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Answers to questions I keep getting
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1. No, I am NOT fully functional. I am on hormones. I am NOT a she-male. Most true TS's are NOT fully functional.
2. Yes, that truly is my real hair.
3. yes, I have actual real live breasts now, and no, those are NOT implants.
4. Once again, I am NOT fully functional, I am a PRE-OP TS, and NOT a she-male. If you want someone who is fully functional, you need to find a SHE-MALE, or a CD, but NOT a TS. A true TS will NOT be fully functional unless she has taken something like Viagra to help her along. See this link for correct definitions of the terms. TS, CD, TG definition
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April 16th, 2009
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April 2009-It is with my latest experience with corporate stupidity that I have grown tired of the horse manure in IT.
"we care about our employees".....translation: we care about covering our own butts
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"we provide career path opportunities for our employees"...translation: only if you're a ceo or a senior manager.
So, I'm looking at some other ideas (listed below), IT just doesn't appeal to me anymore.
Exotic Dancer
Dominatrix
Porn Actress (if I'm going to get fucked over, I might as well enjoy it)
President of the United States (my campaign slogan would be: THE BULLSHIT STOPS NOW)
General all around slut (see porn actress comment)
Housewife
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April 17th
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Good Grief, I just realized, April 2009 was my 35th anniversary in I/T. Now's a good as time as any for a career change.
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April 20th
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What yucky weather. Unfortunately I have to go out in it and get a few things faxed.
Where is Spring?
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April 22nd - a letter to my daughter
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A letter to my daughter.
Dear Sasha,
I want you to know that I have loved you from the minute I first saw you. I remember how small you seemed when you were first born.
I look at you now, and you are growing up so fast. Eight years old, and going on "14".
You were, still are, and will always be my little angel. I am so proud of you, and I want you to study and do well in school and in your life.
I also want you to know that if you need anything of me, all that you have to do is ask, and I will be there to help you.
Your mom took you away from me on April 5th, 2009 under the guise of "protecting you from me" simply because I am a transgendered female. I can not imagine how cold-hearted a person has to be to do that to someone.
I want you to know that I will always think of you, and I hope that when you turn 18, we will be able to reconnect and once again be as close as we were for the first eight years of your life.
I wish you all the best, and I will always think of you, and I hope to see you when you turn 18, if not before.
I love you with all my heart.
Take care.
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April 25th
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I went to the PFLAG conference in Cleveland. I was able to not only see and hear Mary Lou Wallner, I was able to hug her and thank her for all of the help she has been to me.
She and her husband are truly angels.
Their story is on their website at: www.teach-ministries.org
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April 26th
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I went to church today at United Church of Christ, where they are actually very accepting of GLBT people.
http://www.liberationucc.org/index.html
After church, I went for a walk around the neighborhood.
Then later, I jumped in the car, went to the state park on the lake, and walked around the lake for awhile. After I came home from the lake, I fixed my roommate and myself a salad.
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April 27th
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Started throwing some things away for when I sell the house, so I have less stuff to move.
On another note, today is the 13th month that I have been out full time as a tgirl.
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April 30th
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Oh my goodness, I was going through some old papers today throwing some stuff away in case I have to sell the house and move in the next 5 weeks or so.
and what did I find? An autographed photograph from Baltimore Orioles Third baseman Brooks Robinson, personally autographed to my grandfather.
wow, too cool. Bobbie Jo
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May 7th
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I went to downtown cleveland today to celebrate the domestic partner registry.
Later we went to a church service and then onto Bounce Nightclub.
This weekend, (5/9) I will be going to my prom at Cocktails Night Club. My first prom as my true and correct self, I am very excited.
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May 11th
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Gee, I know the feeling. I found this one on jobvent today and it was just too good to pass up.
Northeast 05/11/2009: Progressive is the most heartless company ever. Please, run from this place while you can. Laid off today after 15 years of dedication to this slimy company. If Tricia has any bit of a soul left, I doubt she will ever have another night of sleep in her life. She has destroyed lifes today with her ruthless display of "flattening out the organization". Her parents should be ashamed of her. Her family should be ashamed of her. Her kids should be ashamed of her. What a legacy - destroying peoples familys who have bled blue for this company. Tricia, my kids thank you for being able to see me more then 2 days a week. But how will they respond when we are living on the street? I can't tell you how many nights I have spent in hotels, missing my kids as they have grown without me there to watch. Missing my wife, my family, giving everything for this company. Today I received the most ruthless news of my life advising that my job has been eliminated. It was a cold, calculated conversation. Not even a thank you for years of dedicated service. Nothing... Unreal. This company is going down so fast. Stock prices will be below $5 a share before the year is out. The only hope this company has left is for Geico to buy them out. Tricia, I hope cutting all of quality people allows you to build another Service Center or two (worst idea of all time) then you can force more reps to force customers into "our" repair channel. What a joke. Progressive steers customers. This is no secret. We have been cheating auto body shops for years. Progressive is a joke. Good luck to all of you!!! Tricia - you rule. Great job so far. Hmmm. What have you done? Nothing but destroy families that have given you the ability to drive your fancy car to your fancy house and eat your fancy dinner. Wow, you should be ashamed. Nothing says success like getting rid of the people who have helped build this company and your salary. I hope nothing but the worst life has to offer you Tricia. Good luck and good bye to a horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible claims leader. You are a joke.
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May 14th
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I couldn't agree more. I wish I had known about this site before I started working for repressive corporation. I certainly wouldn't have taken a job with that horsrcap of a company if I had known how they truly treat people. I now check out every company on jobvent.com before I put in an application with them. Prospective employees, be aware, there are a lot of reasons that repressive corporation has a negative 7500 rating.
From jobvent.com
Respect-Does not exist.Progressive Insurance breaks just about every law they can get away with. Descrimination, micromanagement, Lies and more lies. They literally have a team of HR goons that do nothing but try to blow smoke up employees tail ends and keep the law breaking management (All levels) from getting the company sued
Work Environment- The absolute worst environment of any company I have had the pleasure to work for. Employees are fearful, concerned, angry, and just plain tired of the way the executives and management has ruined every thing that once was great about this company. Graduates do very very thorough research on Progressive. You will see the examples of the work enviroment you will encounter upon accepting employment here.
Job Security-Absolutely pathetic. The current executive management team has made poor choices and has caused Progressive to drop from the #3 auto insurer to #5 and still dropping. The upper management creates false records in order to set up a system to get rid of employees so that they will not have to pay severance or unemployment. There is no tenure here.
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May 15th
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This is so cool. I looked out the window today and Momma groundhog is out in my back yard with her 4 babies.
I had never seen the babies before, this is really neat.
I love it. That absolutely made my day.
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May 17th
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I had a freaking fantastic time in Warren, OH at the Girls Night Out last night.
I LOVE MY LIFE.
"We don't stop playing because we grow old, we grow old because we stop playing"
I wouldn't trade my life as a tgirl for anything in the world.
My only regret is that I tried to hide from my true self for far too many years.
Bobbie Jo, I was a woman from day one, and I am now finally living my life as the woman I should have been all along.
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May 18th
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Good for her. I wish I had done this at that age instead of trying to live up to other peoples expectations for far too long.
http://www.ketv.com/cnn-news/19474067/detail.html
OMAHA, Neb. -- An Omaha couple is allowing their 8-year-old son to openly live life as a girl. It’s a decision that means the child is no longer invited to attend Catholic school.
Therapists and the child’s parents say the second grade student is transgender, a medical condition where a person’s inner sense of identity doesn’t match their biological gender. Some gender experts say as many as one in 500 people may be transgender or carry significant traits of the opposite sex.
“It’s kind of like you’re trapped somewhere and you can’t get out,” said the child, whose name and face are not being made public to protect the family from potential harm.
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May 21st
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I am extremely fortunate, I have a truly incredible bunch of friends.
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May 24th
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Last night I went to the URNA party in Columbus Ohio.
Today, I was doing volunteer work for askcleveland, we did canvassing for transgender rights in Cleveland, Ohio.
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May 25th
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Today, I called my sister and talked to her for awhile, then I put on another pair of white shorts shorts, my bikini top, my flip flops, and I went for a stroll at Headlands Beach park.
About 7:00 p.m., it was getting a little cool, so I headed back to the car, put on my tgirl tshirt and headed over to the grocery store and then to Best Buy. I love my tgirl tshirt, found at: Tgirl tshirt
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May 26th
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Torture treatment day (Electrolysis)
I will be so happy when I am done with this.
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May 29th
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I have been in columbus the past few days, helping my boyfriend Rob get his new house ready for closing.
I actually painted the basement steps yesterday, okay, I painted both me and the basement steps.
A half a gallon of paint on me, a little more than that on the basement steps.
Rob has treated me like a queen, he is an extremely sweet guy and I love him a lot. I hope that his parents know what a truly great son they have.
If I don't find a job soon, Rob will be getting two new roommates, me and my cat. I probably have about 5 weeks of cash left before the bank account goes to zero. My deadline for deciding whether to put the house up for sale or not is the first Friday in June.
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May 30th
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Do so-called "normal" people have HID?
I absolutely, positively hate the term GID. I don't have GID, I now know exactly who I am and who I was meant to be all along, it just took me awhile to figure it out.
I simply have a birth defect, and that is all I have. I DO NOT have an "identity" disorder, and people need to quit classifying it as such. I was meant to be a woman all along. I am FINALLY living my life as I should have from day one on this planet.
Hopefully one day if my finances allow, I can have my birth defect corrected.
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May 31st
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I went to church today in Cincinnati and I was able to see my daughter and also watch her sing a song. That made me happy.
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June 1st, 2009
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It is shortly after midnight, and I am sitting here singing to the song "The consequences of falling" by K.D. Lang.
I was sitting here at the computer, and my cat Oreo was on top of the computer desk, we had the blinds to the sliding door wide open.
All of a sudden I see Oreo, and she's staring intently at the window, am I'm like what the he** is she looking at ?
I turned around, and there staring back at me big as life, was a racoon
That was so cool.
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June 2nd
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Tonight, I was doing phone banking for askcleveland.org
to support anti-discrimination legislation for transgendered people.
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June 3rd
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After hearing how Domenic lost his spouse to a brain aneurysm, it got me thinking about death, so sorry but this post might be a bit morbid, you've been warned
I was thinking, what would I want people to know if I died tomorrow, so here, in no particular order are some of the things I have to say to various people. I will probably add a few more people when I think about this some more, but this is a start for now.
1. Mom - Please don't hate me or my lifestyle, because I am truly happy for the first time in my life. Please be happy for me. Love, Bobbie Jo
2. Sasha - I love you so much, you are my angel. I wish you all the best, and know that I will always be with you in spirit, always there, looking out for my little girl.
3. Domenic - I was so sorry to hear about your spouse. Your story touched me, and your generosity was simply incredible. Thank you.
4. Rob - You are my sweetheart, my lover, my companion, my boyfriend, my protector, and all that I could have ever hoped for. I can not possibly express in words everything that you mean to me. I was so glad that I met you at Southbend. That was easily one of the best nights of my life.
5. Michelle - You are such a great friend. I value our friendship immensely. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
6. Bob S. - I will always remember our fun times together. They brought a smile to my face (and yours too I am sure)
7. Linda, Jean and Susanna - Thank you so much for your understanding and support during my transition. Linda, your makeup tips were just wonderful, I no longer look like a drag queen in heat. Thanks to the three of you so much for makeup tips, jewelry, clothes, and nail polish suggestions. Your help made me the woman I am today.
8. Ed - You are about the best roommate I could have ever hoped for, even if you did spoil my cat rotten. Thank you.
9. Jenn - What can I say? You have been the best sister on the planet. Thank you so much for your support, understanding, friendship, love, etc.
10. Donna Richards - I may not have told you, but you are my inspiration. I look up to you. I can only hope to be 1/10th as lovely as you are.
11. Chrissie, Glenda, Buffy, Lynn, Cindi,Marsha,Hunni - You girls are simply amazing, your zest for life is truly remarkable. Thank you so much, I am happy to count you among my friends.
12. Ken and Michelle - love each other, and take care of the kids. I am lucky to have you as my brother and my sister in law.
13. Sean - Please take care of Jenn, she seems to think she is invincible at times.
14. Rick Kotynski - You are one of the two best managers that I ever had the pleasure of working for. I certainly do wish that you had stayed in charge of the group. The kool aid drinkling, brown nosing, yes goon that soon followed you was without a doubt the worst idiot I have ever worked for.
15. John Schmitt - The best manager I ever worked for. Thank you so much for your support and subsequent friendship.
16. Dianne - yes I've changed a little since our high school days, but I wanted to tell you that I hope all of your dreams come true, you were my first real love, even though there were times that I didn't do a very good job of demonstrating that.
17. Rico - We had a lot of fun times too. Thank you, I certainly enjoyed them.
18. Cassie - I had a great time recollecting old times and shopping with you when I visited Florida. You've got it all together..
19. Margaret - The time we spent together was fun. I enjoyed it, I hope you did too.
20. Valerie - Thanks for your friendship. I was very close to your mom, and I enjoy to this day that you and I keep in touch.
21. Vonda - I liked working with you, and I don't know about you, but I sure am glad to be away from Regressive Insurance. I enjoyed our talks at Applebees, Hometown, etc.
22. Geoff - You helped keep my spirits up, you have helped me through some very difficult times and I greatly appreciate your support and generosity. Thank you very much.
23. Mistress Tara - You provided me with so many opportunities to enjoy myself. I had such a great time due to you. Thank you.
24. MIstress Delilah - as Slave -8 said, we are the ying and yang of well, you know. I had many great and fun times with you.
25. Mistress Elizabetha - You are the lady who made all of this possible for me, and taught me to release my inhibitions and become my true self, and release all of those inner feelings I had for so many years. I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
26. Mary Lou Wallner - Thank you for everything that you and your husband do. Thank you for being a great supporter of the GLBT community. You two are truly a blessing, and you have made a difference in my life.
27. Phill - Thank you for being so generous and kind to me. You are a wonderful person.
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June 4th
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Living with Meniere's Disease
Yes, I have this. In 1999, I suffered my first attack from Meniere's Disease. At the time I had no idea what the heck it was or what was wrong with me. So, if I am out somewhere, and you see me fall to the floor, or grab onto something to steady myself, this may be what is going on, I may be suffering an attack. Follow the instructions in section below titled: ---> How Do I Manage an Attack of Meniere's disease?
In 1999, I was at my desk working, when all of a sudden I had a massive headache, felt like the worst migrain headache in the world. I laid my head down on the desk, my manager came by and asked me what was wrong. I told him I had no idea, I could not walk straight, I could not stand up without throwing up. They called the ambulance for me, put me on the stretcher and took me to the hospital.
By the time we got to the hospital, my headache was somewhat better, and I could at least stand on my own two feet without falling down. They gave me something to help with the dizzy spells, and then sent me home.
After many days, weeks, tests and more tests, they finally ruled out everything else and told me that I had Meniere's disease. I was given Antivert in 2001, and I took that until 2003. The doctor suggested that I try and cut down the dosage and see what would happen. I did, and I had no more repeat occurances. Eventually I just went off the medicine altogether, my last pill was taken in the fall of 2003.
Update - June 2009 - I have recently had a couple of little episodes where I have had a dizzy spell (granted not anywhere near as bad as before, no vomiting this time, or being unable to stand up straight), but I did have a prescription for antivert refilled, as a precaution, just in case. So, if I am out somewhere, and I fall to the floor, and don't recover myself, then please take an antivert pill from my purse, and pop it in my mouth.
http://www.american-hearing.org/disorders/menieres/menieres.html#whatis
Meniere's disease - In 1861, the French physician Prosper Ménière described a condition which now bears his name. Meniere's disease is a disorder of the inner ear that causes episodes of vertigo, ringing in the ears (tinnitus), a feeling of fullness or pressure in the ear, and fluctuating hearing loss.
A typical attack of Meniere's disease is preceded by fullness in one ear. Hearing fluctuation or changes in tinnitus may also precede an attack. A Meniere's episode generally involves severe vertigo (spinning), imbalance, nausea and vomiting. The average attack lasts two to four hours. Following a severe attack, most people find that they are exhausted and must sleep for several hours. There is a large amount of variability in the duration of symptoms. Some people experience brief "shocks," and others have constant unsteadiness. The majority of people with Meniere's disease are over 40 years of age, with equal distribution between males and females.
A particularly disabling symptom is a sudden fall that may occur without warning.
Meniere's episodes may occur in clusters; that is, several attacks may occur within a short period of time. However, years may pass between episodes. Between the acute attacks, most people are free of symptoms or note mild imbalance and tinnitus.
Meniere's disease usually starts confined to one ear but it often extends to involve both ears over time so that after 30 years, 50% of patients with Meniere's have bilateral disease (Stahle et al, 1991). There is some controversy about this statistic however; some authors suggest that the prevalence of bilaterality is as low as 17% (Silverstein, 1992). We suspect that this lower statistic is due to a lower duration of follow-up and that the 50% figure is more likely to be correct. Other possibilities, however, are selection bias and different patterns of the disease in different countries. Silverstein suggested that 75% of persons destined to become bilateral do so within five years.
How Do I Manage an Attack of Meniere's disease?
During an acute attack, lay down on a firm surface. Stay as motionless as possible, with your eyes open and fixed on a stationary object. Do not try to drink or sip water, as you would be very likely to vomit. Stay like this until the severe vertigo (spinning) passes, then get up SLOWLY. After the attack subsides, you will probably feel very tired and need to sleep for several hours.
If vomiting persists and you are unable to take fluids for longer than 24 hours (12 hours for children), contact your doctor. He or she can prescribe nausea medication, and/or vestibular suppressant medication. Your doctor may wish to see you. Antivert and Ativan are commonly used vestibular suppressant medications and Compazine or Phenergan are commonly used medications for nausea.
What Can be Done to Reduce the Symptoms of Meniere's disease?
Between attacks, medication may be prescribed to help regulate the fluid pressure in your inner ear, thereby reducing the severity and frequency of the Meniere's episodes. Dyazide is the most common medication for this purpose. Neptazine can be used when response to Dyazide isn't good enough. Verapamil (typical dose: 120 SR) sometimes reduces the frequency of attacks. Some physicians prescribe Histamine injections. Prednisone or other steroids (for example Decadron) are occasionally helpful in short bursts. Vestibular suppressants such as Antivert (meclizine) or Klonazepam are used on an as-needed basis.
How Does What I Eat Affect Meniere's Disease?
Your inner ear fluid is influenced by certain substances in your blood and other body fluids. For instance, when you eat foods that are high in salt or sugar, your blood level concentration of salt or sugar increases, and this, in turn, will affect the concentration of substances in your inner ear.
People with certain balance disorders must control the amount of salt and sugar that is added to food. You must also become aware of the hidden salts and sugars that foods contain. Limiting or eliminating your use of caffeine and alcohol will also help to reduce symptoms of dizziness and ringing in the ears.
How Might Meniere's Disease Affect My Life?
Since the acute symptoms of Meniere's disease are episodic, it is important to explain to your family and friends what might happen when you have an attack. Then, if the symptoms occur when they are present, they will understand and not be overly frightened.
You may be able to protect yourself from injury if you feel that an attack is about to begin. Some attacks may occur during the night, so be sure you have a night light on; you will be relying more on vision to help maintain your balance. You will want to make sure that the path to the bathroom is free of throw rugs, furniture or other obstructions.
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June 7th
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I had a Meniere's attack this morning, I had to go lay down for awhile. I felt almost sick to my stomach, had a headache, and dizzy as well.
I am still not feeling the greatest, but a lot better than earlier.
I think I am going to stop drinking soft drink and see if that helps. I had been drinking a fair amount of diet mountain dew lately.
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June 8th
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I joined a couple of other people at Cedar Lee Theatre tonight in the effort to help spread the word about the need for transgendered people to be treated the same as everyone else.
Please, if you can, come join us at future events, it would mean a lot to me.
Thank you
http://www.askcleveland.org/event-calendar-for-ask-cleveland
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June 9th
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Electrolysis day. OUCH !
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June 11th
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I applied today for an escort/model job. We'll see if that one pans out. I need something to start bringing in some money before too long considering my cash is going to run out in about 30 days.
I also sent a reply to Tyra Banks, she was looking for some people like myself to be on her Tv show. Not sure if I will make the cut, after all, that's a once in a lifetime shot, but hey, if I don't try, then there's no chance at all. Bobbie Jo
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June 14th
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I went on the annual G.I.F.T. cruise last night, and I had such a fantastic time. Dancing, entertainment, good friends, meeting people, drinks, food, etc.
I must be doing something right, because I had some more people on the cruise that had no idea that I was a TS. They were talking to me, and they thought that I was a genetic girl.
That just makes me day, affirming that I am doing well with my makeup and my transition.
Bobbie Jo
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June 15th
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We don't stop playing because we grow old.
We grow old because we stop playing.
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June 19th
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Interesting article, and very true. http://www.clevescene.com/cleveland/how-progressive-insurance-lost-what-made-it-progressive/Content?oid=1504924
Chris Lantzy's 16-year career ended in a hotel room in Newton, Iowa. The call came as he was road-tripping from Colorado with his five sons, headed to Mom's house in Cleveland for Thanksgiving. His wife was back in Colorado, pregnant with their seventh child and unable to make the trek.
Lantzy could afford a big family, thanks to paychecks from one of Northeast Ohio's most successful companies, Progressive. He had worked his way up from lowly temp to senior IT programmer, earning $75,000 in a good year. He'd moved to Colorado Springs from the company's Mayfield Village headquarters just two years before, and always planned to retire from the insurance giant.
Now it had come to this: laid off at the age of 44, just in time for Christmas.
Lantzy was one of more than 340 people to receive pink slips in November. Facing a plummeting stock price, declining profits, and a losing advertising war, the nation's third-largest auto insurer was faltering. The "reduction in force" was supposed to trim the fat.
But two months after the layoffs became public, the company bought the naming rights to Jacobs Field. It was a savvy marketing move, perhaps, but one that angered both Indians fans and employees, who saw the $50 million advertising buy as an insult.
Suddenly, one of Greater Cleveland's best employers, a beacon of stability with 9,400 jobs, became a target of ridicule and resentment. While Wall Street analysts may not have been overly bothered by the slump, Clevelanders couldn't help but take it to heart. The region doesn't have many Fortune 500 companies left. If Progressive stumbles, where does that leave us?
In 2000, Peter B. Lewis was headed through security at the Auckland, New Zealand airport when drug-sniffing dogs discovered an ounce of pot in his briefcase. The 66-year-old billionaire philanthropist, who had recently had his leg amputated, endured a cavity search and a night in jail. This is the man who built Progressive.
Raised in Cleveland Heights during World War II, Lewis took over his father's company in the '60s and grew it from a small outfit to a national name brand with 27,000 employees nationwide. Around the Mayfield campus, "Peter B." was a deity.
He hired bright young people and gave them the power to make decisions. They were encouraged to question authority and be honest with their customers — a novel approach in the insurance world.
Under his leadership, the company earned a reputation for innovation. In the '50s, it started insuring high-risk drivers when no one else was interested, and those customers helped business explode. Then, in the booming '90s, Progressive became notoriously efficient. Independent insurance agents could send a customer's information to Progressive and get a policy faster than anywhere else.
It was one of the first companies to sell insurance online. It launched 24-hour phone lines, and even took the unusual step of providing customers with quotes from competitors.
Meanwhile, employees were treated royally with on-site gyms and doctors' services. Lewis' ex-wife, Toby, helped build what became one of the most impressive corporate art collections in the world.
New ideas were welcomed, and if you worked hard, it paid off with promotions and prestige.
"[Lewis] treated his employees as assets to the company and as real human beings," says one former employee.
"There was just a camaraderie," adds Lantzy. "You took care of them; they took care of you."
Lewis was so dedicated to the company that he told a reporter his fantasy was "to be carried feet first out of my office." About eight years ago, thanks to circulatory problems that led to partial amputation of his leg, he ceded the spotlight, resigning as CEO. These days, he enjoys his private jet and homes in Beachwood, New York, and Colorado, and spends nearly half the year on a luxury yacht overseas. Renowned for his love of art, women, and weed, he makes a habit of giving the finger to Cleveland's civic establishment, withholding donations from institutions like Case Western Reserve and University Circle if he decides they're poorly run.
He's still the chairman of Progressive's board, but when he departed, he made Glenn Renwick his handpicked CEO. Some employees say nothing has been the same since.
"Until the reorganization was announced, I could've written a commercial for how much I loved Progressive," says one veteran manager.
"Everybody wanted to be there," adds another longtime employee. "Now it's quite the opposite."
When contacted by Scene, most employees were afraid to speak publicly about the company. Some fear they'll be fired. The laid-off still have friends and family on the job. And Progressive, they say, is no longer a place where people are encouraged to speak openly.
In the years after Lewis left, new layers of management appeared. Analysts and MBAs were hired to examine processes and procedures, rather than bring money in the door. "Things quit getting done," one former manager recalls.
Office politics became more important, Lantzy says, causing the company to lose focus. New managers would reorganize things. Six months later, everything would be reshuffled again. It had become something of a Dilbert cartoon — management for management's sake. "It didn't seem like being a loyal, hard worker counted as much anymore, whereas it always had," he says.
Soon, the trademark collegial office culture was replaced by fear. One longtime employee says that if someone complains in his out-of-state office, the bosses will put a newspaper on his desk, opened to the want ads.
"They pretty much rule with an iron fist," he explains. "They want you out, they'll get you out."
A former local manager, who was earning more than $100,000 a year, learned of his impending layoff at a hastily convened meeting in November. Progressive's call-center chief actually read from a script. The manager's position was being eliminated, they told him. There just wasn't a place for him.
He might have mistaken this for a scene from Office Space, if not for the extra security guards outside the door. He grabbed his coat, turned in his key card, and walked out.
The days of Peter B.'s swaggering honesty and fearless innovation were officially over.
Some trace the decline to Progressive's dubious decision, four years ago, to split the company into two brands. Drive would sell policies the traditional way, through agents in neighborhood offices. Progressive Direct would sell via the phone and the internet.
For reasons no one can seem to explain, the company believed the split would help them win favor with independent agents, who hawked the policies of multiple companies. Progressive invested heavily in the idea, wining and dining agents in Vegas, and renting out a racetrack so they could see the Drive car compete, one veteran employee recalls.
The execs didn't seem to realize that diluting their name recognition by splitting into two lesser-known brands was asking for trouble.
The decision didn't sit well with many independent agents. They were already peeved about Progressive's low commissions and worried that its online and phone sales would put them out of business. Trying to get them to sell an unknown brand wasn't going to help.
"Everybody saw that it was ridiculous," one Cleveland manager says.
Yet the split remained in place until last September, when the company folded back under the single Progressive banner. But by that time, agents had already taken to placing their business elsewhere, says Brian Sullivan, editor of the trade newsletter Auto Insurance Report.
Meanwhile, competitors began to target Progressive's greatest strengths. Other companies jumped into online sales and sought high-risk drivers. And Progressive continued to get pummeled in the area that's always been its weakness: marketing.
According to TNS Media Intelligence, nationwide spending on car insurance ads exploded from $600 million in 2003 to $1.6 billion in 2006. GEICO alone spent at least $500 million that year.
Progressive had long believed that customers would automatically recognize its superior service, Sullivan says, though it might not offer the cheapest policies. But that's not a message that sells well in a sound bite. Slogans such as "Think easier; think Progressive" and "Relax. Just drive" weren't the kind of catchphrases you could hum in a carpool.
Nine years ago, the company ran a Super Bowl ad featuring E.T. as a spokesman for safe driving. It was supposed to be part of a larger branding campaign, complete with propaganda in drivers' ed courses and an E.T. Safety Club for kids. But it all had the feel of a public service announcement. When new customers failed to arrive, Lewis fired the ad company.
"They really don't understand advertising and marketing," Sullivan says. "That's what's playing the game right now."
GEICO is just the opposite. With its faintly British gecko mascot and Caveman commercials — so popular they spawned a sitcom — it offers a counterpoint as a friendly, likable company with a healthy sense of humor.
Allstate, meanwhile, portrays itself as a reliable, comforting hand you can depend on during a disaster. Its spokesman, naturally, is the cello-voiced Dennis Haysbert, who played the president on 24.
By comparison, Progressive's ads seem more like software commercials. They are sleek and tech-savvy, but hardly distinguishable from thousands of others. The current slogan, "It's about you. And it's about time," is as bland as its predecessors. Its latest commercial features a nondescript guy in a checkout line. The cashier claims he just saved $350, then touts the company's "concierge claims service" and 24/7 help online.
Within the blizzard of ads that pound consumers daily, it has all the ingredients to be eminently forgettable.
"Progressive has consistently proven that it doesn't know what funny is," Sullivan says. "It's just bad."
Progressive seems to be aware of the problem. It recently moved its brand development division under CEO Renwick's direct supervision. One of its biggest moves was to buy the naming rights to Jacobs Field. The question is whether displaying its logo at Tribe games will be enough to make a difference.
Sullivan says the name game is helpful, because it builds branding and puts Progressive's name on the lips of baseball fans everywhere. But the dizzying pace at which stadiums change names leaves it unclear whether fans remember any field's name.
"This is a spectacular insurance company with a very powerful foundation," Sullivan says. "Four really smart people can fix the advertising. The problem is, they haven't found those four people."
By last fall, Progressive's stock price had fallen to $18.21 — the lowest it had been in four years.
This raises questions about the company's capacity to grow. People clearly aren't buying its stock, and that problem has persisted for months (the price was down to $17.76 in early March).
Last month, Progressive's claims chief of the past nine years, Brian Passell, was "separated" from the company without explanation. Such moves don't inspire confidence. "They're not growing," Sullivan says. "They need to get this figured out."
It's perhaps a sign of how bad things have gotten that corporate officials refused to talk to Scene for this story. There was a time when reporters could reach Lewis directly. Now calls are vetted through a PR team. Answers to Scene's questions were provided via e-mail and attributed to the company's human resources chief, Tricia Griffith.
She admits that having a well-known brand is key to competing with the GEICOs of the world and says that the Jacobs Field deal is designed to make that happen. As for the employees, they're still enjoying the same gyms, yoga classes, health centers, dry cleaning, and profit-sharing perks they always have. Those who were laid off were considered either "redundant" after Drive and Direct merged, or simply not necessary. She says the company's IT department was "overstaffed." In fact, she suggests that the layoffs, many of which affected higher-paid veterans, would help save Progressive from the problems that concern Sullivan.
"These changes allow us to operate more efficiently, which can help us bring competitive prices to more customers and grow our business," Griffith wrote.
But as one manager points out, it's been four months since the layoffs, and "Our stock prices are still not moving." She can't help but blame the people on top.
"Peter would have found some way to stimulate the business," she says. "He would've put Progressive out there in the forefront."
These days, the mood in Mayfield is dark. No one's sure whether more cuts are coming, and managers feel their every move is being examined from above. One says she used to be free to make many of her own decisions. Now, "I could still do that, but only after I get permission to do that."
She won't leave, because she has a son in college and "couldn't touch" the salary she's earning anywhere else. But she's frustrated, knowing that a company full of "some of the brightest people I've ever worked with" is being choked by fear and micromanagement. "I think that the business would be successful again," she says. "It's like you need to unleash those people."
Of course, no one is ready to write Progressive's obituary. Some analysts argue that the company's roaring growth of the '90s couldn't last forever — all rising empires inevitably plateau. "They had a golden age," Sullivan says. "That is rarely sustained for long."
John Ryan, an analyst for Morningstar, points out that the car insurance industry as a whole is suffering through a natural downturn after a boom. He's confident it's a temporary problem, and a well-run company like Progressive will recover in time. "People may be antsy . . . To us, it's nothing new," he says from his office in Chicago.
Adds Sullivan: "They're struggling, but the core of what they do is still excellent."
In the end, it's hard to kill the optimism bred by decades of success. Even Lantzy says he recently applied for another job at Progressive. "I really cared about the company," he says, "and in a funny way, I still do. It's just a big chunk of me."
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June 23rd
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Torture treatment day again.
I can actually tell that there is less hair each time to worry about, but of course it isn't going away fast enough
for me. I want this to all be gone now.
Thank you Carol for your help in transforming me into the woman I should have been all along. Your work means a lot to me, and I appreciate it greatly.
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June 24th
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Why I bother, I do not know.
The idiotic "service engine light" came on today on the car. Hey good one, let's take more money that I don't have.
In my previous line of work I always tried to help people resolve their issues and I see exactly where that got me.
I guess the saying is true, "nice people finish last".
I think I'll sell everything I own and move to Las Vegas and become a hooker to make a living.
Anyway, I'm going to make some popcorn and watch a movie, maybe I'll be in a better frame of mind come tomorrow after a good night's sleep.
Sorry for the negative sounding post.
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I went for a walk around the neighborhood in my cute red dress and my 3 inch heels a little earlier to try and get myself in a better frame of mind.
After I got back, my sister called me, she saw my whining on this thread and she called me. Thanks sis.
She said, hey girl, why don't you take it to Autozone and they can probably tell you what the code is saying for free.
Oh cool, good idea. I didn't even think of that one, DUH ! ......another Bobbie Jo brunette moment.
I found one that was open about 8 miles away, they said it's probably just a small vacuum leak, and shouldn't be too much to fix. YEA, some good news for a change.
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June 25th
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So, I take the car into the mechanic today to have them look at it, and they say,
"oh yes, we've seen this car before, I remember the guy that used to have this car"
"So, when did you buy this car from him?"
Thinking about my response, Ah yea, that's it,
"Yes, I bought it from him not too long ago, he was certainly pretty decent about it, he gave me a really good price too".
ANOTHER DAY IN THE LIFE OF BOBBIE JO
I JUST LOVE BEING A TGIRL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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June 26th
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Michael Jackson, dead at age 50.
I don't know what happened, but my personal belief is that when he was burned filming that Pepsi commercial some time ago, I think he was hurt far more than anyone was letting on, including Michael himself.
He was one of the greatest entertainers of all time. I love his music.
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June 27th
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I had my bottom up last night, oops, I mean we went to Cocktails followed by heading over to Bottoms Up last night.
As usual, this girl had a fabulous time.
The only downer was as we were leaving, I stepped on a soft piece of grass to get into the car, my heel got caught, my foot turned, and I broke my 7 inch heels.
WHINE ! OH NO!
Michelle is going to take them somewhere and see if she can get them fixed for me. She is a great friend..
I hope, I hope, I hope. I love those shoes.
At bottoms up, I played on the stripper pole some more, I just can't get enough of a nice hard pole.
Then we went downstairs, watched the drag show, and this particular girl got up on stage and did a slow, sensuous dance.
I was asked if I was a stripper. "No honey, I'm a transsexual, full time, 24X7".
"REALLY?, I thought you were a GG". I have been getting that a lot lately. Many people have told me that I look very good, and that my moves, my makeup, my legs and arms, and yes, now even my body are quite feminine. The fact that the "girls" have finally started peeking out of their hiding place is also helping in this obviously. (I credit my ability to pass for a GG to my many great friends who gave me lots of makeup and clothes tips, I want to say a special thank you to Linda and Domina Elizabetha especially. Linda gave me my first help with makeup, and Domina Elizabetha was the lady who saw the woman hiding in me and showed me the way to happiness and to be my true self.)
Anyway, back to last night's story, Someone else chimed in and stated that I was playing on the stripper pole upstairs earlier.
Yet another great night in the life of Bobbie Jo, now if Michelle can just get my shoes fixed.
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June 29th
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THANK YOU MICHELLE. Thank you so much for finding a place that can fix my 7 inch stripper shoes. You are a great friend, thank you very much.
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June 30th
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This girl is in the mood to dance and play on the stripper pole again.
I may just take my tushy over to Bottoms Up Tuesday night.
July may be my last month in cleveland, so I am going to enjoy it while I can. I have yet to find a place with a stripper pole in columbus, but I am currently doing extensive research on that issue.
Bottoms up Tuesday night, 6/30/09, I may get there around 9:30-10 p.m.
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July 1st
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I went out to Bottoms Up nightclub last night, this time in my six inch stripper shoes that my sister bought me for my birthday.
I went with Michelle, a very attractive transsexual. We had a good time. She even got up and did kareoke.
I've been on stage dancing and doing lip syncing, but haven't done kareoke yet, maybe sometime soon.
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July 2nd
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I love this song by K.D.Lang, it is one of my favorites.
Are you breathing What I'm breathing Are your wishes The same as mine
Are you needing What I'm needing I'm waiting for a sign
My hands tremble My heart aches Is it you calling
If I'm alone in this I don't think I can face The consequences of falling
Are you thinking What I'm thinking Does your pulse Quicken like mine
Are you dreaming What I'm dreaming I can't read your mind One step towards you Two steps back Feels like I'm crawling
If I'm alone in this I don't think I can face The consequences of falling
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July 3rd
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It is my hope that one day we can all be accepted for who we are, no matter whether we are gay, straight, bisexual, lesbian, or transgendered.
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July 4th
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Yes, I know this one is a day early, I just wanted to wish everyone a happy and safe July 4th.
Have a great time, and be careful with fireworks.
My two favorite bars to hang out in are: Cock and Tails, oopsie, I mean Cocktails, and My Bottom is Up on the stripper pole, oops, I mean Bottoms Up.
In other news, this has become my new favorite link:
http://www.platinumstages.com/
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July 5th
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I think I will go to Home Dept on Monday and get some boxes to start packing up some of this crap.
Throw out a lot, sell some, and pack the important stuff for my move.
I will stop by Executive Den for a job tomorrow too, not that I expect much of anything to come from that, but hey, I've heard no a lot of times lately, so one more time won't mean much.
I have an appointment with the real estate agent on Tuesday about selling the house
I'm supposed to be doing training tomorrow for the Transgender anti-discrimination legislation we are trying to get passed, but honestly I am so tired right now, I don't know if I will make it there. Maybe, I know it is a very important cause. .
Tuesday night is the phone bank for it, and Wednesday is some event for it as well..
I am just getting so tired, and I am starting to wear myself down and I need to stop that, because I don't have health insurance and I really can't afford to be sick.
I have a lot of work upcoming trying to get the house ready to be sold, and for moving out of here, and I am not exactly looking forward to packing up all of this crap,
I think a lot of stuff is going to find its way into the trash can, including the oak computer desk, for some reason no one is volunteering to move that one..
Time for bed, I'm tired as hell right now, but sleep is not coming easy to me.
Oh well, maybe I can hopefully make a few dollars tomorrow to put gas in the car and some food in the refrigerator.
I see they put my ad looking for a stripper position up this weekend, maybe I will get some calls and possibly a job from it this coming week, I could use the money. I will keep my fingers crossed.
OKay, I mean it this time, I am going to try and go to sleep. It's 2:44 in the morning right now.
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July 7th
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Why exactly is the idiotic "service engine soon light" on again in my car?
Didn't we just go through this last week?
Hey car, knock it off, I don't have any money right now
Anyone want to buy a 2002 Camaro z28 ?
I'll just start driving the 1966 Caprice everywhere.
I hope that stripper job comes through, of course the main problem is that there's a lot of competition out there right now.
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I talked to a realtor today about selling the house.
She suggested I try and talk to the mortgage company about doing a "short sell". I guess I will contact the mortgage company tomorrow and get that process started.
Michelle, (another transsexual) also suggested a place today for me that can offer mortgage help too. I am going to look into that as well.
Putting my current situation into words, if I had a choice between:
1 Saving my house and going back to work for Progressive Insurance,
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2. Being thrown out on the street, not knowing where my next meal is coming from, ending up being homeless, destitute, and selling my body to eek out a meager existence..
I WILL TAKE BEING THROWN OUT ON THE STREET ANYDAY over working for those brown nosing, kool aid drinking, idiotic goons at Regressive ("Progressive") Insurance.
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July 2009 - Violence directed at LGBT community
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Please be careful out there, there are a lot of idiots in the world.
Columbus, Ohio
BRAVO, has received 3 reports of anti-LGBT attacks in multiple neighborhoods around several LGBT Bars on Friday night of the 4th of July weekend.
The description of the attackers in each incident is very similar and BRAVO strongly believes that these attacks are related and were perpetrated by the same group of assailants.
In all 3 assaults the victims were jumped by a group of 6-7 young men, in well lit and populated areas. The attacks took place between midnight and 2:00 AM.
The assaults involved beating, kicking, and punching with “brass knuckles”. Injuries included concussions, stitches, abrasions, bruises, and head injuries; medical attention was required in all cases.
Anti-LGBT language was used in all 3 of the attacks.
If you have been the victim of, or are aware of, similar assaults please contact BRAVO (614-294-7867) or the Columbus Police Department. (614-645-4545)
For further information BRAVO can be reached at 614-294-7867 or 866-86-BRAVO
Description of Perpetrators: Sex: 6-7 Males in a group Race: Caucasian, African American & Latino Age: Early 20’s
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July 8th
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My good friend Michelle took me over to Executive Den this morning, and the girls there were extremely nice to me, they even let me perform on stage to two songs.
My moves need some work, and I certainly wasn't expecting to be on stage dancing this morning, I was simply going over there to check the place out.
Thank you to the girls and management at Executive Den.
That was an enjoyable start, that absolutely made my day. I will always cherish and remember this moment.
Thank you Michelle for taking me there.
Bobbie Jo
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Why was I born with the wrong genitiala ?
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July 9th
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Darn it, I hate it when I don't write the phone number down correctly, but have deleted the answering machine message already so I can't replay it. Ditto for when someone gives me a number and then I forget where I put it, or I don't write their name with the number, and it's like okay, whose number is this?.
Hopefully you will call back.
No, I am not ignoring you, I'm just a little too brunette for my own good. (Everyone who knows me says I have blonde roots).
So, call back please, thank you.
Bobbie Jo
Well that was certainly bizarre, he was acting awfully suspicious, I wonder if he was coming here to rape me, rob me, kill me, or all three.
I am extremely glad that my roommate was home with me, that could have turned out very bad otherwise.
Bobbie Jo
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July 10th
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A very kind person posted this comment on my facebook page today, and it touched my heart.
"I was just reading your profile and its so great to see you living your life the way that makes you happy. more people in this world could learn alot from you. you've inspired me to feel more proud of myself"
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July 12th
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I am going to see if I can get enrolled in this, I would love to be an exotic dancer, that would make me very happy.
http://www.xexercise.com/classinfo.html
I think I will throw on my bikini and jump in the hot tub.
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July 13th
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I have started using the Peggy Bundy approach to paying the bills.
I throw all the bills up in the air, and the ones that land face up are the lucky ones I pay this month.
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July 14th
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I am trying to get registered in an exotic dance class so hopefully I can get a job at a stripper club.
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July 15th
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROB.
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July 16th
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I just don't want to end up being a burden to anyone and that is all I am going to say today.
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July 17th
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On Friday, July 17th, I will be having a good time and enjoying life at Southbend Night club in Columbus, OH from around 10:45 p.m. or so until the wee hours of the morning.
Meanwhile, From facebook - Bobbie took the "What Type Of Girl Are you" quiz and the result is "Blonde Bimbo" (well, people do say that I have blonde roots)
So, people dont see you as the brightest star in the sky but you know deep down past all those stupid things you've said and done there is smartness in you, and as long as you know that all those names out there cant hurt you. you are very beautiful and you know that, so keep it up! p.s. YOU ARE NOT STUPID!
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July 18th
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I did a striptease on stage at Southbend Nightclub in Columbus Friday night and I had a great time.
I wish I could be up on stage, dancing and strutting my stuff for a living, but I guess that is not to be, too much competition, and I need to face facts, I mean who really wants to hire a 51 year old pre-op transsexual as a dancer? Answer: no one. (and I'm certainly not getting any younger)
I could suck cock for a living since I do that fairly well, ,but for some reason which I will never understand, a woman can give away her body scott free, but if she tries to make some money off of it, then and only then does it become a crime. What group of lunatics wrote that stupidity? Personally, I think we ought to take about 95% of the laws in this country and throw them in the trash can. I know, I have an idea --> Bobbie Jo for president, my campaign slogan, THE BULLSHIT STOPS NOW.
On another note, I was a member of a yahoo group that "supposedly" was created to help transsexuals with hormone questions, however there is someone on there that thinks that not answering a valid question and that being a smartass is perfectly okay, and sorry, but I've had quite enough lately of idiotic morons that think they are god's gift to the world. I left the group for good, and I will find another way to get my hormone questions answered. I am quite tired of dealing with idiots.
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July 18th - #2
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I can tell that I must be in my "pms cycle". My emotions have been up and down over the last few days, sometimes crying for the silliest reasons, plus I feel like I have water gain. I can only imagine what some GG's go through.
Aren't hormones a wonderful thing? I only wish I could get pregnant and start a family, medical science probably won't catch up in time for me, but hopefully it will be possible for girls like me in the future to give birth to children and raise a family.
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July 18th - #3
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Maybe one day stupid here will actually learn not to step on soft surfaces in seven inch heels.
Back to the shoe repair shop we go.
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July 19th
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TWO OUT OF THREE ISN'T BAD:
PMS moments aside, Even though my financial health is in the toilet right now, I am very lucky to have excellent emotional health and physical health.
I am probably in the best shape of my life, and I have many great friends and a wonderful family that keeps my emotional well being at a good level.
Finally living my life as I should have been doing all along.
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There shouldn't be any damn consequences to living our lives as the people we were meant to be all along.
I am so very sick and tired of the term GID.
Did people who are living their lives as their birth gender have to go through therapy because they live their lives as a woman or a man? Answer: No.
So my question to the world is: why in the hell do I have to go through therapy just because I was born with a birth defect I am trying to get corrected?
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July 20th
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Doing what I need to do to survive.
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I may go to Bottoms Up nightclub in Lakewood Tuesday night, I hear there is a very lonely stripper pole there that has been missing me.
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Okay, that's the second time in 2 weeks I have been ripped off. My stupidity for trusting people, and thinking people will do the right thing. When will I ever learn?
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I submitted the paperwork for possible mortgage help today. We'll see if I get any. I have a phone appointment to discuss options in more detail with them on Friday, 7/24
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Well, anything else want to happen to me today? What did I do wrong here? I know I'm certainly not beautiful, but I don't quite think I'm butt ugly either.
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July 21st
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Electrolysis day again.
I sure will be glad when I am done with this.
I do appreciate all of the hard work that Carol has put into making me be more feminine. She has done a wonderful job turning me from an ugly duckling into a reasonably attractive swan. Lord knows she has put a lot of work into me, and I appreciate it greatly.
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July 22nd
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You find out who truly loves you and who your real friends are when going through transition.
People who don't like it and can't accept it were obviously never that important to begin with..
I watched Chloe's special on ABC news last night and I bawled my eyes out. Some of what she has been through I have been through myself.
I can remember wanting to run my car into a tree at a high speed and kill myself because I didn't like my former self at all. I can remember many times sitting in the car, about a mile away from the spot I had picked out where I would hit the tree. A few times I even did a "practice run" to make sure that I would have enough speed by the time I hit it. I never felt comfortable in my previous life. I felt out of place, socially awkward, and very unsure of myself. I absolutely hated getting "dressed up", wearing suits, etc for church or other social functions, leave me in jeans and a tshirt in my former life.. My dad would always keep my hair cut so short, and I hated that, oh my god, I absolutely hated that. The first opportunity I was able to have a say in how I got my haircut, I started wearing it longer. I hated being made to look like a boy. I just dreaded going out in public. Of course, growing up in the 60s and 70s, there wasn't a huge amount of help for the transgendered community, at that age, even I didn't really understand why I had all of these feelings of hate for my body and the way I looked.. If not for my little sister being born, I am pretty positive that I wouldn't be here today, I probably would have succeded in one of my suicide attempts at some point if not for her.
My little sister Jenn and I get along extremely well, and we were always very close, both before and after my transition.
I am finally living my life as the woman I should have been all along, and I am so much happier now. (even if I do go off on a pms rant every once in awhile).
Now that I am finally living my life as the woman I should have been all along, I love getting dressed up to go out, sometimes I dress a little slutty of course, but other times dressing very much the lady with an evening gown, or other beautiful dress. I love getting all dolled up to go out, it makes me feel so wonderful and special, and very much in touch with my true self.
http://abcnews.go.com/Primetime/MindMoodNews/popup?id=8100642'
http://abcnews.go.com/Primetime/MindMoodNews/Story?id=8126749&page=1
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July 24th
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If I can ever afford SRS, this is the doctor that I want to have my surgery scheduled with:
SRS - Dr. Marci Bowers
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Tuesday, I am going to ask the doctor I go to for laser hair removal if they also do genital laser hair removal, (in prep fpr SRS).
A friend just sent me a great facial video, with several guys jacking off onto a girls face, I wish I was the girl in that video. I'd love to do a porn video.
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July 26th
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I saw this posted on another tg message board by a member there, and I couldn't have said it better myself.
"Oh yeah and for what it's worth -- YES. My gender is not my disorder. My freakin' malformed BODY is my disorder. Physical illness, not mental. Society's mistreatment of me and my sisters and brothers, that's the disorder"
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July 28th
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Donna Renee Richards, a great lady. She is my inspiration.
I remember the first time I met her, she is a truly wonderful gal, her and her husband are two of the nicest people you could ever hope to meet.
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July 29th
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I remember the fall of 2007 when I was just starting electrolysis and laser hair removal. I had a lot of questions and not many answers.
I wasn't sure if I could ever be considered passable in public.
Two years later I know not only is it possible, it is happening all the time. I have been mistaken for a GG many times lately, which just makes my day. I have received many great compliments and people have been very polite, and also extremely nice and kind to me as well.
I love going to the beach, wearing my bikini. I have been hit on quite a few times, and I'm smiling and thinking to myself:"If only you knew what was under this bikini bottom" (but hopefully it won't be there one day).
I am so very happy and comfortable with myself now. Early in 2008, I could never imagine leaving the house without makeup, lots of makeup back then. Today I do this on a routine basis. I feel so alive, so very happy, and so wonderful that my dream of womanhood is finally coming true.
We are down to the last three electrolysis appointments, YEA, I love Carol and the excellent job she has done on me, but I won't miss the weekly electrolysis sessions. It has been a long road, and I have had my setbacks and my disappointments, but with the help of family and many wonderful friends, and my dear boyfriend Rob, I have successfully made it through.
FINALLY LIVING MY LIFE AND COMFORTABLE WITH MYSELF AS THE WOMAN I SHOULD HAVE BEEN ALL ALONG.
Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine the number of other people that felt the way I did. I have been amazed by the number of other transsexuals I have met, both ftm and mtf. There are a lot of us out there, and for each one of us that makes that transition, it will be easier for the next person. Society is beginning to accept us, it has taken far too long for this to happen, and there are still many challenges ahead for myself and other transgendered people. I am also amazed at the number of crossdressers out there as well, I have met so many of you and you have simply been wonderful to me. I can not thank each and every one of you enough.
To all the other girls out there, many of you still in the closet, that first step to take is the hardest, they really do get easier after that first one. I was nervous and very unsure of myself at first, but once I saw that this was really possible, I felt such an overwhelming sense of relief. I won't say that is has been all roses, but I am so very happy to finally be at this point in my life, comfortable with who I am, and the many great friends, and family I have around me. I wish the many future ladies out there all the best, and if you ever have any questions you'd like to ask me, I will try and answer anything I can. Feel free to contact me at my email: goldshow@yahoo.com
I had a great talk with a former co-worker and friend of mine today, he emailed me this morning, and called me this afternoon, we had a very nice chat. I asked, so how did you find out? I got the story, he was sent a link to my website from someone else who asked him "Have you heard from so-and-so, and at first, after looking at the pics, he's like no way. Then as he started looking very closely at some of my older pictures, he figured it out. He then told someone else, "Go to this website and look who this is". He kept trying to tell the other guy who I was in a former life, and the other guy said, No way, can't possibly be" It wasn't until I sent him an email with my username set to Bobbie Jo that the lightbulb finally clicked on.
Have a great day, and enjoy your life. Always remember, we don't stop playing because we grow old, we grow old because we stop playing.
Bobbie Jo
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July 30th
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Some people are scared of tgirls, I am not sure why. I guess too much "conditioning" from society all through the years.
We don't bite, and in many ways, we are more womanly than most GG's (genetic girls) are.
We also know how to please men very well, I've been told that I was born to please men, and I think I do a darn fine job at that.
So, if you have a chance to meet or date a transsexual, I say go for it, don't be shy, you just might find the love of your life.
What's between our legs (or in the case of the more fortunate tgirls, what was between our legs) does not define who we are.
My hope is that one day, web pages like this one will no longer be needed, because we will all respect each other for who we are.. Remembering our dead.
I don't know why, but I got to thinking about, how would people find out if someone killed me or if I died in an accident? My roommate would probably realize something wasn't right when I wasn't around. Rob would wonder where I was, as well as would my family and my close friends. However, what about those people who I just communicate with via email, yahoo messenger or on facebook? How would they know I wasn't here anymore? I'm not sure I have an answer to that one. I guess they would figure it out when I'm not responding to emails or messages anymore. I think the thing that would bother me the most is not being able to give people a hug, thank them for their wonderful companionship/friendship, etc. and not being able to say goodbye. Don't know why this is on my mind today, but it just is, hopefully it isn't a sign of things to come.
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July 31st
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A couple of people have suggested that maybe I might have the XXY chromosone.
My mom (after she watched Chloe's special on ABC, yea mom, I am so glad you watched that).
My good friend Mike also suggested it too.
I don't know if that is the case or not, but if I ever get health insurance again, maybe I will find out one day.
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August 3rd
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Entirely too much junk in this place. I don't want to move all of this crap. What the heck did I keep some of this stuff for? Looks like the trash can is going to be full for each of the next few weeks. Time to get back to having only what I need to survive.
I am so very fed up with the rat race. Too many of the american people are a bunch of sheep, but not this girl. I will NOT be walked all over anymore.
I will die first before I put up with that nonsense again.I hope one day that the american sheeple will wake up and quit being trampled upon. I wish our forefathers were here today.
I have a fuck it all attitude. If more people had this attitude, the world would be a better place, and there wouild be a whole lot less bullshit to deal with.
I closed all my bank accounts and my 401ks, I will keep one credit card in the event of an emergency, and that is it. Other than having that one credit card, this girl will be CASH ONLY from here on out. I am fed up with being RIPPED OFF by banks, wall street and corporate america. Hey banks, up yours, you ripped off BILLIONS of TAXPAYER money (including MY taxpayer money) with this so-called stimulus. So, guess what that means, all of my credit card bills, etc are now considered PAID IN FULL. Every other american needs to tell you people the same damn thing. You can take my credit rating and shove it, I won't need that nonsense ever again.
Bobbie Jo for President, put me in charge of this country, I'll create jobs in a heartbeat, and it will be the AMERICAN PEOPLE getting big stimulus checks, and NOT corporate america.
I am paying the bills I can pay via money order or COLD, HARD CASH from now on. No more bank account, no more checks.
In other news, I am going to two strip clubs this week to see if I can get a job there..
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August 4th
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Torture treatment day. Yea, only a couple more electrolysis appointments after today. Thank goodness. I will be extremely happy when the last of the hair is gone from my face. That will be a major milestone for me.
After I get back from torture treatment, (and paying a few bills), I will be working on throwing more stuff away in preparation for moving.
Let me know your opinion on the topic below, thank you.
should I close this site down? Yes, no, or don't care?
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August 5th
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So, let's see, would it be a bit too over the top if I put a billboard out on the highway saying:
"BOBBIE JO - ADULT VIDEO SLUT WANNA BE, GET 49 OF YOUR FRIENDS TOGETHER AND CONTACT THIS BUKKAKE VIDEO WHORE AT xxx-xxx-xxxx"
Why is everything I like to do illegal or immoral?
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August 6th
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Bill paying day today. I threw them all up in the air and the lucky ones that landed face up were the ones that got paid.
The Peggy Bundy method of paying bills.
Right now, I am concentrating on paying utility bills, so i can keep the house lights on, a/c and water running.
Throwing away more crap in preparation for eventual moving day
Everytime I think I'm getting somewhere in the rat race, they make faster rats, so I finally decided, the heck with the rat race, I will be at the nearest party, partying my a** off and enjoying life
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August 7th
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I read a great friend's journal entry on www.urnotalone.com and I couldn't have said it better myself. I will post just some of the lines from her entry here, with some of my commentary included. :
"I hear many stories of how some trans-sexuals have to still be male because of families & jobs. I want to say that is bogus nonsense, because if you are for real about who you are & who you want to become, then quit making yourself miserable & unhappy & trying to do the "right thing" for everyone else, and instead start making yourself happy"
BobbieJo - I agree, Quit listening to what other people telling you is "best for you". These people are nothing but busybodies that want to tell you how you should be living your life. FUCK THEM AND THE HORSE THEY RODE IN ON. Only you can make yourself happy, no one else.
"It may hurt & may cost someone their family or even friends, but why sacrifice your happiness, sometimes you have to lose to win, no matter the cost. Some people understand, some don't"
"No one should have to hide who they are just to make someone else happy, no one should be considering suicide, or mental health issues because of who they want to be. I know some families won't understand, but that is their loss because you know who you are & you are a great person no matter who you want to become, you are still YOU, & the love you have will never change"
BobbieJo - This is exactly the way I feel too. Transitioning to a woman has cost me a lot, (and not just money wise), but it has given me so much more in return. I have so many wonderful friends, a great support system around me, some of the most caring and kind people I have ever met in my life. The best parts about transitioning to a woman are that I am FINALLY in the right persona, I am at long last comfortable and happy with myself, and that I no longer think about committing suicide.
Bobbie Jo
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August 10th
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Possible job offer in Portsmouth, New Hampshire.
They are supposed to call me about the details in the morning, we will see, I have already been through the interview process with them, and they were asking me about a start date. This would be $60 per hour, so decent change, and for some stupid reason I will never understand, selling my body seems to be against some dumbass archaic law. .
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August 11th
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I've had more sperm in my hair, in my mouth, on my tits, down my throat, and on my face than all of the sperm banks have combined.
Bobbie Jo, the sperm bank, your deposit is safe with me.
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Looks like I am off to New Hampshire for a few months.
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August 12th - Torn between two worlds
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On the one hand, I will miss my many great and close friends, and I can not even begin to put into words how much I am going to miss Rob.
On the other hand, I have bills that need to be paid, and I need money.
I should have gotten out of that toxic hell hole called oppressive insurance back in July of 2008 when I had that job offer from Citizens Bank.
My heart is aching right now, think I will go cry myself to sleep, wish I had someone here to hold me. I could use a pair of arms wrapped around me, holding me tight.
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Frustrated, annoyed and heartbroken that I won't have time to say everyone I'd like to say goodbye to. I don't understand life's twists and turns. Sometimes I almost wish I didn't have a heart so at least it wouldn't be broken when I have to make a hard decision.
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August 20th
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I am working in Portsmouth, New Hampshire at Liberty Mutual currently.
I am desperately trying to find a room to rent for the next few months.
I plan on being back in Ohio, maybe heading to warren for GNO the third saturday in September.
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August 25th
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I still need to get my computer working, have to find a wireless internet company.
I am using my landlord's computer right now. all is well with me, I hope everyone else is doing okay too.
I went to Club 313 on saturday night in my stripper outfit (7 inch heels, etc) and I partied and danced my a** off. I had such a good time, I think I am going there again this coming weekend. They had a great drag queen show too.
Yesterday, I went out to dinner by my lonesome, went to Applebee's and I had a nice meal. (I NEVER WOULD HAVE GONE OUT TO EAT BY MYSELF IN MY FORMER LIFE, just goes to show how I truly am living my life as the woman I should have been all along. I am much more at ease with myself, with others, and a whole hell of a lot happier with my life. I haven't been seriously depressed or tried to committ suicide in 2+ years now, almost a record for me.
Today my cat met my landlord's dog (an alaskan malamut (sp). They seemed to get along okay together, no blood was shed.
It has been 10 days since I've had a load of sperm down my throat, what will I do?
I am missing out on my protein, and a girl needs her protein.
I DESPERATELY NEED PROTEIN, CAN ANYONE HELP?
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August 26th
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Thirsty tgirl needs sperm to drink, I need my protein. Maybe I will just rob the local sperm bank.
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August 27th
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I had someone suggest that I change my web profile from female to male. I can GUARANTEE you that WON'T be happening.
He seems to think that gender is what is between our legs, boy, are you in for a rude surprise.
I tried straightening him out some, I don't know if my point got through or not, I guess we will see.
ONCE AGAIN PEOPLE, IT IS NOT MY FAULT THAT I WAS BORN WITH A BIRTH DEFECT.
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IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT - WARNING FOR ALL OF THE LADIES OUT THERE, GG, TG AND OTHERWISE
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I received this email from a "loving and tolerant christian nutjob" today, and people wonder why I hate religious idiots.
save the planet, BAN religion.
I have reported this lunatic to the fbi, the pennsylvania state police, the us district attorney's office and the yahoo account team.
This is mark smith's message to me:
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NO asshole that is GOD definition of gender not the government and if I see a male in a bikini i'll want to shoot him. You are fucked up in your head and if I ever see you I will tell you that. You dont have a birth defect between your leg its between in your head asshole. again YOU ARE FUCKED UP
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I have also included this lunatic's pic, so you girls out there know to be on the lookout for this buffoon.
his yahoo profile is this:
http://profiles.yahoo.com/u/ONY5T3YTETBCDMTTYAAJWGWOPY
his yahoo/messenger id is this:
tankman3650
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August 29th
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First, I want to say a BIG THANK YOU to Oppressive Corporation. I am now making over $1600 a paycheck (EVERY 2 WEEKS) MORE than I was making at oppressive corporation. (and that is NET PAY, after the taxes are already taken out)
Thank goodness I am NOT working at that toxic hell hole called Regressive insurance anymore. The MANAGEMENT IDIOTS and HR GOONS at regressive corporation wouldn't know what it is like to be "progressive" if it bit them in the ass.
For fun news, I am going to club 313 tonight in Manchster, NH. Last week I was there in my stripper outfit and I had a wonderful time. Tonight I think I will do schoolgirl.
CLUB 313
Take care all, and love you, from one of the hottest tgirls on the planet.
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September 4th
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I have got to be one of the most fortunate tgirls on the planet, I have a wonderful family, many great friends, wonderful co-workers, etc. I am extremely fortunate that I have such a wonderful group of people to support me. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart to each and every one of you.
I have my bikini packed and I am off for a weekend of boating, camping, flat out fun, and just all around enjoying life. I also plan to be drinking lots of sperm this weekend as I have been missing out lately. I am a thirsty little whore.
I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday weekend. Love to all of you, Bobbie Jo
Bobbie Jo, hot, sexy, and very playful tgirl
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September 8th
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What A great time I had this past weekend. I went camping with the love of my life (Rob) and I had a great time.
Friday night, we went to the adult video store and Rob got me a vibrating butt plug, now I have to say that was freaking awesome. I loved it.
Saturday morning (2 amish), we were in his parents hot tub, me in my bikini, and I gave him a blowjob and drank a delicious load of sperm down my throat. Yummy !
Sunday morning, I got fucked but good, and ended up with another load of sperm in my tushy, yea ! My panties were a little soaked, lol.
I almost killed myself climbing out of the boat, but other than that I had a great time. Probably if we had been videotaping that, I might have made it on America's Funniest videos for the $10,000 prize. I was in the boat, went to climb out, and fell backwards over the edge, hurting my back slightly, (so pole dancing may be out for a few days this week), got a bruise on my back, and scraped some skin off my foot and hand. Other than that, I am alive and kicking.
Anyway, after my fall, and regaining my composure, (and what was left of my pride), we went swimming.
We had corn on the cob, watermelon, cantelope (hmmm, I love cantelopes).
What a great weekend, I can't wait for another one like that.
Well, back to work for now. (at a real company, obviously not oppressive insurance)
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September 9th
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Got notice from credit card company, (the one that I had been keeping for emergency purposes).
They want to raise my rate to 25%, well guess what this girl said, I said an impromptu FUCK YOU, and take your card and shove it up your ass. I CLOSED THE ACCOUNT. FUCK THE DAMN BANKS, I CAN GET A BETTER INTEREST RATE FROM THE MAFIA.
sorry bank idiots, but you will NOT be RIPPING OFF THIS GIRL ANYMORE. I HAVE HAD IT WITH YOU BUNCH OF FUCKING BUFFOONS. SAVE AMERICA, GET RID OF ALL OF THE DAMN BANKS.
On another note, my daughter's birthday is coming up soon, I wonder if her lunatic mother will let me be there too. Actually, I am somewhat surprised that the bitch hasn't contacted me looking for a handout, but maybe she finally decided to get up off of her FAT, LAZY ASS, and get a damn job.
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September 11th
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Isn't this special, I sent a birthday package to my daughter and it came back "REFUSED". I blame myself, I guess I should have been a little more specific in the addressing. I should have said: To my wonderful daughter SASHA, and NOT her lunatic nutjob "christian" mother.
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September 15th
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I went to club313 saturday night and I had a great time as usual. I met another girl there, and we chatted and had a wonderful time talking about our experiences.
well, dumbass here managed to hurt my pinkie but good. I am not sure if I will lose the nail or not, but I guess I will see. I was trying to move my suitcase, and my fingernail got caught somehow, it didn't tear the nail, but did pull it away from the skin, and it started bleeding.
. In other news, I will be in Warren, Ohio at the Funky Skunk nightclub for Girls Night Out on Saturday, Sept. the 19th
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September 16th
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I will be packing tonight getting ready to fly to Cleveland, Ohio friday night, for the weekend.
This slut will be at GNO saturday night, Warren, OH, at the Funky Skunk at 9:00 p.m. Shall we do a bukkake video while I am there? Question of the day--How many people can we get cumming on my face at one time???
Now I LOVE this video--> I am jealous, can I please be the cumwhore in a video like this one? http://www.spankwire.com/Unknown-Girl-100-Cumshots-In-Mouth/video129731/
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September 21st
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Friday night the 18th, Michelle and I went to Bottoms UP, and of course anytime there's a stripper pole nearby, this slut will be on it pretty quickly. I told my stripper pole I was sorry for being away so long, but I'll do better in the future.
I had a FANTASTIC time at Girls Night Out in Warren, Ohio on saturday night, the 19th of September. I hooked up with a lot of my friends, chatted, danced my tushy off, and partied until the wee hours of the morning (think I got to bed around 4 am or so)
YEA, I FOUND MY NEXT PAIR OF SHOES, and they are on sale too: http://themissionboutique.com/Ellie-X-Juliet-Mega-Platform-Heels.html
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September 23rd
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I added Calpernia's link to my Internet links page. She is truly a very remarkable lady, and one of my heroes. I have a huge amount of respect for this wonderful lady.
http://www.stoppingthehate.com/CalperniaAddams.htm
Tonight, I went to Players, a bar about 35 minutes away from me, and I had a very nice time. Guess what, THEY HAVE A "DANCE" POLE there. I know where this girl will be hanging out a lot from now on. I didn't know they had a "DANCE" pole, otherwise I would have worn something other than a dress. However, my next trip there, I will be in my "DANCE" outfit. Watch out world, Bobbie Jo is on the prowl.
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September 24th
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Gee, I sure am a popular little whore. Then again, maybe it's just the concept of fresh meat, lol. .
I am so very happy that I found a place not far away with a "DANCE POLE", YEA !
Now there is a nudie bar right up the road from my DANCE POLE bar too, but I'm not sure how they would feel about a nude tgirl, especially one that hasn't been through SRS yet, probably would not work.
Bobbie Jo, cute, hot and sexy 51 year old tgirl, although I've heard through the grapevine some rumor that she's a bit of a slut (but that's probably just a rumor)
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September 26th
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September 26th is my daughter's birthday. This is the first time in 9 years that I will be unable to be with my daughter on her birthday. Why you ask? Well, simple, because her mother is a raving, psychotic lunatic "christian" bitch that won't let me be near my daughter because of, oh the horrors, "I am a transgendered female".
So, if you see me out and about this weekend, and I start crying uncontrollably, well, it's nothing personal, I just miss my little girl, and am thinking about her a lot. I can only imagine the lies that her lunatic psycho bitch of a jackass "christian" mother is telling my daughter about me.
ANYWAY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY WONDERFUL AND VERY BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER SASHA DENISE JUSTICE
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SO-CALLED "christian" kathy key
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Hey guys,
1. Do you want to be treated like trash?
2. want to deal with a nutcase "christian" lunatic?
3. want to see your bank account emptied and your credit card maxed out?
4. Do you like pyschopathic nutcases?
Well, if you answered yes to any of the questions above, then I have the perfect woman for you.
Just contact this psycho bitch nutcase on yahoo. http://profiles.yahoo.com/psg1488
(oh, and fyi, don't be fooled by the fact that kathy might suck your cock a few times, that's just to trick you until you're paying for everything for her).
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That's right miss bitch key, MY name is: BOBBIE JO JUSTICE, AND I AM TIRED OF BEING TREATED LIKE GARBAGE by so-called "christians".
The gloves are now off honey, you want a catfight dear, well, you have one.
I HAVE HAD ENOUGH.
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September 29th
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I think I might hit Players Nightclub tomorrow night and go play on the 'DANCE POLE" again. I'm going to see if my schedule allows.
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October 3rd
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In Columbus, OH for the weekend, for my boyfriend's open house party.
I love giving blowjobs. I really do hope that I am able to be the cumwhore in a bukkake video one day soon. I would love to have a bunch of guys fucking my mouth and jacking off all over my face.
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DARN IT !
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Looks like I won't be getting fucked in the mouth until I get to the dentist and get him to recement my crown, which came out this weekend.
DAMN IT, oh well, at least I drank one load of sperm Friday night, and drank two more loads of sperm on Sunday, so that should hold me over for a few minutes anyway.
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October 4th
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Leaving the airport, as I pulled up to the booth to pay my parking bill, the man behind the counter said, "So, have you been taking good care of my car?". Without missing a beat, I said, "Yes, and it drives very nicely too".
He replied, "and what a pretty girl is driving the car as well".
What an angel, I said "thank you dear", paid the bill and went on my way.
I certainly am glad that I didn't listen to the naysayers that said I'd never pass for a GG. No one even gives me a second glance anymore when I use the ladies room, etc.
Bobbie Jo, cute, sexy, and passable tgirl.
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October 5th
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well, I have the dentist appointment set for Wednesday to recement the crown, so yea, I can be sucking cock again very soon.
Thank goodness, if I go more than a few days without a cock down my throat, this girl starts getting antsy.
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October 7th
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Well, one crown recemented, now I need to get the other two crowns fixed. That's just going to have to wait until next week as I do not have the money right now to do that.
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October 8th
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Well, my second crown and the post that WAS holding it in BOTH fell out today, so that is definitely not a good thing.
I can also tell that my third crown is loose as well. Hope I am still able to be fucked in the mouth after all this. Oh well, I guess we will see what the dentist says on Wednesday.
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October 12th
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I went to cash my paycheck today, and the idiotic banks were closed. I guess it must be Wet Sneaker Day or something like that.
Okay, so I have been told by my future mother-in-law that I need to get right on producing babies. Hmmm, yea, I'll get right on that. Apparently she wants to hear the pitter patter of little feet, and my offer to leave the cat at her house for a couple of weeks didn't meet her request
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October 13th #1
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Today is my dad's birthday. He lost his battle with cancer in November of 2000. I can not believe that it has been 9 years since he has been gone.
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October 13th #2
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RANT MODE ON
Now I remember why I closed out all my bank accounts previously. This idiotic tgirl made a mistake about a month ago and opened up a bank account with Citizens Bank.
I have a check I have been trying to get cashed for two days, it is a bank of america payroll check
I took off early yesterday, around 4:00 to go get my check cashed at sham of america, er, I mean bank of america. The buffoons were closed (as was every other damn bank). I guess it was wet sneaker day or something like that.
Today I take off again, 4:15 to once again try and get my check cashed, so I can pay a few things like the rent and to pay for my cat being in the kennel
The bank of america buffoons close at 4:00. FUCKING GREAT
So I go down to citizens where I have a checking and savings account, to get my check cashed. They have to put a hold on the check. WHAT THE FUCKING HELL????????. This is a BANK CHECK you fucking idiots, this is not a personal check, THIS IS A BANK CHECK YOU IDIOTIC BUFFOONS, what the fuck, don't you goddamn banks trust each other to pay the bills? I got disgusted, threw my id at the guy across the counter and said, that's it, I've had enough of this bullshit, close both of my accounts now.>
I seriously considered crashing my car through the front doors of bank of america, leaving them the check and taking $3,800 in cash. .
THIS IS FUCKING ABSURD, I JUST WANT MY MONEY
I CAN GUARANTEE YOU ONE THING RIGHT NOW, IF I EVER GET SELECTED TO BE ON A JURY FOR SOMEONE THAT JUST "ROBBED" A BANK, I WILL LET THEM GET OFF SCOTT FREE
FUCK THE GODDAMN BANKS, I HOPE THEY ALL GO UNDER
RANT MODE OFF
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October 14th
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Well, it is almost official, looks like I will be moving to Columbus, Ohio at the end of October.
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October 15th
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Well, isn't this special. I had a whole bunch of messages on yahoo messenger, and when I went to check them, yahoo messenger crashed and when I signed back in, all of the messages were gone.
Thanks a lot yahoo
So if you sent me a message via yahoo messenger over the last couple of days and wondered why I didn't respond, it's because I never got your message, you will have to resend it
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October 18th
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What a busy weekend, first, on saturday morning I went to see a transsexual friend of mine (Cameron) in Cape Cod. She is just starting her transition, so I am trying to help her in any way that I can. She is a wonderful lady. Then saturday night, I drove to manchester, new hampshire for the Sisters of manchester party. Then, I left there after the party, and drove back to cape cod, spent the night in a hotel, then drove to Staten Island, NY Sunday morning/afternoon to meet a great lady that I have been trying to see for a couple of years, Mistress Caitlin.
I am going to try and catch up on some rest tonight.
With each step we take, it becomes easier, not only for us, but for the girls that will follow us
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October 20th
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Friends don't let friends work @ progressive insurance.
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October 21st
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Remember, I'm not anti-management, I'm anti-moron.
I think I am going to PLAYERS club tonight and play on the stripper, oopsie, I mean DANCE pole, since it is now down to my last 7 days in New Hampshire.
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October 22nd
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It has been ENTIRELY too long since I have had a cock down my throat.
I hope to be sucking cock and drinking sperm again soon. I NEED PROTEIN.
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October 24th
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I am in Cleveland today, heading to the URNA party in Columbus tonight. I had a laser hair removal session today. I also checked with the lady about removing my pubic hair in preparation for my future SRS.
Of course, I still have a lot of other work to do for SRS yet, need financing for it, I also need to discuss the pros and cons with my family, my boyfriend, my friends, etc. The surgery does not come without risks, etc., but if I can at least get the area zapped clean of hair beforehand, that will be a good start. I gave the lady the printout that was on Dr. Marci Bowers website of what area you should get rid of hair, etc. My first session for getting rid of the pubic hair is on November 14th.
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October 25th
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Today was a GREAT day, I sucked cock, drank sperm, and got fucked this morning. That ought to hold me for a few minutes.
I leave Columbus today, heading back to Manchester, NH for three more days, then I am off to Cleveland on the 28th, and leave for Columbus on the 29th to start my new job at Nationwide insurance on Friday the 30th.
Yesterday I learned that my beautician, Barb will be leaving the cleveland area to go to Charleston, SC. I will miss her, she has not only done a wonderful job with my hair and makeup, she has also been very nice to me, and has been a good friend as well. I will miss Barb a great deal. I think I am going to have to pay a visit to Charleston, SC to get my hair and makeup done .
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October 27th
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I think I have made my mind up. I am not going to do anymore laser hair removal on my face. There isn't any real hair there left anyway, except for the little bit that is on my upper and lower lip, and that can be taken care of by electrolysis.
I am going to concentrate the laser hair removal on my pubic area in preparation for possible SRS one day.
I was packing up the car earlier, getting ready to head to Mentor, Ohio on Wednesday night. I will crash there for a few hours early thursday morning before continuing my journey to Columbus on Thursday afternoon / evening. It is about an 11 hour trip from Somersworth, NH to Mentor, OH.
I will be one tired pussy at work on Friday, but it should be an easy day.
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October 28th
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My last day in New Hampshire. I was reflecting back what I have accomplished over the last 2 and 1/2 years, and it has been an amazing transformation. I found a "before" picture from about 3 years ago, and I look at it now, and think to myself, who was that unhappy, sad and depressed soul?
I have been through a wonderful and amazing transition the last 2 and `1/2 years, from an ugly duckling to a pretty hot chick (as people tell me anyway). I feel so much more alive and so much better about life in general. I am so much more comfortable with myself, love getting dressed up and going out. Someone asked me once if I ever saw myself "going back", and I can say loudly and proudly, NO FUCKING WAY. I never want to be that miserable ever again.
Even as recent as spring / summer of 2008, when I would use the woman's restroom, I would get a lot of "second glances", now no one even gives me a second glance anymore. I am just one of the girls, as I should have been all along
For all of you ladies still in transition, or just starting yours, I can assure you that miracles do happen. I could show you a "before" pic and a "now" pic and you would be simply amazed. I know I am. I also know that I am truly happy for the first time in my life.
Love
Bobbie Jo
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November 1st
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I made it to Columbus, Oh thursday evening. My car did a little "low on oil" light which concerned me. I had them do an oil and filter change as I was leaving cleveland, before I headed for Columbus, it seems to be better now.
Friday, I had my first day at Nationwide Insurance. It was an easy day, see my work location, fill out I9 paperwork, etc. I went in at 1pm, and was out at 5pm.
Saturday, we went to a costume store, and I got a cute little cheerleader outfit, complete with pom poms. It is orange and blue, so perfect for this Florida gator. I wore it during the Florida-Georgia game yesterday afternoon, and did a couple of cute little cheers while the game was on
Saturday night, we went to a halloween party, and I wore my pink pussycat costume. I loved it, bought it a couple of weeks ago, at the Mission Boutique in Eastlake, OH. I received several compliments on it, took a few pictures which I will be posting on the website later today.
Today (Sunday), I got fucked good this morning, and drank a nice tasty sperm protein drink. Hmm, Yummy. I am going to finish unpacking the car, do some wash, etc. It will be a just take it easy day. Tomorrow at work I am in orientation all day long, so it will be an easy day tomorrow too. I think I will sign up for their fitness center, see if I can get into an aerobics class or something like that, I guess we will get a tour of the fitness center tomorrow as part of orientation.
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November 3rd
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Monday and Tuesday went okay at work. I signed up for the fitness center, I need to lose a few pounds. I am hoping to get a bicycle for christmas, if not before. I really do want a bicycle, very much.
I still haven't found my way around all the buildings yet, but I am getting there, I will be the girl with the "help, little girl is lost" look on her face
I will be in Mentor on 11/7, 11/14 and 11/21. I have an electrolysis appt on 11/7 and 11/21, and a laser hair removal session on 11/14 on my pubic hair in preparation for future SRS.
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November 4th
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This is a pic of me and my sweetheart, Rob. I care for him a whole lot. This was a pic from May 2009.
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November 5th
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why are some "supposed christians" so full of hate and intolerance?
I'll have a lot more respect for christianity when I see christians starting to actually act christ-like.
I live my life to make myself happy. If other people don't like how I live my life, they can drop dead.
Off to mentor this coming weekend, and another electrolysis treatment.
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November 8th
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Saturday, I went to a benefit for the family of a tgirl that was recently killed in a motorcycle crash. She had no life insurance. I helped out some, I wish I could do more.
If I ever win the big lottery jackpot, there's going to be a couple of people that will not have to worry about money ever again.
I got emotional and cried some during the event, but eventually pulled myself back together. I even danced to a song or two that the DJ was playing. Rob took some pictures which we will have to upload
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November 9th
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SAVE AMERICA, BAN RELIGION. I'm sorry, but I hate nuts like this. These lunatics are a fine example of why we should ban the worship of all sky fairies on this planet.
LUNATIC PREACHERS (but I repeat myself)
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November 11th
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Well, this Saturday I start undergoing laser hair removal treatments on my private area in preparation for future SRS. Little did I know when I started down this road in 2007 where I would end up.
I am proud to say that I couldn't be happier. I should have been born a girl, and I certainly shouldn't have waited this long to fulfill my destiny. However, after 49 years on this planet, I finally started living my life as the gender I should have been born in all along.
The last 2 years of my life have been absolutely wonderful, and I wouldn't trade it for the world, even though I did become unemployed for a time along the way, and my lunatic ex took my daughter (who I love and care about very much) away from me.
I have met so many wonderful people who have helped me, encouraged me, supported me, and been there for me. It has been fantastic. I am very lucky to have so many people that care about me. My friends have been wonderful, and I can not say enough good things about my sister. Thank you Jenn, from the bottom of my heart.
In April of 2008, (only a month after going full time), I met a wonderful man, Rob, he has treated me like a queen and been there for me every step of the way.
I also owe a big thank you to Michelle as well, who has been a great friend through good times and bad.
I am happy, excited and a little nervous thinking about saturday all at the same time.
Bobbie Jo
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November 14th
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My boyfriend Rob found a new charger for my cell phone. Yea, thank you so much dear. Of course, when I got to the house in Mentor, there I found the other one too. It sometimes gets a little frustrating having things in two places, and transporting stuff back and forth.
In 4 hours, I head over for laser hair removal session on my private area in prep for SRS. I am nervous and excited, as this is starting the final stage to become the woman I should have been all along. I have had a wonderful journey to finally get to this point in my life, I just wish that I hadn't waited so long to finally become truly happy.
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I am back from laser hair removal on my private area. It didn't hurt as much as I was expecting. Today marks the start of the final stage in my transition, I am happy and excited knowing that one day I will truly be the woman I was meant to be all along.
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November 15th
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If I am ever able to afford my surgery, this is the lady that I want to do it.
I am thinking of Dr. Marci Bowers for my SRS surgery, I checked the info on her website, in fact, I printed off those pages and gave it to my lady that does the hair removal.
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November 16th
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A Mother's story
Early on, l knew my son Michael was different. While my three other sons begged me to buy them G.I. Joe figurines and were obsessed with football, Michael preferred playing with My Little Pony and taking tap dance lessons.
In Prince Georges County, Maryland where we live, we have a diverse group of friends so the idea of having a gay son didn't scare or shock us. Sure, we feared he had a hard road ahead of him - being bullied at school, getting fired from his job for being gay and facing the possibility that he may never be able to be legally married - but with our love, we knew he was going to be okay.
When Michael turned 16, he told us that he wasn't a gay man. Instead, he was a transgender woman named Michelle who had been dressing as a woman when he left the house. At that point, my husband and I both realized that this was a big deal. My son was now my daughter.
Even though I am an activist and somewhat liberal, I didn't know what being transgender meant. After doing some serious soul searching, my husband and I concluded that our child needed us. Unlike too many of her friends whose parents had kicked them out for being gay or transgender, we were going to open our minds even further than what we thought was possible. It was difficult. But we started going to family therapy and things were slowly getting better.
But everything changed in December 1999, the day my daughter Michelle became the target of a hate crime.
While standing in line with her friends at a club in Atlanta, Michelle was struck in the head with a metal pipe by a stranger who did not like the fact that she was a transgender woman. She fell to the ground and her skull split open.
The doctors weren't very hopeful - they didn't think she was going to make it. As she lay there unconscious, she was unrecognizable. Her head was shaved, there was a V-shaped scar down the side of her face, and she was bruised and swollen.
For weeks, my family, my friends and my minister prayed by her bedside, not confident that we would ever hear her voice again. When she finally woke up, we were ecstatic. But we were realistic that a full recovery was miles away. Michelle had temporary amnesia and didn't even remember me. One day, I asked her if she knew who I was and she said, "No, but you seem like a really nice lady."
Those moments made my heart break, but my daughter was alive and that's all that mattered.
After her attack and full recovery, I reached out to the Gay, Transgender, Lesbian and Bisexual National Hotline for support and was referred to the Sexual Minority Youth Alliance League. They offered me educational workshops about the transgender community and they introduced me to other women like Michelle. Most important, they encouraged me to bond with Michelle on a mother-daughter level. So we started shopping for clothes and makeup together, getting our nails done and hanging out at home more. Now, Michelle feels more comfortable with me and vice versa -she even puts pressure on me to dress more fashionable when going out.
I look at her and I see someone amazing - someone fabulous.
I was fully aware of the homophobia that haunts our community. However, it was not until my child was beaten and left for dead did I ever truly believe that having the courage to be true to oneself could result in being killed. Yet, Michelle's story is not rare. Unfortunately, for many trans women living in the U.S., violence and death are a way of life, especially those who are African American. According to the Human Rights Campaign, 1 in 12 transgender Americans faces the chance of being murdered; while the average person has about a one in 18,000 chance.
From one parent to another, more work needs to be done to protect our children regardless of their sexual orientation and gender identity. We are all products of God and deserve to live, be loved and have peace of mind
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November 17th
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Another step towards becoming the woman I should have been all along, I am going to start seeing a therapist in the next week or so. This is so I can eventually get my letter for SRS. I need to get the paperwork filled out that she sent me before my appointment.
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November 18th
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My first appointment with a therapist is Tuesday, November 24th at 6:00 p.m. I am going to see Meral Crane in Columbus.
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November 20th - Transgender Day of Remembrance
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Today is the Transgender Day of Remembrance, a day on which we take a moment to reflect on the trans people who have been murdered this year, and those murdered in years past...
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November 22nd
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If I ever lose (or just flat out decide to quit) an IT job again, I am going to say FUCK IT, go into massage and exotic dancing full time. I am so much happier doing massage and exotic dancing. It just feels so natural to me, and feels like something I should have gotten into years ago. I may do some consulting on ths side, because I did like doing consulting for Liberty Mutual, but that would be about it as far as other work. At least as a consultant, you don't get bothered with the usual management stupidity. Where do they find some of these cretins? I can see the help wanted ad for a manager position now. Must read something like this. Wanted: manager, must be a complete fucking moron with no common sense whatsoever.
I am not sure this nationwide thing is going to work out, but I will give it some time yet. It's still early. I just don't like a few signs I am seeing, unfortunately reminds me why I absolutely despise corporate america.
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November 23rd
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Tonight, I am filling out the last of my paperwork for my appointment with the therapist Tuesday evening.
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November 24th
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I had my first therapy appointment with Meral Crane today. She is a wonderful lady and I highly recommend her. I look forward to receiving my SRS letter from her in 2010.
I am going to Florida this weekend for Thanksgiving. I have my next appointment with Meral Crane on December 15th.
Now I need to work on getting funds together for SRS, so that one day I can become the woman I should have been all along.
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November 27th
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Wow, I just hit 10,000 hits on my web page. Amazing, Thanks to each and every one of you. Bobbie Jo - I am the best cocksucker in the eastern united states. If there's anything you want to see that isn't on my website yet, then please send me an email: goldshow@yahoo.com
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November 28th
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I am spending Thanksgiving with my family. I played Scrabble with my sister yesterday and I am going to go over my sister's again today. We are going to watch the Florida Gators play Florida State this afternoon.
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December 2nd
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I had a minor physical today to check my cholesterol level and my BMI. I filled out the paperwork and the nurse said, "Oh honey, you forgot to fill out gender", she said "well, you're obviously female", and she checked the female box. Only my gynecologist and I (and a few close friends) know for sure.
My BMI is 24, which is good, my blood pressure is 116/78 (again pretty decent).
I will get my cholesteroal level results in a couple of days.
Bobbie Jo, a truly happy girl since fall of 2007.
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December 3rd
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I was very upset earlier, I did not know where my watch and my beautiful butterfly ring were at. However, two hours of tearing the house apart later, I finally found them, thank goodness. I am now packing the suitcase to head to cleveland this weekend.
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December 5th
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I am unable to see the Florida - Alabama SEC championship game at the house. Oh well, if the gators win, I hope someone gets me a dvd of it for christmas.
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December 6th
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well great, now I have lost my cell phone. great, just great. I don't know what to do with the phone contacts that I had. I don't remember several of the numbers. Hopefully someone finds it and turns it in.
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December 7th
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Yea, thank goodness. Michelle found my cell phone. Thank you so much my dear, you have truly been there many times for me in a time of need. I owe you dinner this coming weekend. Thank you again dear, your friendship means a lot to me.
I got my health numbers today, some are okay, a few others I need to work on.
My total cholesterol: 198 (okay, but want to get this down a little)
ldl 133 (borderline high, I need to work on this)
glucose 93
Triglycerides 53 (very good)
hdl cholesterol 54 (need to come down slightly)
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December 9th
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So I find out today that I am supposed to be giving a presentation to senior management tomorrow. Plus I am already taking a class this week (monday through thursday).
Well gee, mighty white of them to give me some notice about this presentation. I expressed my displeasure with the lack of notice in no uncertain terms. The more I see this kind of nonsense, the more fed up I get with the horseshit in corporate america. Save america, get rid of a management moron today.
Seriously thinking about doing massage and exotic dancing full time and getting the fuck out of computers. Except for missing my friends, I was actually pretty happy working as a consultant at Liberty Mutual in Portsmouth, NH.
I would be so much happier if i was able to do exotic dancing and massage full time. I am going to consider my options this weekend. I may even start working on my campain for president of the united states in 2012, yea, I think it's time we had a tgirl for president, someone with common sense who won't sell out the american people to the oil companies, banks, and other corporate america idiots. I already have the perfect campaign slogan - THE BULLSHIT STOPS NOW
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December 10th
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Packing, getting ready to head to Cleveland after work on Friday.
I should have transitioned in my teens, then I could have been a stripper and would be truly living my dream right now. Massage and exotic dancing - my dream jobs.
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December 13th
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Well, I haven't been getting many requests for massage lately. I guess I will chalk it up to the holidays and people are busy getting ready for christmas.
However, I think that my ultimate career choice, one which I would probably be most happy with is as a call girl. That is one that I am best suited for, after all, my initials are BJ for a reason. .
Bobbie Jo, hot, cute, sexy, passable tgirl (and much more feminine than most GGs)
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December 14th
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I had another session with my therapist tonight. She complimented me on my feminine voice and she asked me how I accomplished it. She also gave me the name of a beautician here in Columbus. My next appointment is on January 11th.
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December 16th
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Oh yes, bunch of guys coming on my face, I would love it. I like this video. http://www.xhamster.com/movies/136643/bukkake_mix_4.html
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December 17th
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When you see a transgender woman, you're looking at one of the most beautiful women in the world. You're looking at a lady who posseses the true essence of a woman. Many men desire her, but dare not cross that line that can open not only the eyes, but the heart, the soul,,, and dare I say the truth. For every man that seeks a woman seeks one that not only knows his true nature, but also understands the core of who and what he is. A transwoman is just such a woman, for she herself was there once, she has lived a portion of her life as a male, and she has never forgotten what drives a man. This Transgendered Lady knows you and it scares you. It frightens every notion and understanding you had of your sexual being. Your very core is shakened. She understands your desires and can satisfy you like no other woman. She is the future and the future is now. Her vulnerability is her strength. To be vulnerable as a transgendered lady, she must endure and face ridicule from those around her. She must gather strength from within and without to fullfill the feminine nature she holds in order to do what many biological women suppress. She in essence is more female and therefore more desirable because of these qualities. This is the dilemna that men face. The allure of meeting and knowing such a creature can for some men be an exhilerating experience. They discover a beauty that was hidden from them for most of their lives. For she knows you,, she knows your wants your needs because she was there and never forgot. She can move you by her looks. Her voice transmits and hits your very core like a missing puzzle. Her legs give her strength, her hips delite your senses. Her soft nature invites you in to savour her delicious treats. Her hardness lets you know the arousal to be real. Two opposites, the hard and the soft are as one. She allows you to be a man in ways you never knew existed,, for she knows you. She can touch you in ways that tell you and show the real essence of your manhood,, for she knows you. Her nature brings out the hidden man inside of you, the power to really feel something you always wanted but never received from a biological woman. She allows herself to be vulnerable because she never forgot. To be vulnerable is strength, and to give is to be strong. A transwoman will fulfill you, and encourage the man in you to show through. She takes you into that warm place in her soul. She opens up herself and allows you to enter, to feel her from within. You find yourself wanting her. You desire to know her. And in doing so, you discover someone who knows and understands you better than you do yourself. You find in her a true partner who can understand and share that which no other female ever could.
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Enter into Heaven A priest, a minister and a transsexual woman were standing at the pearly gate in front of St. Peter. First the minister spoke up "I fed the hungry, clothed the poor, and spread the word of God throughout the land". St. Peter said unto him "you have done well on earth, but you have sinned against your brother. You shall spend the next 7 year in purgatory to atone for those sins you did commit then you shall enter heaven".
The priest spoke next. "I have done as my brother the minister has, and I have lived a life of sacrifice, humility and chastity. I have served only God, kept only God's laws and I offer my unworthiness to God now". St. Peter reviewed his notes and spoke unto the priest. "You have indeed lived a pious life and yet you too, have sinned, "You shall only have to spend one year in purgatory to atone for your sins".
Next St. Peter turned to the transsexual and spoke softly, "Go in my dear they are waiting for you". The minister and the priest both protested to St. Peter. "Why in all our piety have we been condemned to purgatory when that creature against whom we preached and whom we chastised, merely passes into heaven?' St. Peter simply glared at the two and said, "Boys, thanks to you and the people like you she has already been through hell".
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December 20th
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Hopefully I won't have to be in the hospital for christmas. I will never again try to break up a dog and cat fight. I ended up getting the worst of it. I went to the emergency clinic last night and was given a tetanus shot and a prescription to try and get rid of this infection from the cat bite.
After I got out of the emergency clinic last night, we stopped over at Girls Night Out in warren for a few minutes, but it was really just to say Hi/bye. I was not feeling up to being there for very long, my hand was just bothering me too much. I went back to the house, threw on my bikini and jumped in the hot tub to soak my hand. It feels a lot better today, a fair amount of the redness is gone, it is still swollen, but not as bad as yesterday. Hopefully it will improve even more tonight. I really don't want to have to be in the hospital for christmas, but they told me if its not looking / feeling a lot better by Monday afternoon, then I will be admitted into the hospital to get pumped full of antibiotics.
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December 21st
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Well, 14 is a good start, I'd love to have 50 guys (or shemales, or combination thereof) shooting their cum all over my face, followed by all 50 of them peeing on my face and tits.
Bukkake with 14 shemales
Okay guys, shemales, etc. sign up today to cover me in cum and pee. Send me an email: goldshow@yahoo.com
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don't like gay marriage ? fine, then don't get one and SHUT THE FU** UP.
http://politicalticker.blogs.cnn.com/2009/12/07/new-fight-in-gay-marriage-battle/
I cannot believe we still live in the stone ages. If people of the same sex want to marry, let them. Leave them alone. If this lifestyle does not float your boat, fine but don't throw your creepy morals in the game.
I used to be a regular church goer but these religious creeps have changed my perspective. Preach love and all they emit is hate. Organized religion sucks.
Denying gay people the opportunity to marry the person they were meant to be with makes a mockery of everything this country stands for. We either have 'liberty and justice for ALL' or we don't. We either believe all men were created equal and that they are endowed by their creator with certain unalienable rights, that among them are life, liberty, and the persuit of happiness' or we don't. We either have equal protection under the law for all citizens or we don't. It's time to move beyond the last socially acceptable bigotry and truly live up to what we claim this country is about.
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December 24th
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I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas. It will be the first christmas without being near my daughter, but I will be thinking of her every minute, and hope she can one day get away from that lunatic nutcase so-called "christian" mother of hers. I hope Sasha has a wonderful christmas.
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December 28th
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My goals for 2010
1. get my two letters for SRS
2. get my funds together for SRS in 2011
3. finish the electrolysis on my facial area
4. finish the laser hair removal on my private area in prep for SRS
5. Lose 15 pounds
6. I would love to be in a bukkake porn movie with guys coming all over my face
7. I would like to get a job as an exotic dancer
8. Continue doing massage on the weekends
9. I want to do a wedding photo shoot, with me as the bride. That is one of my dreams.
Finally, my hope for the world is that the "tolerant loving" christians and the "peaceful" muslims quit murdering each other and also that the "tolerant, loving christians" quit treating gay, lesbian, bisexual and transgender people like trash and start respecting and accepting us for who we are.
Bobbie Jo
Email goldshow@yahoo.com
www.tgirlbobbiejo.com
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December 29th
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I think that it is about time that I put a bukkake sign up sheet up on my website. Hopefully I can be the cocksucking whore in a bukkake scene in 2010.
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December 31st
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HAPPY NEW YEAR
I donated blood today, so the question of the day is, will the woman that gets my blood turn into a cum craving, cock sucking whore?????
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January 3rd, 2010
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Happy New Year everyone.
I recently joined a fitness center, and have started working out. I am a member of their 10K A day program, which encourages people to walk the weight off.
I also have an exercise machine at home, the ProForm Carb Counter . Pro Form Carb Counter
My goal is to lose 15-20 pounds so I can be ready for bikini season.
I am hoping to have enough money to have my SRS in the spring (or summer) of 2011. I know my SRS surgeon has about a 9-12 month backlog of surgeries, so this summer, I will be arranging my surgery date for 2011.
May all your hopes and dreams come true in 2010. I am looking forward to 2011 and the fulfilling of my dream of SRS.
Bobbie Jo
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January 7th
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i will be heading to cleveland on Friday afternoon. I have another laser hair removal session on my private area scheduled for Saturday. I thought about the money I spent on laser hair removal, electrolsysis, hormones, etc. and so far I am up to about $10,000. Youch, and that isn't even including clothes, makeup, or beauty parlor appointments. My SRS is probably going to be about $22,000 and I have started saving for it, hopefully I reach my goal by 2011.
I am ready for SRS and to be rid of this stupid feminine boy part. It has caused me nothing but grief. Sometimes I wonder if I have Klinefelter's syndrome. I think I am going to get tested for this in 2010.
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January 11th
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Tonight my therapist told me that in March she would be more than happy to write me the letter approving me for SRS. YEA, I am very happy !!!!!!!!!!
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January 13th
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I joined the 10k a day program at work, (10,000 steps a day) so I can lose some weight.
I did 5,300 steps yesterday, today I am at 8,322.
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I think this job is going to be the death of me, good god almighty. A little common sense would be a good change. I defintely understand why they are on their (at least) 2nd project manager and (at least) third team lead on this particular project.
I'd rather be a call girl, stripper, anything else. I'm reminding myself every minute of the day that I am saving up for my SRS. Is there a rich guy out there that wouldn't mind parting with $20,000 for a cute tgirl?
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January 15th
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In Cleveland this weekend, went to beauty parlor today, am going back there in a couple of weeks to get the complete treatment, hair, manicure, pedicure, makeup, facial (no, not that kind guys, lol, I leave that kind up to you guys to take care of on me)
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January 16th
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I will probably head over to Warren for GNO about 3 pm or so today. I plan to party my ass off this weekend, hell, blowjobs on the dance floor from BJ, the tgirl whore.
I am living proof that an ugly duckling can be transformed into a cute, sexy swan.
The lady doing my electrolysis said that pretty soon we need to cut the hour appointments down to a 1/2 hour because there's not much hair left to work on. YEA, almost done with this !
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January 17th
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Some people are so miserable that they want everyone else to be as miserable as they are.
Live your life as YOU want to, and fuck what everyone else thinks. Only YOU can make yourself happy.
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I LOVE MY LIFE
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I love my life. Whether I am playing on the stripper pole, dancing on the stage topless at a stripclub, spanking a slave's butt while in my mistress outfit, giving massages, or being a cocksucking slut, I enjoy my life to the fullest no matter what I do.
I do not (nor will I ever again) live my life as someone else wants me to. I live my life as I WANT TO.
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January 18th
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Something has happened over the weekend which has left me with a broken heart and has me very sad.
I was hoping (beyond hope) that I would wake up last night, and her car would be in the driveway, with all of her belongings. That would have made my night.
She has been in an emotionally abusive relationship for awhile, her lunatic nutcase spouse does not appreciate her and also treats her like shit, and I keep wanting to go over there, make her pack her bags and get her away from that lunatic nutjob spouse of hers. It takes every ounce of patience I can muster to not go over to her house and drag her away from that lunatic.
Ultimately I realize however, that is not my decision to make. It is hers. She has to want to get out of there. As much as I want to, I can not force that decision.
Whatever she decides, I wish her the best and hope that everything works out for her. I did leave a yahoo group that she posts to regularly because it would hurt me too much to see one of her posts.
So dear, if you read this, I wish you all the best with whatever decision you make. Should you decide to leave that nut, you are more than welcome to stay at my house.
Bobbie Jo
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January 19th
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Doing slightly better today, Rob took me shopping for a little while last night, and then we came home, went to bed early, he gave me a back massage, and then he held me, and we fell asleep in each others arms.
That was exactly what I needed.
We will also be taking more pics this weekend. My digital camera has been broken for awhile now, but this weekend we are going to take some pics of me with a different camera, and maybe some pics of my tgirl friend, Chucki, if she is up for it. She is very cute, she easily puts me to shame. She is a wonderful girl, very attractive, I wish I had her body and face. So either late this weekend, or early next week, check my website for some new pics.
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January 21st
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I am feeling better, plus I am looking forward to the weekend. I am going to the beauty parlor tomorrow morning, and then off to the URNOTALONE party tomorrow night.
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January 22md
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I tried on my bikini tonight. It doesn't look too bad. Those workouts I have been doing at the fitness center are starting to pay off. I'm starting to get back in reasonable shape again. I still have some work to do before bikini season gets here. I am walking, also doing the exercise bicycle, as well as the "cross country ski" exercise machine equivalent.
I want to get my body back in shape for bikini season. Watch out guys, this tgirl is on the prowl, and I'm a
cock-sucking, cum-drinking, ball-draining little slut. I am a thirsty little whore.
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January 23rd
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i got fucked this morning, it felt good to have a nice hard cock in my tight little tgirl tushy. Then when he was ready to cum, I took his cock down my throat and drank all the delicious cum.
I am going to the URNA party tonight
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January 24th
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Weekends go by entirely too fucking fast. I had a very nice time at the URNA party last night. I think we should work for 2 days and have 5 days off, but still get paid the same.
Anyway, we took a bunch of pics of me and Chucki this weekend, so will be downloading and posting those in a couple of days.
I am ready for next weekend.
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January 27th
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I just came back from my first mammogram. It was extremely easy, they didn't even give that stupid M on my drivers license a second look. Hopefully in 2011, that will finally be changed to an F.
I have a lot of pics that I am in process of uploading, and they should be posted on my website today or tomorrow. Look for a new pics page soon.
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January 30th
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I had another electrolysis appointment today. I am in the home stretch for my electrolysis, not much left to do. I started having electrolysis done in the fall of 2007, and we are almost done. Not much hair left to take care of. YEA! I even feel comfortable these last few months wandering around town without makeup on.
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January 31st
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Tuesday I have a doctor's appointment for a physical, and I should also get the results of my mammogram too. Then after my doctor's appointment, I am heading over to my group meeting with other transgendered people.
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February 1st
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Hmm, I think I should put a "contact me form" on my website. You know the type, "Contact me if you and 49 of your closest friends would like to coat my face with your hot cum and delicious pee".
Time for a cum covered tgirl bukkake
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February 2nd
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My mammogram results came back today, all normal, and my physician wrote me a prescription for more estrogen and testosterone blocker
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February 6th
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WANTED: Job where management isn't a bunch of dumbfucks, and I am geographically close to the people I care about. Liberty Mutual was a great place to work, only issue of concern was that it was very far away from the people that are close to me.
I am close to going back to doing massage, and escort full time. I was a lot happier doing that. I was also making fairly decent money doing that as well.
If I wasn't trying to save money for my SRS, I wouldn't be working at Nationwide right now, I'd be doing massage or working at one of the strip bars in town or something along those lines. Who knows, if this nonsense at work keeps up, maybe I will just have to forget about my dream of SRS.
Still hoping to live out my dream of getting my face covered in cum by you and 49 of your closest friends, maybe a bukkake movie with me invading the boys locker room as the plot. Hmm, now that sounds wonderful.
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February 8th
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WOW. I just received an email today asking me if I was interested in working at Liberty Mutual again.
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February 9th
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Snow, snow, and more snow....after going up the interstate ramp sideways, nearly getting into an accident, I turned around at the next exit and came back to the house to work from home today.
Now what do I do about the call from Liberty Mutual?
Wish I was getting my face covered in cum today.
I was on webcam a little earlier, (even got completely naked) and received a great compliment. One of the people watching me thought I looked to be about 35. Yea, that's it, I am 35. I don't think they believed me when I said I was going to be 52 in three weeks.
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February 10th
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QUOTE OF THE DAY - I Dont Need Anger Management ... You Just Need To Stop Pissin Me Off !!
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February 11th
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I am so very lucky to have such a wonderful support system full of many great friends and my family.
Thinking about my daughter Sssha and hoping that she is okay. I miss her.
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February 12th
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I finally had enough of the nonsense at nationwide today, I am tired of being treated like trash. I called my recruiter and I said if that job at Liberty Mutual is still available, please put in my resume.
If the Liberty Mutual job is taken, then I think I am just going into escort and massage full time.
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February 13th
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What a nice way to start the day. A good fucking followed by a load of cum going down my throat. Yummy !
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February 14th
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I hope everyone has a Happy Valentine's Day.
I hope you are able to spend today with someone you care about.
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February 15th
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I guess we will find out what happens to this Portsmouth, NH job in a few days.
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February 16th
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Well, looks like I am off to work at Liberty Mutual again. My recruiter called me, told me about Liberty Mutual, and asked me if I was available. I loved working there before, and add to the fact that I have been very unhappy with the way things are going at nationwide, I think that yes, I will head to Liberty Mutual. The manager respected me, and evidently liked my work.
They were actually about ready to make an offer to someone else, and when they found out from my recruiter that I was possibly available, they said they wouldn't make the offer to that person and they would bring me back instead if I wanted the position. That makes me feel greatly appreciated. Obviously they liked my work or they would not have wanted me back. All companies and managers need to treat their employees in this manner.
I will miss my boyfriend Rob a lot. He is the love of my life. I will also miss my friends that are here, but I will be a whole lot happier at work, plus I will be flying and driving back to Ohio at least once, if not twice a month, so I will be able to see everyone then. I do have some tgirl friends in NH too, so it's not like I will be up there completely alone.
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February 17th
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I had my last day at Nationwide today. I was tired of being in no-win situation. I don't have an issue with nationwide as a company so much, but I do have an issue with idiotic management goons.
Monday I will be driving to New Hampshire and working at Liberty Mutual for the next several months.
Tonight I talked with my therapist and she has graciously indicated that she would be willing to do Saturday sessions. I am very thankful for her, she has been wonderful to me. My next appointment with her is on March 27th, coincidentally enough that will be my 2 year anniversary of being out full time.
I need to decide on my surgeon for SRS. I have narrowed it down to 2, well, 3. Marci Bowers, Christine Mcginn and
Pierre Brassard.
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February 19th
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I have the car all packed, and am getting ready to take a quick nap.
Tonight, I head to Cleveland. Saturday I will go to the Girls Night Out party at the Funky Skunk in Warren, Ohio. Sunday is probably going to be my take it easy day, maybe a movie or something.
Then Monday I will drive to New Hampshire.
Tuesday I start my job at Liberty Mutual, I loved working there before, and expect that to be the same again. Great manager, great coworkers, and great location.
Bobbie Jo
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February 20th
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I am in Warren, Ohio getting ready for Girls Night Out tonight. Watch out world, this tgirl is ready to party.
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February 21st
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I had a wonderful time at Girls Night Out in Warren, Ohio. We had lots of regulars there, as well as a few new girls too. That is wonderful. I was very happy to see some new girls show up.
This morning, I was awakened by a nice hard cock at the entrance to my tgirl tushy. Hmmm. I got the lube, inserted my vibrator and got myself ready for that nice cock. A few minutes later, I was getting fucked like a bitch in heat. We finished it off with him shooting his cum down my throat. Yummy, absolutely yummy.
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February 22nd
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Off to New Hampshire I go. I will miss my friends here and will especially miss Rob, (and Michelle too), but I won't miss the dumbass moron of a manager at nationwide.
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February 23rd
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TIRED tgirl here. I got into the hotel at about 3:30 this morning, unpacked the car a little, and crashed into bed.
Today at work consisted of getting my userid restored (all of my stuff was still out there from last fall, they just needed to resume my userid and give me a new password). After I write this, I am going home, watch a brief bit of tv and GO TO BED. Tomorrow I will actually start doing real work again, I can't wait, Liberty Mutual just feels right.
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February 25th
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wet aqnd rainy here, on the bright side, I did find a place to live last night. I move in this weekend.
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February 26th
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I am so much happier at work. Work is going great for me. I shouldn't have left here in the first place. Liberty Mutual is a great place to work.
I miss my friends, and watch out Rob, you better save your energy for March 27th, because when I come into town I will be expecting to be fucked. but good. I NEED SOME NICE TASTY COCK
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March 1st
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I celebrate my 52nd birthday tomorrow. I'm going to snuggle up next to my teddy bear again in bed tonight.
I feel like I am in my mid 30s.
Bobbie Jo
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March 2nd - my birthday
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This is the day I was born on this planet. I have received many birthday wishes from many great people. I will thank each and every one of you. If I haven't gotten to yours yet, please be patient, a lot of people sent me email.
Thank you all so much. It is nice to know people care.
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March 6th
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I am doing well, hope everyone else is too.
My internet at the boarding house isn't working for me, so I have to go to kinko's to update my site. I am moving into a new place Wednesday night.
Anyway, I am much happier going to work each day, I actually don't mind going to work. I almost look forward to it.
Nationwide and Oppressive could learn something from Liberty Mutual in how to treat people.
I will be in Columbus, OH, at Club Diversity on March 27th celebrating two years of being out full time. If you are in the area, stop by. I will probably be there about 9:00 p.m.
Take care
Love,
Bobbie Jo
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SRS in Montreal
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I've been reading this blog.
SRS in Montreal
I am considering this doctor, and like what I read so far. (except for the decrease in sensitivity part, but that can happen anywhere).
SRS is an extensive surgery and shit happens.
Bobbie Jo
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March 6th - #2
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I saw this elsewhere and it was true for me too. I also started transitioning at 49 years old.
"I lived 49 years trying to be good to everyone but the one person that truly matters - myself. It was time that I support HER, even if no-one else does. After all, I'm the ONLY one I know for a fact will be with me until my final day"
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March 8th - An amazing three years
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It has been an amazing 3 years. It was about 3 years ago at this time that I started cross dressing on a casual basis. Little did I know then I would be at the point I am now.
I was dressed in a bridal gown when I was 9 years old (for halloween). I loved it then (didn't really understand why), but of course I had to pretend like I didn't like it. After all, boys aren't supposed to like those things. That's my issue, I WASN'T A BOY.
When I was in my 20s, I wore my wifes bra and panties some, but didn't get into anything serious.
It wasn't until age 49 when a great lady that I know wondered aloud "I wonder what you would look like as a girl".
I didn't fully understand then, but that started me down the path to truly becoming a girl.
I didn't have any girl clothes at all, I bought my first pairs of panties and my first dress online from Victoris'a secret . Amazingly enough, when they arrived, they actually fit, talk about lucky. I still have those panties from 3 years ago, which I wear on occassion, I no longer wear the dress because it was just a generic red, cheap dress, and my outfits are so much better now.
After buying my first dress, I wore it out a couple of times, then decided to buy another outfit to wear out. I put on one of my new outfits, did my makeup (oh god, what a nightmare I was back then with makeup), and went to a club.
There I met a man who said he found me attractive, and we played some later that night. I know he was just being kind because my makeup skills were atrocious back then, but it was still nice to be wanted.
That evening encouraged me to go farther. I went back to that club several more times after that, becoming a little more sure of myself each time.
I bought more panties, and stuff, and started filling out my wardrobe.
It was about this point, late summer / early fall of 2007, that I knew I had finally figured out what had been wrong with my life for the previous 49 years.
I had been living my life as a man and I WAS A WOMAN !!!!
I decided I was going to change my outer appearance to match my inner self.
I contacted a doctor that did laser hair removal and told them I wanted to get rid of the hair on my face. They asked me why, I said because I am going to become a woman. Those words made me so happy, but also anxious at the same time because I knew I had a lot of work to do to make that dream come true. I made my first appointment for the next week.
Next I contacted a lady who did electrolysis to first fix my eyebrows because they were an absolute disaster, and later to get rid of the gray hair off my face. She asked me why, and I once again said those oh so beautiful words --> BECAUSE I AM GOING TO BECOME A WOMAN.
We made an appointment for the next week.
It was also in the fall of 2007, that I created my website: www.tgirlbobbiejo.com
In the fall of 2007, I also started letting my natural hair grow and haven't cut it to this day
I remember my very first GNO in Warren, Ohio in the fall of 2007. I met two wonderful people, Glenda and Michelle. Michelle and I have grown especially close over the last 2 and 1/2 years. I also remember the very first time I ever saw Chloe Prince at a GNO, I thought she was the most beautiful woman I had ever seen in my life. I couldn't believe it when someone told me she was a TS (this was still her pre-op days). She is absolutely amazing, and she is one of my inspirations. Donna Renee Richards is the other.
On March 27th, 2008 I went full time. Almost two years have gone by since that day, and they have been the happiest two years of my life.
In January 2009, I changed my legal name.
In the last 3 years, I have gone from just starting cross dressing to now in the final stages of my transition, choosing my surgeon and preparing to have my SRS surgery.
It has been an amazing journey the last 3 years, one that I wouldn't trade for the world.
I have met so many wonderful people, I have many close friends, I have a wonderful family, I have a wonderful boyfriend who bought me a diamond ring for christmas in 2009. My sister has been far and away my biggest supporter and I love her lots. I have a video on youtube where I did a striptease for a birthday celebration in 2009. Also at 51, I danced topless at a straight strip club. None of the girls there knew I was a TS, they all thought I was a GG until my friend told them. That made my month. Last year, I also dip lip syncing on stage to the song "Papa Don't Preach" by Madonna.
I have lived a truly wonderful and miraculous life over the last 3 years, and I see nothing but good times ahead as I plan my SRS. I thank my many wonderful friends, my family, and my boyfriend for all of the support that they have provided to me.
My only real down moment came when I had my daughter taken away from me simply because I am a transgendered female. She turns 18 in 2018, and I am very hopeful to re-connect with her then. I do miss her and hope she is doing well. I want her to know that I never stop thinking about her. I can only imagine the lies her mother is telling my daughter about me.
I am finally living my life as the woman I should have been all along, and I much better off emotionally, mentally and physically.
Bobbie Jo
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March 9th
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My new landlord fixed me dinner tonight, that was very nice of him. Tomorrow night I move in his place.
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