Well thank you very much, but I don't know that I really have this huge amount of strength and courage that I am being credited with.

I have read the stories and heard the comments from so many girls, whose family has disowned them, their friends have left them, etc. This saddens me a great deal, that even here, in the year 2010, hatred, intolerance, lack of respect, and discrimination is (in some cases) still rampant.

I have said this many times before and will repeat it yet again. WE HAVE A RIGHT TO BE HAPPY TOO.

If you consider the previous statement selfish", then I have one thing to say to you-- FUCK OFF !

Anyone who doesn't like how I live was obviously never that important to me to begin with, AND THAT GOES FOR ANYONE, immediate family member, distant cousin, long lost "friend", co-workers, etc..

I am not sure that I have all this strength and courage that I have been credited with by so many girls, but I do know that I have an extremely low (i.e., zero) tolerance for bullshit.

I LIVE MY LIFE TO MAKE ME HAPPY, and anyone who doesn't like that can GO TO HELL.

I want to live in a world where everyone has the right to be themselves.





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